Part Four
CHAPTER XXXI
ON A COLD January afternoon in 1866,
Scarlett sat in the office writing a letter to Aunt Pitty, explaining
in detail for the tenth time why neither she, Melanie nor Ashley
could come back to Atlanta to live with her. She wrote impatiently
because she knew Aunt Pitty would read no farther than the opening
lines and then write her again, wailing: “But I’m afraid to live
by myself!”
Her hands were chilled and she paused
to rub them together and to scuff her feet deeper into the strip of
old quilting wrapped about them. The soles of her slippers were
practically gone and were reinforced with pieces of carpet. The
carpet kept her feet off the floor but did little to keep them warm.
That morning Will had taken the horse to Jonesboro to get him shod.
Scarlett thought grimly that things were indeed at a pretty pass when
horses had shoes and people’s feet were as bare as yard dogs’.
She picked up her quill to resume her
writing but laid it down when she heard Will coming in at the back
door. She heard the thump-thump of his wooden leg in the hall outside
the office and then he stopped. She waited for a moment for him to
enter and when he made no move she called to him. He came in, his
ears red from the cold, his pinkish hair awry, and stood looking down
at her, a faintly humorous smile on his lips.
“Miss Scarlett,” he questioned,
“just how much cash money have you got?”
“Are you going to try to marry me for
my money, Will?” she asked somewhat crossly.
“No, Ma’m. But I just wanted to
know.”
She stared at him inquiringly. Will
didn’t look serious, but then he never looked serious. However, she
felt that something was wrong.
“I’ve got ten dollars in gold,”
she said. “The last of that Yankee’s money.”
“Well, Ma’m, that won’t be
enough.”
“Enough for what?”
“Enough for the taxes,” he answered
and, stumping over to the fireplace, he leaned down and held his red
hands to the blaze.
“Taxes?” she repeated. “Name of
God, Will! We’ve already paid the taxes.”
“Yes’m. But they say you didn’t
pay enough. I heard about it today over to Jonesboro.”
“But, Will, I can’t understand.
What do you mean?”
“Miss Scarlett, I sure hate to bother
you with more trouble when you’ve had your share but I’ve got to
tell you. They say you ought to paid lots more taxes than you did.
They’re runnin’ the assessment up on Tara sky high—higher than
any in the County, I’ll be bound.”
“But they can’t make us pay more
taxes when we’ve already paid them once.”
“Miss Scarlett, you don’t never go
to Jonesboro often and I’m glad you don’t. It ain’t no place
for a lady these days. But if you’d been there much, you’d know
there’s a mighty rough bunch of Scallawags and Republicans and
Carpetbaggers been runnin’ things recently. They’d make you mad
enough to pop. And then, too, niggers pushin’ white folks off the
sidewalks and—”
“But what’s that got to do with our
taxes?”
“I’m gettin’ to it, Miss
Scarlett. For some reason the rascals have histed the taxes on Tara
till you’d think it was a thousand-bale place. After I heard about
it, I sorter oozed around the barrooms pickin’ up gossip and I
found out that somebody wants to buy in Tara cheap at the sheriffs
sale, if you can’t pay the extra taxes. And everybody knows pretty
well that you can’t pay them. I don’t know yet who it is wants
this place. I couldn’t find out. But I think that pusillanimous
feller, Hilton, that married Miss Cathleen knows, because he laughed
kind of nasty when I tried to sound him out.”
Will sat down on the sofa and rubbed
the stump of his leg. It ached in cold weather and the wooden peg was
neither well padded nor comfortable. Scarlett looked at him wildly.
His manner was so casual when he was sounding the death knell of
Tara. Sold out at the sheriff’s sale? Where would they all go? And
Tara belonging to some one else! No, that was unthinkable!
She had been so engrossed with the job
of making Tara produce she had paid little heed to what was going on
in the world outside. Now that she had Will and Ashley to attend to
whatever business she might have in Jonesboro and Fayetteville, she
seldom left the plantation. And even as she had listened with deaf
ears to her father’s war talk in the days before the war came, so
she had paid little heed to Will and Ashley’s discussions around
the table after supper about the beginnings of Reconstruction.
Oh, of course, she knew about the
Scalawags—Southerners who had turned Republican very profitably—and
the Carpetbaggers, those Yankees who came South like buzzards after
the surrender with all their worldly possessions in one carpetbag.
And she had had a few unpleasant experiences with the Freedmen’s
Bureau. She had gathered, also, that some of the free negroes were
getting quite insolent. This last she could hardly believe, for she
had never seen an insolent negro in her life.
But there were many things which Will
and Ashley had conspired to keep from her. The scourge of war had
been followed by the worse scourge of Reconstruction, but the two men
had agreed not to mention the more alarming details when they
discussed the situation at home. And when Scarlett took the trouble
to listen to them at all, most of what they said went in one ear and
out the other.
She had heard Ashley say that the South
was being treated as a conquered province and that vindictiveness was
the dominant policy of the conquerors. But that was the kind of
statement which meant less than nothing at all to Scarlett. Politics
was men’s business. She had heard Will say it looked to him like
the North just wasn’t aiming to let the South get on its feet
again. Well, thought Scarlett, men always had to have something
foolish to worry about. As far as she was concerned, the Yankees
hadn’t whipped her once and they wouldn’t do it this time. The
thing to do was to work like the devil and stop worrying about the
Yankee government. After all, the war was over.
Scarlett did not realize that all the
rules of the game had been changed and that honest labor could no
longer earn its just reward. Georgia was virtually under martial law
now. The Yankee soldiers garrisoned throughout the section and the
Freedmen’s Bureau were in complete command of everything and they
were fixing the rules to suit themselves.
This Bureau, organized by the Federal
government to take care of the idle and excited ex-slaves, was
drawing them from the plantations into the villages and cities by the
thousands. The Bureau fed them while they loafed and poisoned their
minds against their former owners. Gerald’s old overseer, Jonas
Wilkerson, was in charge of the local Bureau, and his assistant was
Hilton, Cathleen Calvert’s husband. These two industriously spread
the rumor that the Southerners and Democrats were just waiting for a
good chance to put the negroes back into slavery and that the
negroes’ only hope of escaping this fate was the protection given
them by the Bureau and the Republican party.
Wilkerson and Hilton furthermore told
the negroes they were as good as the whites in every way and soon
white and negro marriages would be permitted, soon the estates of
their former owners would be divided and every negro would be given
forty acres and a mule for his own. They kept the negroes stirred up
with tales of cruelty perpetrated by the whites and, in a section
long famed for the affectionate relations between slaves and slave
owners, hate and suspicion began to grow.
The Bureau was backed up by the
soldiers and the military had issued many and conflicting orders
governing the conduct of the conquered. It was easy to get arrested,
even for snubbing the officials of the Bureau. Military orders had
been promulgated concerning the schools, sanitation, the kind of
buttons one wore on one’s suit, the sale of commodities and nearly
everything else. Wilkerson and Hilton had the power to interfere in
any trade Scarlett might make and to fix their own prices on anything
she sold or swapped.
Fortunately Scarlett had come into
contact with the two men very little, for Will had persuaded her to
let him handle the trading while she managed the plantation. In his
mild-tempered way, Will had straightened out several difficulties of
this kind and said nothing to her about them. Will could get along
with Carpetbaggers and Yankees—if he had to. But now a problem had
arisen which was too big for him to handle. The extra tax assessment
and the danger of losing Tara were matters Scarlett had to know
about—and right away.
She looked at him with flashing eyes.
“Oh, damn the Yankees!” she cried.
“Isn’t it enough that they’ve licked us and beggared us without
turning loose scoundrels on us?”
The war was over, peace had been
declared, but the Yankees could still rob her, they could still
starve her, they could still drive her from her house. And fool that
she was, she had thought through weary months that if she could just
hold out until spring, everything would be all right. This crushing
news brought by Will, coming on top of a year of back-breaking work
and hope deferred, was the last straw.
“Oh, Will, and I thought our troubles
were all over when the war ended!”
“No’m.” Will raised his
lantern-jawed, country-looking face and gave her a long steady look.
“Our troubles are just gettin’ started.”
“How much extra taxes do they want us
to pay?”
“Three hundred dollars.”
She was struck dumb for a moment. Three
hundred dollars! It might just as well be three million dollars.
“Why,” she floundered, “why—why,
then we’ve got to raise three hundred, somehow.”
“Yes’m—add a rainbow and a moon
or two.”
“Oh, but Will! They couldn’t sell
out Tara. Why—”
His mild pale eyes showed more hate and
bitterness than she thought possible.
“Oh, couldn’t they? Well, they
could and they will and they’ll like doin’ it! Miss Scarlett, the
country’s gone plumb to hell, if you’ll pardon me. Those
Carpetbaggers and Scalawags can vote and most of us Democrats can’t.
Can’t no Democrat in this state vote if he was on the tax books for
more than two thousand dollars in ‘sixty-five. That lets out folks
like your pa and Mr. Tarleton and the McRaes and the Fontaine boys.
Can’t nobody vote who was a colonel and over in the war and, Miss
Scarlett, I bet this state’s got more colonels than any state in
the Confederacy. And can’t nobody vote who held office under the
Confederate government and that lets out everybody from the notaries
to the judges, and the woods are full of folks like that. Fact is,
the way the Yankees have framed up that amnesty oath, can’t nobody
who was somebody before the war vote at all. Not the smart folks nor
the quality folks nor the rich folks.
“Huh! I could vote if I took their
damned oath. I didn’t have any money in ‘sixty-five and I
certainly warn’t a colonel or nothin’ remarkable. But I ain’t
goin’ to take their oath. Not by a dinged sight! If the Yankees had
acted right, I’d have taken their oath of allegiance but I ain’t
now. I can be restored to the Union but I can’t be reconstructed
into it. I ain’t goin’ to take their oath even if I don’t never
vote again— But scum like that Hilton feller, he can vote, and
scoundrels like Jonas Wilkerson and pore whites like the Slatterys
and no-counts like the Macintoshes, they can vote. And they’re
runnin’ things now. And if they want to come down on you for extra
taxes a dozen times, they can do it. Just like a nigger can kill a
white man and not get hung or—” He paused, embarrassed, and the
memory of what had happened to a lone white woman on an isolated farm
near Lovejoy was in both their minds. … “Those niggers can do
anything against us and the Freedmen’s Bureau and the soldiers will
back them up with guns and we can’t vote or do nothin’ about it.”
“Vote!” she cried. “Vote! What on
earth has voting got to do with all this, Will? It’s taxes we’re
talking about. … Will, everybody knows what a good plantation Tara
is. We could mortgage it for enough to pay the taxes, if we had to.”
“Miss Scarlett, you ain’t any fool
but sometimes you talk like one. Who’s got any money to lend you on
this property? Who except the Carpetbaggers who are tryin’ to take
Tara away from you? Why, everybody’s got land. Everybody’s land
pore. You can’t give away land.”
“I’ve got those diamond earbobs I
got off that Yankee. We could sell them.”
“Miss Scarlett, who ‘round here has
got money for ear-bobs? Folks ain’t got money to buy side meat, let
alone gewgaws. If you’ve got ten dollars in gold, I take oath
that’s more than most folks have got.”
They were silent again and Scarlett
felt as if she were butting her head against a stone wall. There had
been so many stone walls to butt against this last year.
“What are we goin’ to do, Miss
Scarlett?”
“I don’t know,” she said dully
and felt that she didn’t care. This was one stone wall too many and
she suddenly felt so tired that her bones ached. Why should she work
and struggle and wear herself out? At the end of every struggle it
seemed that defeat was waiting to mock her.
“I don’t know,” she said. “But
don’t let Pa know. It might worry him.”
“I won’t.”
“Have you told anyone?”
“No, I came right to you.”
Yes, she thought, everyone always came
right to her with bad news and she was tired of it.
“Where is Mr. Wilkes? Perhaps he’ll
have some suggestion.”
Will turned his mild gaze on her and
she felt, as from the first day when Ashley came home, that he knew
everything.
“He’s down in the orchard splittin’
rails. I heard his axe when I was puttin’ up the horse. But he
ain’t got any money any more than we have.”
“If I want to talk to him about it, I
can, can’t I?” she snapped, rising to her feet and kicking the
fragment of quilting from her ankles.
Will did not take offense but continued
rubbing his hands before the flame. “Better get your shawl, Miss
Scarlett. It’s raw outside.”
But she went without the shawl, for it
was upstairs and her need to see Ashley and lay her troubles before
him was too urgent to wait.
How lucky for her if she could find him
alone! Never once since his return had she had a private word with
him. Always the family clustered about him, always Melanie was by his
side, touching his sleeve now and again to reassure herself he was
really there. The sight of that happy possessive gesture had aroused
in Scarlett all the jealous animosity which had slumbered during the
months when she had thought Ashley probably dead. Now she was
determined to see him alone. This time no one was going to prevent
her from talking with him alone.
She went through the orchard under the
bare boughs and the damp weeds beneath them wet her feet. She could
hear the sound of the axe ringing as Ashley split into rails the logs
hauled from the swamp. Replacing the fences the Yankees had so
blithely burned was a long hard task. Everything was a long hard
task, she thought wearily, and she was tired of it, tired and mad and
sick of it all. If only Ashley were her husband, instead of
Melanie’s, how sweet it would be to go to him and lay her head upon
his shoulder and cry and shove her burdens onto him to work out as
best he might.
She rounded a thicket of pomegranate
trees which were shaking bare limbs in the cold wind and saw him
leaning on his axe, wiping his forehead with the back of his hand. He
was wearing the remains of his butternut trousers and one of Gerald’s
shirts, a shirt which in better times went only to Court days and
barbecues, a ruffled shirt which was far too short for its present
owner. He had hung his coat on a tree limb, for the work was hot, and
he stood resting as she came up to him.
At the sight of Ashley in rags, with an
axe in his hand, her heart went out in a surge of love and of fury at
fate. She could not bear to see him in tatters, working, her debonair
immaculate Ashley. His hands were not made for work or his body for
anything but broadcloth and fine linen. God intended him to sit in a
great house, talking with pleasant people, playing the piano and
writing things which sounded beautiful and made no sense whatsoever.
She could endure the sight of her own
child in aprons made of sacking and the girls in dingy old gingham,
could bear it that Will worked harder than any field hand, but not
Ashley. He was too fine for all this, too infinitely dear to her. She
would rather split logs herself than suffer while he did it.
“They say Abe Lincoln got his start
splitting rails,” he said as she came up to him. “Just think to
what heights I may climb!”
She frowned. He was always saying light
things like this about their hardships. They were deadly serious
matters to her and sometimes she was almost irritated at his remarks.
Abruptly she told him Will’s news,
tersely and in short words, feeling a sense of relief as she spoke.
Surely, he’d have something helpful to offer. He said nothing but,
seeing her shiver, he took his coat and placed it about her
shoulders.
“Well,” she said finally, “doesn’t
it occur to you that well have to get the money somewhere?”
“Yes,” he said, “but where?”
“I’m asking you,” she replied,
annoyed. The sense of relief at unburdening herself had disappeared.
Even if he couldn’t help, why didn’t he say something comforting,
even if it was only: “Oh, I’m so sorry.”
He smiled.
“In all these months since I’ve
been home I’ve only heard of one person, Rhett Butler, who actually
has money,” he said.
Aunt Pittypat had written Melanie the
week before that Rhett was back in Atlanta with a carriage and two
fine horses and pocketfuls of greenbacks. She had intimated, however,
that he didn’t come by them honestly. Aunt Pitty had a theory,
largely shared by Atlanta, that Rhett had managed to get away with
the mythical millions of the Confederate treasury.
“Don’t let’s talk about him,”
said Scarlett shortly. “He’s a skunk if ever there was one.
What’s to become of us all?”
Ashley put down the axe and looked away
and his eyes seemed to be journeying to some far-off country where
she could not follow.
“I wonder,” he said. “I wonder
not only what will become of us at Tara but what will become of
everybody in the South.”
She felt like snapping out abruptly:
“To hell with everybody in the South! What about us?” but she
remained silent because the tired feeling was back on her more
strongly than ever. Ashley wasn’t being any help at all.
“In the end what will happen will be
what has happened whenever a civilization breaks up. The people who
have brains and courage come through and the ones who haven’t are
winnowed out. At least, it has been interesting, if not comfortable,
to witness a Götterdämmerung.”
“A what?”
“A dusk of the gods. Unfortunately,
we Southerners did think we were gods.”
“For Heaven’s sake, Ashley Wilkes!
Don’t stand there and talk nonsense at me when it’s us who are
going to be winnowed out!”
Something of her exasperated weariness
seemed to penetrate his mind, calling it back from its wanderings,
for he raised her hands with tenderness and, turning them palm up,
looked at the calluses.
“These are the most beautiful hands I
know,” he said and kissed each palm lightly. “They are beautiful
because they are strong and every callus is a medal, Scarlett, every
blister an award for bravery and unselfishness. They’ve been
roughened for all of us, your father, the girls, Melanie, the baby,
the negroes and for me. My dear, I know what you are thinking. You’re
thinking, ‘Here stands an impractical fool talking tommyrot about
dead gods when living people are in danger.’ Isn’t that true?”
She nodded, wishing he would keep on
holding her hands forever, but he dropped them.
“And you came to me, hoping I could
help you. Well, I can’t.”
His eyes were bitter as he looked
toward the axe and the pile of logs.
“My home is gone and all the money
that I so took for granted I never realized I had it. And I am fitted
for nothing in this world, for the world I belonged in has gone. I
can’t help you, Scarlett, except by learning with as good grace as
possible to be a clumsy farmer. And that won’t keep Tara for you.
Don’t you think I realize the bitterness of our situation, living
here on your charity— Oh, yes, Scarlett, your charity. I can never
repay you what you’ve done for me and for mine out of the kindness
of your heart. I realize it more acutely every day. And every day I
see more clearly how helpless I am to cope with what has come on us
all— Every day my accursed shrinking from realities makes it harder
for me to face the new realities. Do you know what I mean?”
She nodded. She had no very clear idea
what he meant but she clung breathlessly on his words, this was the
first time he had ever spoken to her of the things he was thinking
when he seemed so remote from her. It excited her as if she were on
the brink of a discovery.
“It’s a curse—this not wanting to
look on naked realities. Until the war, life was never more real to
me than a shadow show on a curtain. And I preferred it so. I do not
like the outlines of things to be too sharp. I like them gently
blurred, a little hazy.”
He stopped and smiled faintly,
shivering a little as the cold wind went through his thin shirt.
“In other words, Scarlett, I am a
coward.”
His talk of shadow shows and hazy
outlines conveyed-no meaning to her but his last words were in
language she could understand. She knew they were untrue. Cowardice
was not in him. Every line of his slender body spoke of generations
of brave and gallant men and Scarlett knew his war record by heart.
“Why, that’s not so! Would a coward
have climbed on the cannon at Gettysburg and rallied the men? Would
the General himself have written Melanie a letter about a coward?
And—”
“That’s not courage,” he said
tiredly. “Fighting is like champagne. It goes to the heads of
cowards as quickly as of heroes. Any fool can be brave on a battle
field when it’s be brave or else be killed. I’m talking of
something else. And my kind of cowardice is infinitely worse than if
I had run the first time I heard a cannon fired.”
His words came slowly and with
difficulty as if it hurt to speak them and he seemed to stand off and
look with a sad heart at what he had said. Had any other man spoken
so, Scarlett would have dismissed such protestations contemptuously
as mock modesty and a bid for praise. But Ashley seemed to mean them
and there was a look in his eyes which eluded her—not fear, not
apology, but the bracing to a strain which was inevitable and
overwhelming. The wintry wind swept her damp ankles and she shivered
again but her shiver was less from the wind than from the dread his
words evoked in her heart.
“But, Ashley, what are you afraid
of?”
“Oh, nameless things. Things which
sound very silly when they are put into words. Mostly of having life
suddenly become too real, of being brought into personal, too
personal, contact with some of the simple facts of life. It isn’t
that I mind splitting logs here in the mud, but I do mind what it
stands for. I do mind, very much, the loss of the beauty of the old
life I loved. Scarlett, before the war, life was beautiful. There was
a glamour to it, a perfection and a completeness and a symmetry to it
like Grecian art. Maybe it wasn’t so to everyone. I know that now.
But to me, living at Twelve Oaks, there was a real beauty to living.
I belonged in that life. I was a part of it. And now it is gone and I
am out of place in this new life, and I am afraid. Now, I know that
in the old days it was a shadow show I watched. I avoided everything
which was not shadowy, people and situations which were too real, too
vital. I resented their intrusion. I tried to avoid you too,
Scarlett. You were too full of living and too real and I was cowardly
enough to prefer shadows and dreams.”
“But—but—Melly?”
“Melanie is the gentlest of dreams
and a part of my dreaming. And if the war had not come I would have
lived out my life, happily buried at Twelve Oaks, contentedly
watching life go by and never being a part of it. But when the war
came, life as it really is thrust itself against me. The first time I
went into action—it was at Bull Run, you remember—I saw my
boyhood friends blown to bits and heard dying horses scream and
learned the sickeningly horrible feeling of seeing men crumple up and
spit blood when I shot them. But those weren’t the worst things
about the war, Scarlett. The worst thing about the war was the people
I had to live with.
“I had sheltered myself from people
an my life, I had carefully selected my few friends. But the war
taught me I had created a world of my own with dream people in it. It
taught me what people really are, but it didn’t teach me how to
live with them. And I’m afraid I’ll never learn. Now, I know that
in order to support my wife and child, I will have to make my way
among a world of people with whom I have nothing in common. You,
Scarlett, are taking life by the horns and twisting it to your will.
But where do I fit in the world any more? I tell you I am afraid.”
While his low resonant voice went on,
desolate, with a feeling she could not understand, Scarlett clutched
at words here and there, trying to make sense of them. But the words
swooped from her hands like wild birds. Something was driving him,
driving him with a cruel goad, but she did not understand what it
was.
“Scarlett, I don’t know just when
it was that the bleak realization came over me that my own private
shadow show was over. Perhaps in the first five minutes at Bull Run
when I saw the first man I killed drop to the ground. But I knew it
was over and I could no longer be a spectator. No, I suddenly found
myself on the curtain, an actor, posturing and making futile
gestures. My little inner world was gone, invaded by people whose
thoughts were not my thoughts, whose actions were as alien as a
Hottentot’s. They’d tramped through my world with slimy feet and
there was no place left where I could take refuge when things became
too bad to stand. When I was in prison, I thought: When the war is
over, I can go back to the old life and the old dreams and watch the
shadow show again. But, Scarlett, there’s no going back. And this
which is facing all of us now is worse than war and worse than
prison—and, to me, worse than death. … So, you see, Scarlett, I’m
being punished for being afraid.”
“But, Ashley,” she began,
floundering in a quagmire of bewilderment, “if you’re afraid
we’ll starve, why—why— Oh, Ashley, we’ll manage somehow! I
know we will!”
For a moment, his eyes came back to
her, wide and crystal gray, and there was admiration in them. Then,
suddenly, they were remote again and she knew with a sinking heart
that he had not been thinking about starving. They were always like
two people talking to each other in different languages. But she
loved him so much that, when he withdrew as he had now done, it was
like the warm son going down and leaving her in chilly twilight dews.
She wanted to catch him by the shoulders and hug him to her, make him
realize that she was flesh and blood and not something he had read or
dreamed. If she could only feel that sense of oneness with him for
which she had yearned since that day, so long ago, when he had come
home from Europe and stood on the steps of Tara and smiled up at her.
“Starving’s not pleasant,” he
said. “I know for I’ve starved, but I’m not afraid of that. I
am afraid of facing life without the slow beauty of our old world
that is gone.”
Scarlett thought despairingly that
Melanie would know what he meant. Melly and he were always talking
such foolishness, poetry and books and dreams and moonrays and star
dust. He was not fearing the things she feared, not the gnawing of an
empty stomach, nor the keenness of the winter wind nor eviction from
Tara. He was shrinking before some fear she had never known and could
not imagine. For, in God’s name, what was there to fear in this
wreck of a world but hunger and cold and the loss of home?
And she had thought that if she
listened closely she would know the answer to Ashley.
“Oh!” she said and the
disappointment in her voice was that of a child who opens a
beautifully wrapped package to find it empty. At her tone, he smiled
ruefully as though apologizing.
“Forgive me, Scarlett, for talking
so. I can’t make you understand because you don’t know the
meaning of fear. You have the heart of a lion and an utter lack of
imagination and I envy you both of those qualities. You’ll never
mind facing realities and you’ll never want to escape from them as
I do.”
“Escape!”
It was as if that were the only
understandable word he had spoken. Ashley, like her, was tired of the
struggle and he wanted to escape. Her breath came fast.
“Oh, Ashley,” she cried, “you’re
wrong. I do want to escape, too. I am so very tired of it all!”
His eyebrows went up in disbelief and
she laid a hand, feverish and urgent, on his arm.
“Listen to me,” she began swiftly,
the words tumbling out one over the other. “I’m tired of it all,
I tell you. Bone tired and I’m not going to stand it any longer.
I’ve struggled for food and for money and I’ve weeded and hoed
and picked cotton and I’ve even plowed until I can’t stand it
another minute. I tell you, Ashley, the South is dead! It’s dead!
The Yankees and the free niggers and the Carpetbaggers have got it
and there’s nothing left for us. Ashley, let’s run away!”
He peered at her sharply, lowering his
head to look into her face, now flaming with color.
“Yes, let’s run away—leave them
all! I’m tired of working for the folks. Somebody will take care of
them. There’s always somebody who takes care of people who can’t
take care of themselves. Oh, Ashley, let’s run away, you and I. We
could go to Mexico—they want officers in the Mexican Army and we
could be so happy there. I’d work for you, Ashley. I’d do
anything for you. You know you don’t love Melanie—”
He started to speak, a stricken look on
his face, but she stemmed his words with a torrent of her own.
“You told me you loved me better than
her that day— oh, you remember that day! And I know you haven’t
changed! I can tell you haven’t changed! And you’ve just said she
was nothing but a dream— Oh, Ashley, let’s go away! I could make
you so happy. And anyway,” she added venomously, “Melanie can’t—
Dr. Fontaine said she couldn’t ever have any more children and I
could give you—”
His hands were on her shoulders so
tightly that they hurt and she stopped, breathless.
“We were to forget that day at Twelve
Oaks.”
“Do you think I could ever forget it?
Have you forgotten it? Can you honestly say you don’t love me?”
He drew a deep breath and answered
quickly.
“No. I don’t love you.”
“That’s a lie.”
“Even if it is a lie,” said Ashley
and his voice was deadly quiet, “it is not something which can be
discussed.”
“You mean—”
“Do you think I could go off and
leave Melanie and the baby, even if I hated them both? Break
Melanie’s heart? Leave them both to the charity of friends?
Scarlett, are you mad? Isn’t there any sense of loyalty in you? You
couldn’t leave your father and the girls. They’re your
responsibility, just as Melanie and Beau are mine, and whether you
are tired or not, they are here and you’ve got to bear them.”
“I could leave them—I’m sick of
them—tired of them—”
He leaned toward her and, for a moment,
she thought with a catch at her heart that he was going to take her
in his arms. But instead, he patted her arm and spoke as one
comforting a child.
“I know you’re sick and tired.
That’s why you are talking this way. You’ve carried the load of
three men. But I’m going to help you—I won’t always be so
awkward—”
“There’s only one way you can help
me,” she said dully, “and that’s to take me away from here and
give us a new start somewhere, with a chance for happiness. There’s
nothing to keep us here.”
“Nothing,” he said quietly,
“nothing—except honor.”
She looked at him with baffled longing
and saw, as if for the first time, how the crescents of his lashes
were the thick rich gold of ripe wheat, how proudly his head sat upon
his bared neck and how the look of race and dignity persisted in his
slim erect body, even through its grotesque rags. Her eyes met his,
hers naked with pleading, his remote as mountain lakes under gray
skies.
She saw in them defeat of her wild
dream, her mad desires.
Heartbreak and weariness sweeping over
her, she dropped her head in her hands and cried. He had never seen
her cry. He had never thought that women of her strong mettle had
tears, and a flood of tenderness and remorse swept him. He came to
her swiftly and in a moment had her in his arms, cradling her
comfortingly, pressing her black head to his heart, whispering:
“Dear! My brave dear—don’t! You mustn’t cry!”
At his touch, he felt her change within
his grip and there was madness and magic in the slim body he held and
a hot soft glow in the green eyes which looked up at him. Of a
sudden, it was no longer bleak winter. For Ashley, spring was back
again, that half-forgotten balmy spring of green rustlings and
murmurings, a spring of ease and indolence, careless days when the
desires of youth were warm in his body. The bitter years since then
fell away and he saw that the lips turned up to his were red and
trembling and he kissed her.
There was a curious low roaring sound
in her ears as of sea shells held against them and through the sound
she dimly heard the swift thudding of her heart. Her body seemed to
melt into his and, for a timeless time, they stood, fused together as
his lips took hers hungrily as if he could never have enough.
When he suddenly released her she felt
that she could not stand alone and gripped the fence for support. She
raised eyes blazing with love and triumph to him.
“You do love me! You do love me! Say
it—say it!”
His hands still rested on her shoulders
and she felt them tremble and loved their trembling. She leaned
toward him ardently but he held her away from him, looking at her
with eyes from which all remoteness had fled, eyes tormented with
struggle and despair.
“Don’t!” he said. “Don’t! If
you do, I shall take you now, here.”
She smiled a bright hot smile which was
forgetful of time or place or anything but the memory of his mouth on
hers.
Suddenly he shook her, shook her until
her black hair tumbled down about her shoulders, shook her as if in a
mad rage at her—and at himself.
“We won’t do this!” he said. “I
tell you we won’t do it!”
It seemed as if her neck would snap if
he shook her again. She was blinded by her hair and stunned by his
action. She wrenched herself away and stared at him. There were small
beads of moisture on his forehead and his fists were curled into
claws as if in pain. He looked at her directly, his gray eyes
piercing.
“It’s all my fault—none of yours
and it will never happen again, because I am going to take Melanie
and the baby and go.”
“Go?” she cried in anguish. “Oh,
no!”
“Yes, by God! Do you think I’ll
stay here after this? When this might happen again—”
“But, Ashley, you can’t go. Why
should you go? You love me—”
“You want me to say it? All right,
I’ll say it. I love you.”
He leaned over her with a sudden
savagery which made her shrink back against the fence.
“I love you, your courage and your
stubbornness and your fire and your utter ruthlessness. How much do I
love you? So much that a moment ago I would have outraged the
hospitality of the house which has sheltered me and my family,
forgotten the best wife any man ever had—enough to take you here in
the mud like a—”
She struggled with a chaos of thoughts
and there was a cold pain in her heart as if an icicle had pierced
it. She said haltingly: “If you felt like that—and didn’t take
me—then you don’t love me.”
“I can never make you understand.”
They fell silent and looked at each
other. Suddenly Scarlett shivered and saw, as if coming back from a
long journey, that it was winter and the fields were bare and harsh
with stubble and she was very cold. She saw too that the old aloof
face of Ashley, the one she knew so well, had come back and it was
wintry too, and harsh with hurt and remorse.
She would have turned and left him
then, seeking the shelter of the house to hide herself, but she was
too tired to move. Even speech was a labor and a weariness.
There is nothing left,” she said at
last. “Nothing left for me. Nothing to love. Nothing to fight for.
You are gone and Tara is going.”
He looked at her for a long space and
then, leaning, scooped up a small wad of red clay from the ground.
“Yes, there is something left,” he
said, and the ghost of his old smile came back, the smile which
mocked himself as well as her. “Something you love better than me,
though you may not know it. You’ve still got Tara.”
He took her limp hand and pressed the
damp clay into it and closed her fingers about it. There was no fever
in his hands now, nor in hers. She looked at the red soil for a
moment and it meant nothing to her. She looked at him and realized
dimly that there was an integrity of spirit in him which was not to
be torn apart by her passionate hands, nor by any hands.
If it killed him, he would never leave
Melanie. If he burned for Scarlett until the end of his days, he
would never take her and he would fight to keep her at a distance.
She would never again get through that armor. The words, hospitality
and loyalty and honor, meant more to him than she did.
The clay was cold in her hand and she
looked at it again.
“Yes,” she said, I’ve still got
this.”
At first, the words meant nothing and
the clay was only red clay. But unbidden came the thought of the sea
of red dirt which surrounded Tara and how very dear it was and how
hard she had fought to keep it—how hard she was going to have to
fight if she wished to keep it hereafter. She looked at him again and
wondered where the hot flood of feeling had gone. She could think but
could not feel, not about him nor Tara either, for she was drained of
all emotion.
“You need not go,” she said
clearly. “I won’t have you all starve, simply because I’ve
thrown myself at your head. It will never happen again.”
She turned away and started back toward
the house across the rough fields, twisting her hair into a knot upon
her neck. Ashley watched her go and saw her square her small thin
shoulders as she went. And that gesture went to his heart, more than
any words she had spoken.
CHAPTER XXXII
SHE WAS STILL CLUTCHING the ball of red
clay when she went up the front steps. She had carefully avoided the
back entrance, for Mammy’s sharp eyes would certainly have seen
that something was greatly amiss. Scarlett did not want to see Mammy
or anyone else. She did not feel that she could endure seeing anyone
or talking to anyone again. She had no feeling of shame or
disappointment or bitterness now, only a weakness of the knees and a
great emptiness of heart. She squeezed the clay so tightly it ran out
from her clenched fist and she said over and over, parrot-like: “I’ve
still got this. Yes, I’ve still got this.”
There was nothing else she did have,
nothing but this red land, this land she had been willing to throw
away like a torn handkerchief only a few minutes before, Now, it was
dear to her again and she wondered dully what madness had possessed
her to hold it so lightly. Had Ashley yielded, she could have gone
away with him and left family and friends without a backward look
but, even in her emptiness, she knew it would have torn her heart to
leave these dear red hills and long washed gullies and gaunt black
pines. Her thoughts would have turned back to them hungrily until the
day she died. Not even Ashley could have filled the empty spaces in
her heart where Tara. had been uprooted. How wise Ashley was and how
well he knew her! He had only to press the damp earth into her hand
to bring her to her senses.
She was in the hall preparing to close
the door when she heard the sound of horse’s hooves and turned to
look down the driveway. To have visitors at this of all times was too
much. She’d hurry to her room and plead a headache.
But when the carriage came nearer, her
flight was checked by her amazement. It was a new carriage, shiny
with varnish, and “the harness was new too, with bits of polished
brass here and there. Strangers, certainly. No one she knew had the
money for such a grand new turn-out as this.
She stood in the doorway watching, the
cold draft blowing her skirts about her damp ankles. Then the
carriage stopped in front of the house and Jonas Wilkerson alighted.
Scarlett was so surprised at the sight of their former overseer
driving so fine a rig and in so splendid a greatcoat she could not
for a moment believe her eyes. Will had told her he looked quite
prosperous since he got his new job with the Freedmen’s Bureau.
Made a lot of money, Will said, swindling the niggers or the
government, one or tuther, or confiscating folks’ cotton and
swearing it was Confederate government cotton. Certainly he never
came by all that money honestly in these hard times.
And here he was now, stepping out of an
elegant carriage and handing down a woman dressed within an inch of
her life. Scarlett saw in a glance that the dress was bright in color
to the point of vulgarity but nevertheless her eyes went over the
outfit hungrily. It had been so long since she had even seen stylish
new clothes. Well! So hoops aren’t so wide this year, she thought,
scanning the red plaid gown. And, as she took in the black velvet
paletot, how short jackets are! And what a cunning hat! Bonnets must
be out of style, for this hat was only an absurd flat red velvet
affair, perched on the top of the woman’s head like a stiffened
pancake. The ribbons did not tie under the chin as bonnet ribbons
tied but in the back under the massive bunch of curls which fell from
the rear of the hat, curls which Scarlett could not help noticing did
not match the woman’s hair in either color or texture.
As the woman stepped to the ground and
looked toward the house, Scarlett saw there was something familiar
about the rabbity face, caked with white powder.
“Why, it’s Emmie Slattery!” she
cried, so surprised she spoke the words aloud.
“Yes’m, it’s me,” said Emmie,
tossing her head with an ingratiating smile and starting toward the
steps.
Emmie Slattery! The dirty tow-headed
slut whose illegitimate baby Ellen had baptized, Emmie who had given
typhoid to Ellen and killed her. This overdressed, common, nasty
piece of poor white trash was coming up the steps of Tara, bridling
and grinning as if she belonged here. Scarlett thought of Ellen and,
in a rush, feeling came back into the emptiness of her mind, a
murderous rage so strong it shook her like the ague.
“Get off those steps, you trashy
wench!” she cried. “Get off this land! Get out!”
Emmie’s jaw sagged suddenly and she
glanced at Jonas who came up with lowering brows. He made an effort
at dignity, despite his anger.
“You must not speak that way to my
wife,” he said.
“Wife?” said Scarlett and burst
into a laugh that was cutting with contempt. “High time you made
her your wife. Who baptized your other brats after you killed my
mother?”
Emmie said “Oh!” and retreated
hastily down the steps but Jonas stopped her flight toward the
carriage with a rough grip on her arm.
“We came out here to pay a call—a
friendly call,” he snarled. “And talk a little business with old
friends—”
“Friends?” Scarlett’s voice was
like a whiplash. “When were we ever friends with the like of you?
The Slatterys lived on our charity and paid it back by killing
Mother—and you—you— Pa discharged you about Emmie’s brat and
you know it. Friends? Get off this place before I call Mr. Benteen
and Mr. Wilkes.”
Under the words, Emmie broke her
husband’s hold and fled for the carriage, scrambling in with a
flash of patent-leather boots with bright-red tops and red tassels.
Now Jonas shook with a fury equal to
Scarlett’s and his sallow face was as red as an angry turkey
gobbler’s.
“Still high and mighty, aren’t you?
Well, I know all about you. I know you haven’t got shoes for your
feet. I know your father’s turned idiot—”
“Get off this place!”
“Oh, you won’t sing that way very
long. I know you’re broke. I know you can’t even pay your taxes.
I came out here to offer to buy this place from you—to make you a
right good offer. Emmie had a hankering to live here. But, by God, I
won’t give you a cent now! You highflying, bog-trotting Irish will
find out who’s running things around here when you get sold out for
taxes. And I’ll buy this place, lock, stock and barrel—furniture
and all—and I’ll live in it.”
So it was Jonas Wilkerson who wanted
Tara—Jonas and Emmie, who in some twisted way thought to even past
slights by living in the home where they had been slighted. All her
nerves hummed with hate, as they had hummed that day when she shoved
the pistol barrel into the Yankee’s bearded face and fired. She
wished she had that pistol now.
“I’ll tear this house down, stone
by stone, and burn it and sow every acre with salt before I see
either of you put foot over this threshold,” she shouted. “Get
out, I tell you! Get out!”
Jonas glared at her, started to say
more and then walked toward the carriage. He climbed in beside his
whimpering wife and turned the horse. As they drove off, Scarlett had
the impulse to spit at them. She did spit. She knew it was a common,
childish gesture but it made her feel better. She wished she had done
it while they could see her.
Those damned nigger lovers daring to
come here and taunt her about her poverty! That hound never intended
offering her a price for Tara. He just used that as an excuse to come
and flaunt himself and Emmie in her face. The dirty Scalawags, the
lousy trashy poor whites, boasting they would live at Tara!
Then, sudden terror struck her and her
rage melted. God’s nightgown! They will come and live here! There
was nothing she could do to keep them from buying Tara, nothing to
keep them from levying on every mirror and table and bed, on Ellen’s
shining mahogany and rosewood, and every bit of it precious to her,
scarred though it was by the Yankee raiders. And the Robillard silver
too. I won’t let them do it, thought Scarlett vehemently. No, not
if I’ve got to burn the place down! Emmie Slattery will never set
her foot on a single bit of flooring Mother ever walked on!
She closed the door and leaned against
it and she was very frightened. More frightened even than she had
been that day when Sherman’s army was in the house. That day the
worst she could fear was that Tara would be burned over her head. But
this was worse—these low common creatures living in this house,
bragging to their low common friends how they had turned the proud
O’Haras out. Perhaps they’d even bring negroes here to dine and
sleep. Will had told her Jonas made a great to-do about being equal
with the negroes, ate with them, visited in their houses, rode them
around with him in his carriage, put his arms around their shoulders.
When she thought of the possibility of
this final insult to Tara, her heart pounded so hard she could
scarcely breathe. She was trying to get her mind on her problem,
trying to figure some way out, but each time she collected her
thoughts, fresh gusts of rage and fear shook her. There must be some
way out, there must be someone somewhere who had money she could
borrow. Money couldn’t just dry up and blow away. Somebody had to
have money. Then the laughing words of Ashley came back to her:
“Only one person, Rhett Butler …
who has money.”
Rhett Butler. She walked quickly into
the parlor and shut the door behind her. The dim gloom of drawn
blinds and winter twilight closed about her. No one would think of
hunting for her here and she wanted time to think, undisturbed. The
idea which had just occurred to her was so simple she wondered why
she had not thought of it before.
“I’ll get the money from Rhett.
I’ll sell him the diamond earbobs. Or I’ll borrow the money from
him and let him keep the earbobs till I can pay him back.”
For a moment, relief was so great she
felt weak. She would pay the taxes and laugh in Jonas Wilkerson’s
face. But close on this happy thought came relentless knowledge.
“It’s not only for this year that
I’ll need tax money. There’s next year and all the years of my
life. If I pay up this time, they’ll raise the taxes higher next
time till they drive me out. If I make a good cotton crop, they’ll
tax it till I’ll get nothing for it or maybe confiscate it outright
and say it’s Confederate cotton. The Yankees and the scoundrels
teamed up with them have got me where they want me. All my life, as
long as I live, I’ll be afraid they’ll get me somehow. All my
life I’ll be scared and scrambling for money and working myself to
death, only to see my work go for nothing and my cotton stolen. …
Just borrowing three hundred dollars for the taxes will be only a
stopgap. What I want is to get out of this fix, for good—so I can
go to sleep at night without worrying over what’s going to happen
to me tomorrow, and next month, and next year.”
Her mind ticked on steadily. Coldly and
logically an idea grew in her brain. She thought of Rhett, a flash of
white teeth against swarthy skin, sardonic black eyes caressing her.
She recalled the hot night in Atlanta, close to the end of the siege,
when he sat on Aunt Pitty’s porch half hidden in the summer
darkness, and she felt again the heat of his hand upon her arm as he
said: “I want you more than I have ever wanted any woman—and I’ve
waited longer for you than I’ve ever waited for any woman.”
“I’ll marry him,” she thought
coolly. “And then I’ll never have to bother about money again.”
Oh, blessed thought, sweeter than hope
of Heaven, never to worry about money again, to know that Tara was
safe, that the family was fed and clothed, that she would never again
have to bruise herself against stone walls!
She felt very old. The afternoon’s
events had drained her of all feeling, first the startling news about
the taxes, then Ashley and, last, her murderous rage at Jonas
Wilkerson. Now there was no emotion left in her. If all her capacity
to feel had not been utterly exhausted, something in her would have
protested against the plan taking form in her mind, for she hated
Rhett as she hated no other person in all the world. But she could
not feel. She could only think and her thoughts were very practical.
“I said some terrible things to him
that night when he deserted us on the road, but I can make him forget
them,” she thought contemptuously, still sure of her power to
charm. “Butter won’t melt in my mouth when I’m around him. I’ll
make him think I always loved him and was just upset and frightened
that night. Oh, men are so conceited they’ll believe anything that
flatters them. … I must never let him dream what straits we’re
in, not till I’ve got him. Oh, he mustn’t know! If he even
suspected how poor we are, he’d know it was his money I wanted and
not himself. After all, there’s no way he could know, for even Aunt
Pitty doesn’t know the worst. And after I’ve married him, he’ll
have to help us. He can’t let his wife’s people starve.” His
wife. Mrs. Rhett Butler. Something of repulsion, buried deep beneath
her cold thinking, stirred faintly and then was stilled. She
remembered the embarrassing and disgusting events of her brief
honeymoon with Charles, his fumbling hands, his awkwardness, his
incomprehensible emotions—and Wade Hampton.
“I won’t think about it now. I’ll
bother about it after I’ve married him. …”
After she had married him. Memory rang
a bell. A chill went down her spine. She remembered again that night
on Aunt Pitty’s porch, remembered how she asked him if he was
proposing to her, remembered how hatefully he had laughed and said:
“My dear, I’m not a marrying man.”
Suppose he was still not a marrying
man. Suppose despite all her charms and wiles, he refused to marry
her. Suppose—oh, terrible thought!—suppose he had completely
forgotten about her and was chasing after some other woman.
“I want you more than I have ever
wanted any woman. …”
Scarlett’s nails dug into her palms
as she clenched her fists. “If he’s forgotten me, I’ll make him
remember me. I’ll make him want me again.”
And, if he would not marry her but
still wanted her, there was a way to get the money. After all, he had
once asked her to be his mistress.
In the dim grayness of the parlor she
fought a quick decisive battle with the three most binding ties of
her soul—the memory of Ellen, the teachings of her religion and her
love for Ashley. She knew that what she had in her mind must be
hideous to her mother even in that warm far-off Heaven where she
surely was. She knew that fornication was a mortal sin. And she knew
that, loving Ashley as she did, her plan was doubly prostitution.
But all these things went down before
the merciless coldness of her mind and the goad of desperation. Ellen
was dead and perhaps death gave an understanding of all things.
Religion forbade fornication on pain of hell fire but if the Church
thought she was going to leave one stone unturned in saving Tara and
saving the family from starving—well, let the Church bother about
that. She wouldn’t. At least, not now. And Ashley—Ashley didn’t
want her. Yes, he did want her. The memory of his warm mouth on hers
told her that. But he would never take her away with him. Strange
that going away with Ashley did not seem like a sin, but with Rhett—
In the dull twilight of the winter
afternoon she came to the end of the long road which had begun the
night Atlanta fell. She had set her feet upon that road a spoiled,
selfish and untried girl, full of youth, warm of emotion, easily
bewildered by life. Now, at the end of the road, there was nothing
left of that girl. Hunger and hard labor, fear and constant strain,
the terrors of war and the terrors of Reconstruction had taken away
all warmth and youth and softness. About the core of her being, a
shell of hardness had formed and, little by little, layer by layer,
the shell had thickened during the endless months.
But until this very day, two hopes had
been left to sustain her. She had hoped that the war being over, life
would gradually resume its old face. She had hoped that Ashley’s
return would bring back some meaning into life. Now both hopes were
gone. The sight of Jonas Wilkerson in the front walk of Tara had made
her realize that for her, for the whole South, the war would never
end. The bitterest fighting, the most brutal retaliations, were just
beginning. And Ashley was imprisoned forever by words which were
stronger than any jail.
Peace had failed her and Ashley had
failed her, both in the same day, and it was as if the last crevice
in the shell had been sealed, the final layer hardened. She had
become what Grandma Fontaine had counseled against, a woman who had
seen the worst and so had nothing else to fear. Not life nor Mother
nor loss of love nor public opinion. Only hunger and her nightmare
dream of hunger could make her afraid.
A curious sense of lightness, of
freedom, pervaded her now that she had finally hardened her heart
against all that bound her to the old days and the old Scarlett. She
had made her decision and, thank God, she wasn’t afraid. She had
nothing to lose and her mind was made up.
If she could only coax Rhett into
marrying her, all would be perfect. But if she couldn’t—well,
she’d get the money just the same. For a brief moment she wondered
with impersonal curiosity what would be expected of a mistress. Would
Rhett insist on keeping her in Atlanta as people said he kept the
Watling woman? If he made her stay in Atlanta, he’d have to pay
well—pay enough to balance what her absence from Tara would be
worth. Scarlett was very ignorant of the hidden side of men’s lives
and had no way of knowing just what the arrangement might involve.
And she wondered if she would have a baby. That would be distinctly
terrible.
“I won’t think of that now. I’ll
think of it later,” and she pushed the unwelcome idea into the back
of her mind lest it shake her resolution. She’d tell the family
tonight she was going to Atlanta to borrow money, to try to mortgage
the farm if necessary. That would be all they needed to know until
such an evil day when they might find out differently.
With the thought of action, her head
went up and her shoulders went back. This affair was not going to be
easy, she knew. Formerly, it had been Rhett who asked for her favors
and she who held the power. Now she was the beggar and a beggar in no
position to dictate terms.
“But I won’t go to him like a
beggar. I’ll go like a queen granting favors. He’ll never know.”
She walked to the long pier glass and
looked at herself, her head held high. And she saw framed in the
cracking gilt molding a stranger. It was as if she were really seeing
herself for the first time in a year. She had glanced in the mirror
every morning to see that her face was clean and her hair tidy but
she had always been too pressed by other things to really see
herself. But this stranger! Surely this thin hollow-cheeked woman
couldn’t be Scarlett O’Hara! Scarlett O’Hara had a pretty,
coquettish, high-spirited face. This face at which she stared was not
pretty at all and had none of the charm she remembered so well. It
was white and strained and the black brows above slanting green eyes
swooped up startlingly against the white skin like frightened bird’s
wings. There was a hard and hunted look about this face.
“I’m not pretty enough to get him!”
she thought and desperation came back to her. “I’m thin—oh, I’m
terribly thin!”
She patted her cheeks, felt frantically
at her collar bones, feeling them stand out through her basque. And
her breasts were so small, almost as small as Melanie’s. She’d
have to put ruffles in her bosom to make them look larger and she had
always had contempt for girls who resorted to such subterfuges.
Ruffles! That brought up another thought. Her clothes. She looked
down at her dress, spreading its mended folds wide between her hands.
Rhett liked women who were well dressed, fashionably dressed. She
remembered with longing the flounced green dress she had worn when
she first came out of mourning, the dress she wore with the green
plumed bonnet he had brought her and she recalled the approving
compliments he had paid her. She remembered, too, with hate sharpened
by envy the red plaid dress, the red-topped boots with tassels and
the pancake hat of Emmie Slattery. They were gaudy but they were new
and fashionable and certainly they caught the eye. And, oh, how she
wanted to catch the eye! Especially the eye of Rhett Butler! If he
should see her in her old clothes, he’d know everything was wrong
at Tara. And he must not know.
What a fool she had been to think she
could go to Atlanta and have him for the asking, she with her scrawny
neck and hungry cat eyes and raggedy dress! If she hadn’t been able
to pry a proposal from him at the height of her beauty, when she had
her prettiest clothes, how could she expect to get one now when she
was ugly and dressed tackily? If Miss Pitty’s story was true, he
must have more money than anyone in Atlanta and probably had his pick
of all the pretty ladies, good and bad. Well, she thought grimly,
I’ve got something that most pretty ladies haven’t got—and
that’s a mind that’s made up. And if I had just’ one nice
dress—
There wasn’t a nice dress in Tara or
a dress which hadn’t been turned twice and mended.
“That’s that,” she thought,
disconsolately looking down at the floor. She saw Ellen’s
moss-green velvet carpet, now worn and scuffed and torn and spotted
from the numberless men who had slept upon it, and the sight
depressed her more, for it made her realize that Tara was just as
ragged as she. The whole darkening room depressed her and, going to
the window, she raised the sash, unlatched the shutters and let the
last light of the wintry sunset into the room. She closed the window
and leaned her head against the velvet curtains and looked out across
the bleak pasture toward the dark cedars of the burying ground.
The moss-green velvet curtains felt
prickly and soft beneath her cheek and she rubbed her face against
them gratefully, like a cat And then suddenly she looked at them.
A minute later, she was dragging a
heavy marble-topped table across the floor. Its rusty castors
screeching in protest. She rolled the table under the window,
gathered up her skirts, climbed on it and tiptoed to reach the heavy
curtain pole. It was almost out of her reach and she jerked at it so
impatiently the nails came out of the wood, and the curtains, pole
and all, fell to the floor with a clatter.
As if by magic, the door of the parlor
opened and the wide black face of Mammy appeared, ardent curiosity
and deepest suspicion evident in every wrinkle. She looked
disapprovingly at Scarlett, poised on the table top, her skirts above
her knees, ready to leap to the floor. There was a look of excitement
and triumph on her face which brought sudden distrust to Mammy.
“Whut you up to wid Miss Ellen’s
po’teers?” she demanded.
“What are you up to listening outside
doors?” asked Scarlett, leaping nimbly to the floor and gathering
up a length of the heavy dusty velvet.
“Dat ain’ needer hyah no dar,”
countered Mammy, girding herself for combat “You ain’ got no
bizness wid Miss Ellen’s po’teers, juckin’ de poles plum outer
de wood, an’ drappin’ dem on de flo’ in de dust. Miss Ellen set
gret sto’ by dem po’teers an’ Ah ain’ ‘tendin’ ter have
you muss dem up dat way.”
Scarlett turned green eyes on Mammy,
eyes which were feverishly gay, eyes which looked like the bad little
girl of the good old days Mammy sighed about.
“Scoot up to the attic and get my box
of dress patterns, Mammy,” she cried, giving her a slight shove.
“I’m going to have a new dress.”
Mammy was torn between indignation at
the very idea of her two hundred pounds scooting anywhere, much less
to the attic, and the dawning of a horrid suspicion. Quickly she
snatched the curtain lengths from Scarlett, holding them against her
monumental, sagging breasts as if they were holy relics.
“Not outer Miss Ellen’s po’teers
is you gwine have a new dress, ef dat’s whut you figgerin’ on.
Not wile Ah got breaf in mah body.”
For a moment the expression Mammy was
won’t to describe to herself as “bullheaded” flitted over her
young mistress’ face and then it passed into a smile, so difficult
for Mammy to resist. But it did not fool the old woman. She knew Miss
Scarlett was employing that smile merely to get around her and in
this matter she was determined not to be gotten around.
“Mammy, don’t be mean. I’m going
to Atlanta to borrow some money and I’ve got to have a new dress.”
“You doan need no new dress. Ain’
no other ladies got new dresses. Dey weahs dey ole ones an’ dey
weahs dem proudfully. Ain’ no reason why Miss Ellen’s chile kain
weah rags ef she wants ter, an’ eve’ybody respec’ her lak she
wo’ silk.”
The bullheaded expression began to
creep back. Lordy, ‘twus right funny how de older Miss Scarlett git
de mo’ she look lak Mist’ Gerald and de less lak Miss Ellen!
“Now, Mammy, you know Aunt Pitty
wrote us that Miss Fanny Elsing is getting married this Saturday, and
of course I’ll go to the wedding. And I’ll need a new dress to
wear.”
“De dress you got on’ll be jes’
as nice as Miss Fanny’s weddin’ dress. Miss Pitty done wrote dat
de Elsings mighty po’.”
“But I’ve got to have a new dress!
Mammy, you don’t know how we need money. The taxes—”
“Yas’m, Ah knows all ‘bout de
taxes but—”
“You do?”
“Well’m, Gawd give me ears, din’
he, an’ ter hear wid? Specially w’en Mist’ Will doan never tek
trouble ter close de do’.”
Was there nothing Mammy did not
overhear? Scarlett wondered how that ponderous body which shook the
floors could move with such savage stealth when its owner wished to
eavesdrop.
“Well, if you heard all that, I
suppose you heard Jonas Wilkerson and that Emmie—”
“Yas’m,” said Mammy with
smoldering eyes.
“Well, don’t be a mule, Mammy.
Don’t you see I’ve got to go to Atlanta and get money for the
taxes? I’ve got to get some money. I’ve got to do it!” She
hammered one small fist into the other. “Name of God, Mammy,
they’ll turn us all out into the road and then where’ll we go?
Are you going to argue with me about a little matter of Mother’s
curtains when that trash Emmie Slattery who killed Mother is fixing
to move into this house and sleep in the bed Mother slept in?”
Mammy shifted from one foot to another
like a restive elephant. She had a dim feeling that she was being got
around.
“No’m, Ah ain’ wantin’ ter see
trash in Miss Ellen’s house or us all in de road but—” She
fixed Scarlett with a suddenly accusing eye: “Who is you fixin’
ter git money frum dat you needs a new dress?”
“That,” said Scarlett, taken aback,
“is my own business.”
Mammy looked at her piercingly, just as
she had done when Scarlett was small and had tried unsuccessfully to
palm off plausible excuses for misdeeds. She seemed to be reading her
mind and Scarlett dropped her eyes unwillingly, the first feeling of
guilt at her intended conduct creeping over her.
“So you needs a spang new pretty
dress ter borry money wid. Dat doan lissen jes’ right ter me. An’
you ain’ sayin’ whar de money ter come frum.”
“I’m not saying anything,” said
Scarlett indignantly. “It’s my own business. Are you going to
give me that curtain and help me make the dress?”
“Yas’m,” said Mammy softly,
capitulating with a suddenness which aroused all the suspicion in
Scarlett’s mind. “Ah gwine he’p you mek it an’ Ah specs we
mout git a petticoat outer de satin linin’ of de po’teers an’
trim a pa’r pantalets wid de lace cuttins.”
She handed the velvet curtain back to
Scarlett and a sly smile spread over her face.
“Miss Melly gwine ter ‘Lanta wid
you, Miss Scarlett?”
“No,” said Scarlett sharply,
beginning to realize what was coming. “I’m going by myself.”
“Dat’s whut you thinks,” said
Mammy firmly, “but Ah is gwine wid you an’ dat new dress. Yas,
Ma’m, eve’y step of de way.”
For an instant Scarlett envisaged her
trip to Atlanta and her conversation with Rhett with Mammy glowering
chaperonage like a large black Cerberus in the background. She smiled
again and put a hand on Mammy’s arm.
“Mammy darling, you’re sweet to
want to go with me and help me, but how on earth would the folks here
get on without you? You know you just about run Tara.”
“Huh!” said Mammy. “Doan do no
good ter sweet talk me, Miss Scarlett. Ah been knowin’ you sence Ah
put de fust pa’r of diapers on you. Ah’s said Ah’s gwine ter
‘Lanta wid you an’ gwine Ah is. Miss Ellen be tuhnin’ in her
grabe at you gwine up dar by yo’seff wid dat town full up wid
Yankees an’ free niggers an’ sech like.”
“But I’ll be at Aunt Pittypat’s,”
Scarlett offered frantically.
“Miss Pittypat a fine woman an’ she
think she see eve’ything but she doan,” said Mammy, and turning
with the majestic air of having closed the interview, she went into
the hall. The boards trembled as she called:
“Prissy, child! Fly up de stairs an’
fotch Miss Scarlett’s pattun box frum de attic an’ try an’ fine
de scissors without takin’ all night ‘bout it.”
“This is a fine mess,” thought
Scarlett dejectedly. “I’d as soon have a bloodhound after me.”
After supper had been cleared away,
Scarlett and Mammy spread patterns on the dining-room table while
Suellen and Carreen busily ripped satin linings from curtains and
Melanie brushed the velvet with a clean hairbrush to remove the dust.
Gerald, Will and Ashley sat about the room smoking, smiling at the
feminine tumult. A feeling of pleasurable excitement which seemed to
emanate from Scarlett was on them all, an excitement they could not
understand. There was color in Scarlett’s face and a bright hard
glitter in her eyes and she laughed a good deal. Her laughter pleased
them all, for it had been months since they had heard her really
laugh. Especially did it please Gerald. His eyes were less vague
than-usual as they followed her swishing figure about the room and he
patted her approvingly whenever she was within reach. The girls were
as excited as if preparing for a ball and they ripped and cut and
basted as if making a ball dress of their own.
Scarlett was going to Atlanta to borrow
money or to mortgage Tara if necessary. But what was a mortgage,
after all? Scarlett said they could easily pay it off out of next
year’s cotton and have money left over, and she said it with such
finality they did not think to question. And when they asked who was
going to lend the money she said: “Layovers catch meddlers,” so
archly they all laughed and teased her about her millionaire friend.
“It must be Captain Rhett Butler,”
said Melanie slyly and they exploded with mirth at this absurdity,
knowing how Scarlett hated him and never failed to refer to him as
“that skunk, Rhett Butler.”
But Scarlett did not laugh at this and
Ashley, who had laughed, stopped abruptly as he saw Mammy shoot a
quick, guarded glance at Scarlett.
Suellen, moved to generosity by the
party spirit of the occasion, produced her Irish-lace collar,
somewhat worn but still pretty, and Carreen insisted that Scarlett
wear her slippers to Atlanta, for they were in better condition than
any others at Tara. Melanie begged Mammy to leave her enough velvet
scraps to recover the frame of her battered bonnet and brought shouts
of laughter when she said the old rooster was going to part with his
gorgeous bronze and green-black tail feathers unless he took to the
swamp immediately.
Scarlett, watching the flying fingers,
heard the laughter and looked at them all with concealed bitterness
and contempt.
“They haven’t an idea what is
really happening to me or to themselves or to the South. They still
think, in spite of everything, that nothing really dreadful can
happen to any of them because they are who they are, O’Haras,
Wilkeses, Hamiltons. Even the darkies feel that way. Oh, they’re
all fools! They’ll never realize! They’ll go right on thinking
and living as they always have, and nothing will change them. Melly
can dress in rags and pick cotton and even help me murder a man but
it doesn’t change her. She’s still the shy well-bred Mrs. Wilkes,
the perfect lady! And Ashley can see death and war and be wounded and
lie in jail and come home to less than nothing and still be the same
gentleman he was when he had all Twelve Oaks behind him. Will is
different. He knows how things really are but then Will never had
anything much to lose. And as for Suellen and Carreen—they think
all this is just a temporary matter. They don’t change to meet
changed conditions because they think it’ll all be over soon. They
think God is going to work a miracle especially for their benefit.
But He won’t. The only miracle that’s going to be worked around
here is the one I’m going to work on Rhett Butler. … They won’t
change. Maybe they can’t change. I’m the only one who’s
changed—and I wouldn’t have changed if I could have helped it.”
Mammy finally turned the men out of the
dining room and closed the door, so the fitting could begin. Pork
helped Gerald upstairs to bed and Ashley and Will were left alone in
the lamplight in the front hall. They were silent for a while and
Will chewed his tobacco like a placid ruminant animal. But his mild
face was far from placid.
“This goin’ to Atlanta,” he said
at last in a slow voice, “I don’t like it. Not one bit.”
Ashley looked at Will quickly and then
looked away, saying nothing but wondering if Will had the same awful
suspicion which was haunting him. But that was impossible. Will
didn’t know what had taken place in the orchard that afternoon and
how it had driven Scarlett to desperation. Will couldn’t have
noticed Mammy’s face when Rhett Butler’s name was mentioned and,
besides, Will didn’t know about Rhett’s money or his foul
reputation. At least, Ashley did not think he could know these
things, but since coming back to Tara he had realized that Will, like
Mammy, seemed to know things without being told, to sense them before
they happened. There was something ominous in the air, exactly what
Ashley did nut know, but he was powerless to save Scarlett from it.
She had not met his eyes once that evening and the hard bright gaiety
with which she had treated him was frightening. The suspicions which
tore at him were too terrible to be put into words. He did not have
the right to insult her by asking her if they were true. He clenched
his fists. He had no rights at all where she was concerned; this
afternoon he had forfeited them all, forever. He could not help her.
No one could help her. But when he thought of Mammy and the look of
grim determination she wore as she cut into the velvet curtains, he
was cheered a little. Mammy would take care of Scarlett whether
Scarlett wished it or not.
“I have caused all this,” he
thought despairingly. “I have driven her to this.”
He remembered the way she had squared
her shoulders when she turned away from him that afternoon,
remembered the stubborn lift of her head. His heart went out to her,
torn with his own helplessness, wrenched with admiration. He knew she
had no such word in her vocabulary as gallantry, knew she would have
stared blankly if he had told her she was the most gallant soul he
had ever known. He knew she would not understand how many truly fine
things he ascribed to her when he thought of her as gallant He knew
that she took life as it came, opposed her tough-fibered mind to
whatever obstacles there might be, fought on with a determination
that would not recognize defeat, and kept on fighting even when she
saw defeat was inevitable.
But, for four years, he had seen others
who had refused to recognize defeat, men who rode gaily into sure
disaster because they were gallant And they had been defeated, just
the same.
He thought as he stared at Will in the
shadowy hall that he had never known such gallantry as the gallantry
of Scarlett O’Hara going forth to conquer the world in her mother’s
velvet curtains and the tail feathers of a rooster.
CHAPTER XXXIII
A COLD WIND was blowing stiffly and the
scudding clouds overhead were the deep gray of slate when Scarlett
and Mammy stepped from the train in Atlanta the next afternoon. The
depot had not been rebuilt since the burning of the city and they
alighted amid cinders and mud a few yards above the blackened ruins
which marked the site. Habit strong upon her, Scarlett looked about
for Uncle Peter and Pitty’s carriage, for she had always been met
by them when returning from Tara to Atlanta during the war years.
Then she caught herself with a sniff at her own absent-mindedness.
Naturally, Peter wasn’t there for she had given Aunt Pitty no
warning of her coming and, moreover, she remembered that one of the
old lady’s letters had dealt tearfully with the death of the old
nag Peter had “ ‘quired” in Macon to bring her back to Atlanta
after the surrender.
She looked about the rutted and cut-up
space around the depot for the equipage of some old friend or
acquaintance who might drive them to Aunt Pitty’s house but she
recognized no one, black or white. Probably none of her old friends
owned carriages now, if what Pitty had written them was true. Times
were so hard it was difficult to feed and lodge humans, much less
animals. Most of Pitty’s friends, like herself, were afoot these
days.
There were a few wagons loading at the
freight cars and several mud-splashed buggies with rough-looking
strangers at the reins but only two carriages. One was a closed
carriage, the other open and occupied by a well-dressed woman and a
Yankee officer. Scarlett drew in her breath sharply at the sight of
the uniform. Although Pitty had written that Atlanta was garrisoned
and the streets full of soldiers, the first sight of the bluecoat
startled and frightened her. It was hard to remember that the war was
over and that this man would not pursue her, rob her and insult her.
The comparative emptiness around the
train took her mind back to that morning in 1862 when she had come to
Atlanta as a young widow, swathed in crêpe and wild with boredom.
She recalled how crowded this space had been with wagons and
carriages and ambulances and how noisy with drivers swearing and
yelling and people calling greetings to friends. She sighed for the
light-hearted excitement of the war days and sighed again at the
thought of walking all the way to Aunt Pitty’s house. But she was
hopeful that once on Peachtree Street, she might meet someone she
knew who would give them a ride.
As she stood looking about her a
saddle-colored negro of middle age drove the dosed carriage toward
her and, leaning from the box, questioned: “Cah’ige, lady? Two
bits fer any whar in ‘Lanta.”
Mammy threw him an annihilating glance.
“A hired hack!” she rumbled.
“Nigger, does you know who we is?”
Mammy was a country negro but she had
not always been a country negro and she knew that no chaste woman
ever rode in a hired conveyance—especially a closed
carriage—without the escort of some male member of her family. Even
the presence of a negro maid would not satisfy the conventions. She
gave Scarlett a glare as she saw her look longingly at the hack.
“Come ‘way frum dar, Miss Scarlett!
A hired hack an’ a free issue nigger! Well, dat’s a good
combination.”
“Ah ain’ no free issue nigger,”
declared the driver with heat. “Ah b’longs ter Ole Miss Talbot
an’ disyere her cah’ige an’ Ah drives it ter mek money fer us.”
“Whut Miss Talbot is dat?”
“Miss Suzannah Talbot of
Milledgeville. Us done move up hyah affer Old Marse wuz kilt.”
“Does you know her, Miss Scarlett?”
“No,” said Scarlett, regretfully.
“I know so few Milledgeville folks.”
“Den us’ll walk,” said Mammy
sternly. “Drive on, nigger.”
She picked up the carpetbag which held
Scarlett’s new velvet frock and bonnet and nightgown and tucked the
neat bandanna bundle that contained her own belongings under her arm
and shepherded Scarlett across the wet expanse of cinders. Scarlett
did not argue the matter, much as she preferred to ride, for she
wished no disagreement with Mammy. Ever since yesterday afternoon
when Mammy had caught her with the velvet curtains, there had been an
alert suspicious look in her eyes which Scarlett did not like. It was
going to be difficult to escape from her chaperonage and she did not
intend to rouse Mammy’s fighting blood before it was absolutely
necessary.
As they walked along the narrow
sidewalk toward Peachtree, Scarlett was dismayed and sorrowful, for
Atlanta looked so devastated and different from what she remembered.
They passed beside what had been the Atlanta Hotel where Rhett and
Uncle Henry had lived and of that elegant hostelry there remained
only a shell, a part of the blackened walls. The warehouses which had
bordered the train tracks for a quarter of a mile and held tons of
military supplies had not been rebuilt and their rectangular
foundations looked dreary under the dark sky. Without the wall of
buildings on either side and with the car shed gone, the railroad
tracks seemed bare and exposed. Somewhere amid these ruins,
undistinguishable from the others, lay what remained of her own
warehouse on the property Charles had left her. Uncle Henry had paid
last year’s taxes on it for her. She’d have to repay that money
some time. That was something else to worry about.
As they turned the corner into
Peachtree Street and she looked toward Five Points, she cried out
with shock. Despite all Frank had told her about the town burning to
the ground, she had never really visualized complete destruction. In
her mind the town she loved so well still stood full of close-packed
buildings and fine houses. But this Peachtree Street she was looking
upon was so denuded of landmarks it was as unfamiliar as if she had
never seen it before. This muddy street down which she had driven a
thousand times during the war, along which she had fled with ducked
head and fear-quickened legs when shells burst over her during the
siege, this street she had last seen in the heat and hurry and
anguish of the day of the retreat, was so strange looking she felt
like crying.
Though many new buildings had sprung up
in the year since Sherman marched out of the burning town and the
Confederates returned, there were still wide vacant lots around Five
Points where heaps of smudged broken bricks lay amid a jumble of
rubbish, dead weeds and broom-sedge. There were the remains of a few
buildings she remembered, roofless brick walls through which the dull
daylight shone, glassless windows gaping, chimneys towering
lonesomely. Here and there her eyes gladly picked out a familiar
store which had partly survived shell and fire and had been repaired,
the fresh red of new brick glaring bright against the smut of the old
walls. On new store fronts and new office windows she saw the welcome
names of men she knew but more often the names were unfamiliar,
especially the dozens of shingles of strange doctors and lawyers and
cotton merchants. Once she had known practically everyone in Atlanta
and the sight of so many strange names depressed her. But she was
cheered by the sight of new buildings going up all along the street.
There were dozens of them and several
were three stories high! Everywhere building was going on, for as she
looked down the street, trying to adjust her mind to the new Atlanta,
she heard the blithe sound of hammers and saws, noticed scaffoldings
rising and saw men climbing ladders with hods of bricks on their
shoulders. She looked down the street she loved so well and her eyes
misted a little.
“They burned you,” she thought,
“and they laid you flat. But they didn’t lick you. They couldn’t
lick you. You’ll grow back just as big and sassy as you used to
be!”
As she walked along Peachtree, followed
by the waddling Mammy, she found the sidewalks just as crowded as
they were at the height of the war and there was the same air of rush
and bustle about the resurrecting town which had made her blood sing
when she came here, so long ago, on her first visit to Aunt Pitty.
There seemed to be just as many vehicles wallowing in the mud holes
as there had been then, except that there were no Confederate
ambulances, and just as many horses and mules tethered to hitching
racks in front of the wooden awnings of the stores. Though the
sidewalks were jammed, the faces she saw were as unfamiliar as the
signs overhead, new people, many rough-looking men and tawdrily
dressed women. The streets were black with loafing negroes who leaned
against walls or sat on the curbing watching vehicles go past with
the naïve curiosity of children at a circus parade.
“Free issue country niggers,”
snorted Mammy. “Ain’ never seed a proper cah’ige in dere lives.
An’ impident lookin’, too.”
They were impudent looking, Scarlett
agreed, for they stared at her in an insolent manner, but she forgot
them in the renewed shock of seeing blue uniforms. The town was full
of Yankee soldiers, on horses, afoot, in army wagons, loafing on the
street, reeling out of barrooms.
I’ll never get used to them, she
thought, clenching her fists. Never! and over her shoulder: “Hurry,
Mammy, let’s get out of this crowd.”
“Soon’s Ah kick dis black trash
outer mah way,” answered Mammy loudly, swinging the carpetbag at a
black buck who loitered tantalizingly in front of her and making him
leap aside. “Ah doan lak disyere town, Miss Scarlett. It’s too
full of Yankees an’ cheap free issue.”
“It’s nicer where it isn’t so
crowded. When we get across Five Points, it won’t be so bad.”
They picked their way across the
slippery stepping stones that bridged the mud of Decatur Street and
continued up Peachtree, through a thinning crowd. When they reached
Wesley Chapel where Scarlett had paused to catch her breath that day
in 1864 when she had run for Dr. Meade, she looked at it and laughed
aloud, shortly and grimly. Mammy’s quick old eyes sought hers with
suspicion and question but her curiosity went unsatisfied. Scarlett
was recalling with contempt the terror which had ridden her that day.
She had been crawling with fear, rotten with fear, terrified by the
Yankees, terrified by the approaching birth of Beau. Now she wondered
how she could have been so frightened, frightened like a child at a
loud noise. And what a child she had been to think that Yankees and
fire and defeat were the worst things that could happen to her! What
trivialities they were beside Ellen’s death and Gerald’s
vagueness, beside hunger and cold and back-breaking work and the
living nightmare of insecurity. How easy she would find it now to be
brave before an invading army, but how hard to face the danger that
threatened Tara! No, she would never again be afraid of anything
except poverty.
Up Peachtree came a closed carriage and
Scarlett went to the curb eagerly to see if she knew the occupant,
for Aunt Pitty’s house was still several blocks away. She and Mammy
leaned forward as the carriage came abreast and Scarlett, with a
smile arranged, almost called out when a woman’s head appeared for
a moment at the window—a too bright red head beneath a fine fur
hat. Scarlett took a step back as mutual recognition leaped into both
faces. It was Belle Watling and Scarlett had a glimpse of nostrils
distended with dislike before she disappeared again. Strange that
Belle’s should be the first familiar face she saw.
“Who dat?” questioned Mammy
suspiciously. “She knowed you but she din’ bow. Ah ain’ never
seed ha’r dat color in mah life. Not even in de Tarleton fambly. It
look—well, it look dyed ter me!”
“It is,” said Scarlett shortly,
walking faster.
“Does you know a dyed-ha’rd woman?
Ah ast you who she is.”
“She’s the town bad woman,” said
Scarlett briefly, “and I give you my word I don’t know her, so
shut up.”
“Gawdlmighty!” breathed Mammy, her
jaw dropping as she looked after the carriage with passionate
curiosity. She had not seen a professional bad woman since she left
Savannah with Ellen more than twenty years before and she wished
ardently that she had observed Belle more closely.
“She sho dressed up fine an’ got a
fine cah’ige an’ coachman,” she muttered. “Ah doan know whut
de Lawd thinkin’ ‘bout lettin’ de bad women flurrish lak dat
w’en us good folks is hongry an’ mos’ barefoot.”
“The Lord stopped thinking about us
years ago,” said Scarlett savagely. “And don’t go telling me
Mother is turning in her grave to hear me say it, either.”
She wanted to feel superior and
virtuous about Belle but she could not. If her plans went well, she
might be on the same footing with Belle and supported by the same
man. While she did not regret her decision one whit, the matter in
its true light discomfited her. “I won’t think of it now,” she
told herself and hurried her steps.
They passed the lot where the Meade
house had stood and there remained of it only a forlorn pair of stone
steps and a walk, leading up to nothing. Where the Whitings’ home
had been was bare ground. Even the foundation stones and the brick
chimneys were gone and there were wagon tracks where they had been
carted away. The brick house of the Elsings still stood, with a new
roof and a new second floor. The Bonnell home, awkwardly patched and
roofed with rude boards instead of shingles, managed to look livable
for all its battered appearance. But in neither house was there a
face at the window or a figure on the porch, and Scarlett was glad.
She did not want to talk to anyone now.
Then the new slate roof of Aunt Pitty’s
house came in view with its red-brick walls, and Scarlett’s heart
throbbed. How good of the Lord not to level it beyond repair! Coming
out of the front yard was Uncle Peter, a market basket on his arm,
and when he saw Scarlett and Mammy trudging along, a wide,
incredulous smile split his black face.
I could kiss the old black fool, I’m
so glad to see him, thought Scarlett, joyfully and she called: “Run
get Auntie’s swoon bottle, Peter! It’s really me!”
That night the inevitable hominy and
dried peas were on Aunt Pitty’s supper table and, as Scarlett ate
them, she made a vow that these two dishes would never appear on her
table when she had money again. And, no matter what price she had to
pay, she was going to have money again, more than just enough to pay
the taxes on Tara. Somehow, some day she was going to have plenty of
money if she had to commit murder to get it.
In the yellow lamplight of the dining
room, she asked Pitty about her finances, hoping against hope that
Charles’ family might be able to lend her the money she needed. The
questions were none too subtle but Pitty, in her pleasure at having a
member of the family to talk to, did not even notice the bald way the
questions were put. She plunged with tears into the details of her
misfortunes. She just didn’t know where her farms and town property
and money had gone but everything had slipped away. At least, that
was what Brother Henry told her. He hadn’t been able to pay the
taxes on her estate. Everything except the house she was living in
was gone and Pitty did not stop to think that the house had never
been hers but was the joint property of Melanie and Scarlett. Brother
Henry could just barely pay taxes on this house. He gave her a little
something every month to live on and, though it was very humiliating
to take money from him, she had to do it.
“Brother Henry says he doesn’t know
how he’ll make ends meet with the load he’s carrying and the
taxes so high but, of course, he’s probably lying and has loads of
money and just won’t give me much.”
Scarlett knew Uncle Henry wasn’t
lying. The few letters she had had from him in connection with
Charles’ property showed that. The old lawyer was battling
valiantly to save the house and the one piece of downtown property
where the warehouse had been, so Wade and Scarlett would have
something left from the wreckage. Scarlett knew he was carrying these
taxes for her at a great sacrifice.
“Of course, he hasn’t any money,”
thought Scarlett grimly. “Well, check him and Aunt Pitty off my
list. There’s nobody left but Rhett. I’ll have to do it. I must
do it. But I mustn’t think about it now. … I must get her to
talking about Rhett so I can casually suggest to her to invite him to
call tomorrow.”
She smiled and squeezed the plump palms
of Aunt Pitty between her own.
“Darling Auntie,” she said, “don’t
let’s talk about distressing things like money any more. Let’s
forget about them and talk of pleasanter things. You must tell me all
the news about our old friends. How is Mrs. Merriwether, and
Maybelle? I heard that Maybelle’s little Creole came home safely.
How are the Elsings and Dr. and Mrs. Meade?”
Pittypat brightened at the change of
subject and her baby face stopped quivering with tears. She gave
detailed reports about old neighbors, what they were doing and
wearing and eating and thinking. She told with accents of horror how,
before René Picard came home from the war, Mrs. Merriwether and
Maybelle had made ends meet by baking pies and selling them to the
Yankee soldiers. Imagine that! Sometimes there were two dozen Yankees
standing in the back yard of the Merriwether home, waiting for the
baking to be finished. Now that René was home, he drove an old wagon
to the Yankee camp every day and sold cakes and pies and beaten
biscuits to the soldiers. Mrs. Merriwether said that when she made a
little more money she was going to open a bake shop downtown. Pitty
did not wish to criticize but after all— As for herself, said
Pitty, she would rather starve than have such commerce with Yankees.
She made a point of giving a disdainful look to every soldier she
met, and crossed to the other side of the street in as insulting a
manner as possible, though, she said, this was quite inconvenient in
wet weather. Scarlett gathered that no sacrifice, even though it be
muddy shoes, was too great to show loyalty to the Confederacy, in so
far as Miss Pittypat was concerned.
Mrs. Meade and the doctor had lost
their home when the Yankees fired the town and they had neither the
money nor the heart to rebuild, now that Phil and Darcy were dead.
Mrs. Meade said she never wanted a home again, for what was a home
without children and grandchildren in it? They were very lonely and
had gone to live with the Elsings who had rebuilt the damaged part of
their home. Mr. and Mrs. Whiting had a room there, too, and Mrs.
Bonnell was talking of moving in, if she was fortunate enough to rent
her house to a Yankee officer and his family.
“But how do they all squeeze in?”
cried Scarlett “There’s Mrs. Elsing and Fanny and Hugh—”
“Mrs. Elsing and Fanny sleep in the
parlor and Hugh in the attic,” explained Pitty, who knew the
domestic arrangements of all her friends. “My dear, I do hate to
tell you this but—Mrs. Elsing calls them ‘paying guests’ but,
Pitty dropped her voice, “they are really nothing at all except
boarders. Mrs. Elsing is running a boarding “house! Isn’t that
dreadful?”
“I think it’s wonderful,” said
Scarlett shortly. “I only wish we’d had ‘paying guests’ at
Tara for the last year instead of free boarders. Maybe we wouldn’t
be so poor now.”
“Scarlett, how can you say such
things? Your poor mother must be turning in her grave at the very
thought of charging money for the hospitality of Tara! Of course,
Mrs. Elsing was simply forced to it because, while she took in fine
sewing and Fanny painted china and Hugh made a little money peddling
firewood, they couldn’t make ends meet. Imagine darling Hugh forced
to peddle wood! And he all set to be a fine lawyer! I could just cry
at the things our boys are reduced to!”
Scarlett thought of the rows of cotton
beneath the glaring coppery sky at Tara and how her back had ached as
she bent over them. She remembered the feel of plow handles between
her inexperienced, blistered palms and she felt that Hugh Elsing was
deserving of no special sympathy. What an innocent old fool Pitty was
and, despite the ruin all around her, how sheltered!
“If he doesn’t like peddling, why
doesn’t He practice law? Or isn’t there any law practice left in
Atlanta?”
“Oh dear, yes! There’s plenty of
law practice. Practically everybody is suing everybody else these
days. With everything burned down and boundary lines wiped out, no
one knows just where their land begins or ends. But you can’t get
any pay for suing because nobody has any money. So Hugh sticks to his
peddling. … Oh, I almost forgot! Did I write you? Fanny Elsing is
getting married tomorrow night and, of course, you must attend. Mrs.
Elsing will be only too pleased to have you when she knows you’re
in town. I do hope you have some other frock besides that one. Not
that it isn’t a very sweet frock, darling, but—well, it does look
a bit worn. Oh, you have a pretty frock? I’m so glad because it’s
going to be the first real wedding we’ve had in Atlanta since
before the town fell. Cake and wine and dancing afterward, though I
don’t know how the Elsings can afford it, they are so poor.”
“Who is Fanny marrying? I thought
after Dallas McLure was killed at Gettysburg—”
“Darling, you mustn’t criticize
Fanny. Everybody isn’t as loyal to the dead as you are to poor
Charlie. Let me see. What is his name? I can never remember names—Tom
somebody. I knew his mother well, we went to La-Grange Female
Institute together. She was a Tomlinson from LaGrange and her mother
was—let me see. … Perkins? Parkins? Parkinson! That’s it. From
Sparta. A very good family but just the same—well, I know I
shouldn’t say it but I don’t see how Fanny can bring herself to
marry him!”
“Does he drink or—”
“Dear, no! His character is perfect
but, you see, he was wounded low down, by a bursting shell and it did
something to his legs—makes them—makes them, well, I hate to use
the word but it makes him spraddle. It gives him a very vulgar
appearance when he walks—well, it doesn’t look very pretty. I
don’t see why she’s marrying him.”
“Girls have to marry someone.”
“Indeed, they do not,” said Pitty,
ruffling. “I never had to.”
“Now, darling, I didn’t mean you!
Everybody knows how popular you were and still are! Why, old Judge
Carlton used to throw sheep’s eyes at you till I—”
“Oh, Scarlett, hush! That old fool!”
giggled Pitty, good humor restored. “But, after all, Fanny was so
popular she could have made a better match and I don’t believe she
loves this Tom what’s-his-name. I don’t believe she’s ever
gotten over Dallas McLure getting killed, but she’s not like you,
darling. You’ve remained so faithful to dear Charlie, though you
could have married dozens of times. Melly and I have often said how
loyal you were to his memory when everyone else said you were just a
heartless coquette.”
Scarlett passed over this tactless
confidence and skillfully led Pitty from one friend to another but
all the while she was in a fever of impatience to bring the
conversation around to Rhett. It would never do for her to ask
outright about him, so soon after arriving. It might start the old
lady’s mind to working on channels better left untouched. There
would be time enough for Pitty’s suspicions to be aroused if Rhett
refused to marry her.
Aunt Pitty prattled on happily, pleased
as a child at having an audience. Things in Atlanta were in a
dreadful pass, she said, due to the vile doings of the Republicans.
There was no end to their goings on and the worst thing was the way
they were putting ideas in the poor darkies’ heads.
“My dear, they want to let the
darkies vote! Did you ever hear of anything more silly? Though—I
don’t know—now that I think about it, Uncle Peter has much more
sense than any Republican I ever saw and much better manners but, of
course, Uncle Peter is far too well bred to want to vote. But the
very notion has upset the darkies till they’re right addled. And
some of them are so insolent. Your life isn’t safe on the streets
after dark and even in the broad daylight they push ladies off the
sidewalks into the mud. And if any gentleman dares to protest, they
arrest him and— My dear, did I tell you that Captain Butler was in
jail?”
“Rhett Butler?”
Even with this startling news, Scarlett
was grateful that Aunt Pitty had saved her the necessity of bringing
his name into the conversation herself.
“Yes, indeed!” Excitement colored
Pitty’s cheeks pink and she sat upright. “He’s in jail this
very minute for killing a negro and they may hang him! Imagine
Captain Butler hanging!”
For a moment, the breath went out of
Scarlett’s lungs in a sickening gasp and she could only stare at
the fat old lady who was so obviously pleased at the effect of her
statement.
“They haven’t proved it yet but
somebody killed this darky who had insulted a white woman. And the
Yankees are very upset because so many uppity darkies have been
killed recently. They can’t prove it on Captain Butler but they
want to make an example of someone, so Dr. Meade says. The doctor
says that if they do hang him it will be the first good honest job
the Yankees ever did, but then, I don’t know. … And to think that
Captain Butler was here just a week ago and brought me the loveliest
quail you ever saw for a present and he was asking about you and
saying he feared he had offended you during the siege and you would
never forgive him.”
“How long will he be in jail?”
“Nobody knows. Perhaps till they hang
him, but maybe they won’t be able to prove the killing on him,
after all. However, it doesn’t seem to bother the Yankees whether
folks are guilty or not, so long as they can hang somebody. They are
so upset”—Pitty dropped her voice mysteriously—“about the Ku
Klux Klan. Do you have the Klan down in the County? My dear, I’m
sure you must and Ashley just doesn’t tell you girls anything about
it Klansmen aren’t supposed to tell. They ride around at night
dressed up like ghosts and call on Carpetbaggers who steal money and
negroes who are uppity. Sometimes they just scare them and warn them
to leave Atlanta, but when they don’t behave they whip them and,”
Pitty whispered, “sometimes they kill them and leave them where
they’ll be easily found with the Ku Klux card on them. … And the
Yankees are very angry about it and want to make an example of
someone. … But Hugh Elsing told me he didn’t think they’d hang
Captain Butler because the Yankees think he does know where the money
is and just won’t tell. They are trying to make him tell.”
“The money?”
“Didn’t you know? Didn’t I write
you? My dear, you have been buried at Tara, haven’t you? The town
simply buzzed when Captain Butler came back here with a fine horse
and carriage and his pockets full of money, when all the rest of us
didn’t know where our next meal was coming from. It simply made
everybody furious that an old speculator who always said nasty things
about the Confederacy should have so much money when we were all so
poor. Everybody was bursting to know how he managed to save his money
but no one had the courage to ask him—except me and he just laughed
and said: ‘In no honest way, you may be sure.’ You know how hard
it is to get anything sensible out of him.”
“But of course, he made his money out
of the blockade—”
“Of course, he did, honey, some of
it. But that’s not a drop in the bucket to what that man has really
got. Everybody, including the Yankees, believes he’s got millions
of dollars in gold belonging to the Confederate government hid out
somewhere.”
“Millions—in gold?”
“Well, honey, where did all our
Confederate gold go to? Somebody got it and Captain Butler must be
one of the somebodies. The Yankees thought President Davis had it
when he left Richmond but when they captured the poor man he had
hardly a cent. There just wasn’t any money in the treasury when the
war was over and everybody thinks some of the blockade runners got it
and are keeping quiet about it.”
“Millions—in gold! But how—”
“Didn’t Captain Butler take
thousands of bales of cotton to England and Nassau to sell for the
Confederate government?” asked Pitty triumphantly. “Not only his
own cotton but government cotton too? And you know what cotton
brought in England during the war! Any price you wanted to ask! He
was a free agent acting for the government and he was supposed to
sell the cotton and buy guns with the money and run the guns in for
us. Well, when the blockade got too tight, he couldn’t bring in the
guns and he couldn’t have spent one one-hundredth of the cotton
money on them anyway, so there were simply millions of dollars in
English banks put there by Captain Butler and other blockaders,
waiting till the blockade loosened. And you can’t tell me they
banked that money in the name of the Confederacy. They put it in
their own names and it’s still there. … Everybody has been
talking about it ever since the surrender and criticizing the
blockaders severely, and when the Yankees arrested Captain Butler for
killing this darky they must have heard the rumor, because they’ve
been at him to tell them where the money is. You see, all of our
Confederate funds belong to the Yankees now—at least, the Yankees
think so. But Captain Butler says he doesn’t know anything. … Dr.
Meade says they ought to hang him anyhow, only hanging is too good
for a thief and a profiteer— Dear, you look so oddly! Do you feel
faint? Have I upset you talking like this? I knew he was once a beau
of yours but I thought you’d fallen out long ago. Personally, I
never approved of him, for he’s such a scamp—”
“He’s no friend of mine,” said
Scarlett with an effort. “I had a quarrel with him during the
siege, after you went to Macon. Where—where is he?”
“In the firehouse over near the
public square!”
“In the firehouse?”
Aunt Pitty crowed with laughter.
“Yes, he’s in the firehouse. The
Yankees use it for a military jail now. The Yankees are camped in
huts all round the city hall in the square and the firehouse is just
down the street, so that’s where Captain Butler is. And Scarlett, I
heard the funniest thing yesterday about Captain Butler. I forget who
told me. You know how well groomed he always was—really a dandy—and
they’ve been keeping him in the firehouse and not letting him bathe
and every day he’s been insisting that he wanted a bath and finally
they led him out of his cell onto the square and there was a long,
horse trough where the whole regiment had bathed in the same water!
And they told him he could bathe there and he said No, that he
preferred his own brand of Southern dirt to Yankee dirt and—”
Scarlett heard the cheerful babbling
voice going on and on but she did not hear the words. In her mind
there were only two ideas, Rhett had more money than she had even
hoped and he was in jail. The fact that he was in jail and possibly
might be hanged changed the face of matters somewhat, in fact made
them look a little brighter. She had very little feeling about Rhett
being hanged. Her need of money was too pressing, too desperate, for
her to bother about his ultimate fate. Besides, she half shared Dr.
Meade’s opinion that hanging was too good for him. Any man who’d
leave a woman stranded between two armies in the middle of the night,
just to go off and fight for a Cause already lost, deserved hanging.
… If she could somehow manage to marry him while he was in jail,
all those millions would be hers and hers alone should he be
executed. And if marriage was not possible, perhaps she could get a
loan from him by promising to marry him when he was released or by
promising—oh, promising anything! And if they hanged him, her day
of settlement would never come.
For a moment her imagination flamed at
the thought of being made a widow by the kindly intervention of the
Yankee government. Millions in gold! She could repair Tara and hire
hands and plant miles and miles of cotton. And she could have pretty
clothes and all she wanted to eat and so could Suellen and Carreen.
And Wade could have nourishing food to fill out his thin cheeks and
warm clothes and a governess and afterward go to the university …
and not grow up barefooted and ignorant like a Cracker. And a good
doctor could look after Pa and as for Ashley—what couldn’t she do
for Ashley!
Aunt Pittypat’s monologue broke off
suddenly as she said inquiringly: “Yes, Mammy?” and Scarlett,
coming back from dreams, saw Mammy standing in the doorway, her hands
under her apron and in her eyes an alert piercing look. She wondered
how long Mammy had been standing there and how much she had heard and
observed. Probably everything, to judge by the gleam in her old eyes.
“Miss Scarlett look lak she tared. Ah
spec she better go ter bed.”
“I am tired,” said Scarlett, rising
and meeting Mammy’s eyes with a childlike, helpless look, “and
I’m afraid I’m catching a cold too. Aunt Pitty, would you mind if
I stayed in bed tomorrow and didn’t go calling with you? I can go
calling any time and I’m so anxious to go to Fanny’s wedding
tomorrow night. And if my cold gets worse I won’t be able to go.
And a day in bed would be such a lovely treat for me.”
Mammy’s look changed to faint worry
as she felt Scarlett’s hands and looked into her face. She
certainly didn’t look well. The excitement of her thoughts had
abruptly ebbed, leaving her white and shaking.
“Yo’ han’s lak ice, honey. You
come ter bed an’ Ah’ll brew you some sassfrass tea an’ git you
a hot brick ter mek you sweat.”
“How thoughtless I’ve been,”
cried the plump old lady, hopping from her chair and patting
Scarlett’s arm. “Just chattering on and not thinking of you.
Honey, you shall stay in bed all tomorrow and rest up and we can
gossip together— Oh, dear, no! I can’t be with you. I’ve
promised to sit with Mrs. Bonnell tomorrow. She is down with la
grippe and so is her cook. Mammy, I’m so glad you are here. You
must go over with me in the morning and help me.”
Mammy hurried Scarlett up the dark
stairs, muttering fussy remarks about cold hands and thin shoes and
Scarlett looked meek and was well content. If she could only lull
Mammy’s suspicions further and get her out of the house in the
morning, all would be well. Then she could go to the Yankee jail and
see Rhett. As she climbed the stairs, the faint rumbling of thunder
began and, standing on the well-remembered landing, she thought how
like the siege cannon it sounded. She shivered. Forever, thunder
would mean cannon and war to her.
CHAPTER XXXIV
THE SUN SHONE intermittently the next
morning and the hard wind that drove dark clouds swiftly across its
face rattled the windowpanes and moaned faintly about the house.
Scarlett said a brief prayer of thanksgiving that the rain of the
previous night had ceased, for she had lain awake listening to it,
knowing that it would mean the ruin of her velvet dress and new
bonnet. Now that she could catch fleeting glimpses of the sun, her
spirits soared. She could hardly remain in bed and look languid and
make croaking noises until Aunt Pitty, Mammy and Uncle Peter were out
of the house and on their way to Mrs. Bonnell’s. When, at last, the
front gate banged and she was alone in the house, except for Cookie
who was singing in the kitchen, she leaped from the bed and lifted
her new clothes from the closet hooks.
Sleep had refreshed her and given her
strength and from the cold hard core at the bottom of her heart, she
drew courage. There was something about the prospect of a straggle of
wits with a man—with any man—that put her on her mettle and,
after months of battling against countless discouragements, the
knowledge that she was at last facing a definite adversary, one whom
she might unhorse by her own efforts, gave her a buoyant sensation.
Dressing unaided was difficult but she
finally accomplished it and putting on the bonnet with its rakish
feathers she ran to Aunt Pitty’s room to preen herself in front of
the long mirror. How pretty she looked! The cock feathers gave her a
dashing air and the dull-green velvet of the bonnet made her eyes
startlingly bright, almost emerald colored. And the dress was
incomparable, so rich and handsome looking and yet so dignified! It
was wonderful to have a lovely dress again. It was so nice to know
that she looked pretty and provocative, and she impulsively bent
forward and kissed her reflection in the mirror and then laughed at
her own foolishness. She picked up Ellen’s Paisley shawl to wrap
about her but the colors of the faded old square clashed with the
moss-green dress and made her appear a little shabby. Opening Aunt
Pitty’s closet she removed a black broadcloth cloak, a thin fall
garment which Pitty used only for Sunday wear, and put it on. She
slipped into her pierced ears the diamond earrings she had brought
from Tara, and tossed her head to observe the effect. They made
pleasant clicking noises which were very satisfactory and she thought
that she must remember to toss her head frequently when with Rhett.
Dancing earrings always attracted a man and gave a girl such a
spirited air.
What a shame Aunt Pitty had no other
gloves than the ones now on her fat hands! No woman could really feel
like a lady without gloves, but Scarlett had not had a pair since she
left Atlanta. And the long months of hard work at Tara had roughened
her hands until they were far from pretty. Well, it couldn’t be
helped. She’d take Aunt Pitty’s little seal muff and hide her
bare hands in it Scarlett felt that it gave her the final finishing
touch of elegance. No one, looking at her now, would suspect that
poverty and want were standing at her shoulder.
It was so important that Rhett should
not suspect. He must not think that anything but tender feelings were
driving her.
She tiptoed down the stairs and out of
the house while Cookie bawled on unconcernedly in the kitchen. She
hastened down Baker Street to avoid the all seeing eyes of the
neighbors and sat down on a carriage block on Ivy Street in front of
a burned house, to wait for some passing carriage or wagon which
would give her a ride. The sun dipped in and out from behind hurrying
clouds, lighting the street with a false brightness which had no
warmth in it, and the wind fluttered the lace of her pantalets. It
was colder than she had expected and she wrapped Aunt Pitty’s thin
cloak about her and shivered impatiently. Just as she was preparing
to start walking the long way across town to the Yankee encampment, a
battered wagon appeared. In it was an old woman with a lip full of
snuff and a weather-beaten face under a drab sunbonnet, driving a
dawdling old mule. She was going in the direction of the city hall
and she grudgingly gave Scarlett a ride. But it was obvious that the
dress, bonnet and muff found no favor with her.
“She thinks I’m a hussy,” thought
Scarlett “And perhaps she’s right at that!”
When at last they reached the town
square and the tall white cupola of the city hall loomed up, she made
her thanks, climbed down from the wagon and watched the country woman
drive off. Looking around carefully to see that she was not observed,
she pinched her cheeks to give them color and bit her lips until they
stung to make them red. She adjusted the bonnet and smoothed back her
hair and looked about the square. The two-story red-brick city hall
had survived the burning of the city. But it looked forlorn and
unkempt under the gray sky. Surrounding the building completely and
covering the square of land of which it was the center were row after
row of army huts, dingy and mud splashed. Yankee soldiers loitered
everywhere and Scarlett looked at them uncertainly, some of her
courage deserting her. How would she go about finding Rhett in this
enemy camp?
She looked down the street toward the
firehouse and saw that the wide arched doors were closed and heavily
barred and two sentries passed and repassed on each side of the
building. Rhett was in there. But what should she say to the Yankee
soldiers? And what would they say to her? She squared her shoulders.
If she hadn’t been afraid to kill one Yankee, she shouldn’t fear
merely talking to another.
She picked her way precariously across
the stepping stones of the muddy street and walked forward until a
sentry, his blue overcoat buttoned high against the wind, stopped
her.
“What is it, Ma’m?” His voice had
a strange mid-Western twang but it was polite and respectful.
“I want to see a man in there—he is
a prisoner.”
“Well, I don’t know,” said the
sentry, scratching his head. “They are mighty particular about
visitors and—” He stopped and peered into her face sharply.
“Lord, lady! Don’t you cry! You go over to post headquarters and
ask the officers. They’ll let you see him, I bet.”
Scarlett, who had no intention of
crying, beamed at him. He turned to another sentry who was slowly
pacing his beat: “Yee-ah, Bill. Come’eer.”
The second sentry, a large man muffled
in a blue overcoat from which villainous black whiskers burst, came
through the mud toward them.
“You take this lady to headquarters.”
Scarlett thanked him and followed the
sentry.
“Mind you don’t turn your ankle on
those stepping stones,” said the soldier, taking her arm. “And
you’d better hist up your skirts a little to keep them out of the
mud.”
The voice issuing from the whiskers had
the same nasal twang but was kind and pleasant and his hand was firm
and respectful. Why, Yankees weren’t bad at all!
“It’s a mighty cold day for a lady
to be out in,” said her escort. “Have you come a fer piece?”
“Oh, yes, from clear across the other
side of town,” she said, warming to the kindness in his voice.
“This ain’t no weather for a lady
to be out in,” said the soldier reprovingly, “with all this la
grippe in the air. Here’s Post Command, lady— What’s the
matter?”
“This house—this house is your
headquarters?” Scarlett looked up at the lovely old dwelling facing
on the square and could have cried. She had been to so many parties
in this house during the war. It had been a gay beautiful place and
now—there was a large United States flag floating over it.
“What’s the matter?”
“Nothing—only—only—I used to
know the people who lived here.”
“Well, that’s too bad. I guess they
wouldn’t know it themselves if they saw it, for it shore is torn up
on the inside. Now, you go on in, Ma’m, and ask for the captain.”
She went up the steps, caressing the
broken white banisters, and pushed open the front door. The hall was
dark and as cold as a vault and a shivering sentry was leaning
against the closed folding doors of what had been, in better days,
the dining room.
“I want to see the captain,” she
said.
He pulled back the doors and she
entered the room, her heart beating rapidly, her face flushing with
embarrassment and excitement. There was a close stuffy smell in the
room, compounded of the smoking fire, tobacco fames, leather, damp
woolen uniforms and unwashed bodies. She had a confused impression of
bare walls with torn wallpaper, rows of blue overcoats and slouch
hats hung on nails, a roaring fire, a long table covered with papers
and a group of officers in blue uniforms with brass buttons.
She gulped once and found her voice.
She mustn’t let these Yankees know she was afraid. She must look
and be her prettiest and most unconcerned self. “The captain?”
“I’m one captain,” said a fat man
whose tunic was unbuttoned.
“I want to see a prisoner, Captain
Rhett Butler.”
“Butler again? He’s popular, that
man,” laughed the captain, taking a chewed cigar from his mouth.
“You a relative, Ma’m?”
“Yes—his—his sister.”
He laughed again.
“He’s got a lot of sisters, one of
them here yesterday.”
Scarlett flushed. One of those
creatures Rhett consorted with, probably that Watling woman. And
these Yankees thought she was another one. It was unendurable. Not
even for Tara would she stay here another minute and be insulted. She
turned to the door and reached angrily for the knob but another
officer was by her side quickly. He was clean shaven and young and
had merry, kind eyes.
“Just a minute, Ma’m. Won’t you
sit down here by the fire where it’s warm? I’ll go see what I can
do about it. What is your name? He refused to see the—lady who
called yesterday.”
She sank into the proffered chair,
glaring at the discomfited fat captain, and gave her name. The nice
young officer slipped on his overcoat and left the room and the
others took themselves off to the far end of the table where they
talked in low tones and pawed at the papers. She stretched her feet
gratefully toward the fire, realizing for the first time how cold
they were and wishing she had thought to put a piece of cardboard
over the hole in the sole of one slipper. After a time, voices
murmured outside the door and she heard Rhett’s laugh. The door
opened, a cold draft swept the room and Rhett appeared, hatless, a
long cape thrown carelessly across his shoulders. He was dirty and
unshaven and without a cravat but somehow jaunty despite his
dishabille, and his dark eyes were snapping joyfully at the sight of
her.
“Scarlett!”
He had her hands in both of his and, as
always, there was something hot and vital and exciting about his
grip. Before she quite knew what he was about, he had bent and kissed
her cheek, his mustache tickling her. As he felt the startled
movement of her body away from him, he hugged her about the shoulders
and said: “My darling little sister!” and grinned down at her as
if he relished her helplessness in resisting his caress. She couldn’t
help laughing back at him for the advantage he had taken. What a
rogue he was! Jail had not changed him one bit.
The fat captain was muttering through
his cigar to the merry-eyed officer.
“Most irregular. He should be in the
firehouse. You know the orders.”
“Oh, for God’s sake, Henry! The
lady would freeze in that barn.”
“Oh, all right, all right! It’s
your responsibility.”
“I assure you, gentlemen,” said
Rhett, turning to them but still keeping a grip on Scarlett’s
shoulders, “my—sister hasn’t brought me any saws or files to
help me escape.”
They all laughed and, as they did,
Scarlett looked quickly about her. Good Heavens, was she going to
have to talk to Rhett before six Yankee officers! Was he so dangerous
a prisoner they wouldn’t let him out of their sight? Seeing her
anxious glance, the nice officer pushed open a door and spoke brief
low words to two privates who had leaped to their feet at his
entrance. They picked up their rifles and went out into the hall,
closing the door behind them.
“If you wish, you may sit here in the
orderly room,” said the young captain, “And don’t try to bolt
through that door. The men are just outside.”
“You see what a desperate character I
am, Scarlett,” said Rhett “Thank you, Captain. This is most kind
of you.”
He bowed carelessly and taking
Scarlett’s arm pulled her to her feet and propelled her into the
dingy orderly room. She was never to remember what the room looked
like except that it was small and dim and none too warm and there
were handwritten papers tacked on the mutilated walls and chairs
which had cowhide seats with the hair still on them.
When he had closed the door behind
them. Rhett came to her swiftly and bent over her. Knowing his
desire, she turned her head quickly but smiled provocatively at him
out of the corners of her eyes.
“Can’t I really kiss you now?”
“On the forehead, like a good
brother,” she answered demurely.
“Thank you, no. I prefer to wait and
hope for better things.” His eyes sought her lips and lingered
there a moment. “But how good of you to come to see me, Scarlett!
You are the first respectable citizen who has called on me since my
incarceration, and being in jail makes one appreciate friends. When
did you come to town?”
“Yesterday afternoon.”
“And you came out this morning? Why,
my dear, you are more than good.” He smiled down at her with the
first expression of honest pleasure she had ever seen on his face.
Scarlett smiled inwardly with excitement and ducked her head as if
embarrassed.
“Of course, I came out right away.
Aunt Pitty told me about you last night and I—I just couldn’t
sleep all night for thinking how awful it was. Rhett, I’m so
distressed!”
“Why, Scarlett!”
His voice was soft but there was a
vibrant note in it, and looking up into his dark face she saw in it
none of the skepticism, the jeering humor she knew so well. Before
his direct gaze her eyes fell again in real confusion. Things were
going even better than she hoped.
“It’s worth being in jail to see
you again and to hear you say things like that. I really couldn’t
believe my ears when they brought me your name. You see, I never
expected you to forgive me for my patriotic conduct that night on the
road near Rough and Ready. But I take it that this call means you
have forgiven me?”
She could feel swift anger stir, even
at this late date, as she thought of that night but she subdued it
and tossed her head until the earrings danced.
“No, I haven’t forgiven you,” she
said and pouted.
“Another hope crushed. And after I
offered up myself for my country and fought barefooted in the snow at
Franklin and got the finest case of dysentery you ever heard of for
my pains!”
“I don’t want to hear about
your—pains,” she said, still pouting hut smiling at him from
tip-tilted eyes. “I still think you were hateful that night and I
never expect to forgive you. Leaving me alone like that when anything
might have happened to me!”
“But nothing did happen to you. So,
you see, my confidence in you was justified. I knew you’d get home
safely and God help any Yankee who got in your way!”
“Rhett, why on earth did you do such
a silly thing—enlisting at the last minute when you knew we were
going to get licked? And after all you’d said about idiots who went
out and got shot!”
“Scarlett, spare me! I am always
overcome with shame when I think about it.”
“Well, I’m glad to learn you are
ashamed of the way you treated me.”
“You misunderstand. I regret to say
that my conscience has not troubled me at all about deserting you.
But as for enlisting—when I think of joining the army in varnished
boots and a white linen suit and armed with only a pair of dueling
pistols— And those long cold miles in the snow after my boots wore
out and I had no overcoat and nothing to eat … I cannot understand
why I did not desert. It was all the purest insanity. But it’s in
one’s blood. Southerners can never resist a losing cause. But never
mind my reasons. It’s enough that I’m forgiven.”
“You’re not. I think you’re a
hound.” But she caressed the last word until it might have been
“darling.”
“Don’t fib. You’ve forgiven me.
Young ladies don’t dare Yankee sentries to see a prisoner, just for
charity’s sweet sake, and come all dressed up in velvet and
feathers and seal muffs too. Scarlett, how pretty you look! Thank
God, you aren’t in rags or mourning! I get so sick of women in
dowdy old clothes and perpetual crêpe. You look like the Rue de la
Paix. Turn around, my dear, and let me look at you.”
So he had noticed the dress. Of course,
he would notice such things, being Rhett. She laughed in soft
excitement and spun about on her toes, her arms extended, her hoops
tilting up to show her lace trimmed pantalets. His black eyes took
her in from bonnet to heels in a glance that missed nothing, that old
impudent unclothing glance which always gave her goose bumps.
“You look very prosperous and very,
very tidy. And almost good enough to eat. If it wasn’t for the
Yankees outside—but you are quite safe, my dear. Sit down. I won’t
take advantage of you as I did the last time I saw you.” He rubbed
his cheek with pseudo ruefulness. “Honestly, Scarlett, don’t you
think you were a bit selfish, that night? Think of all I had done for
you, risked my life—stolen a horse—and such a horse! Rushed to
the defense of Our Glorious Cause! And what did I get for my pains?
Some hard words and a very hard slap in the face.”
She sat down. The conversation was not
going in quite the direction she hoped. He had seemed so nice when he
first saw her, so genuinely glad she had come. He had almost seemed
like a human being and not the perverse wretch she knew so well.
“Must you always get something for
your pains?”
“Why, of course! I am a monster of
selfishness, as you ought to know. I always expect payment for
anything I give.”
That sent a slight chill through her
but she rallied and jingled her earbobs again.
“Oh, you really aren’t so bad,
Rhett. You just like to show off.”
“My word, but you have changed!” he
said and laughed. “What has made a Christian of you? I have kept up
with you through Miss Pittypat but she gave me no intimation that you
had developed womanly sweetness. Tell me more about yourself,
Scarlett. What have you been doing since I last saw you?”
The old irritation and antagonism which
he roused in her was hot in her heart and she yearned to speak tart
words. But she smiled instead and the dimple crept into her cheek. He
had drawn a chair close beside hers and she leaned over and put a
gentle hand on his arm, in an unconscious manner.
“Oh, I’ve been doing nicely, thank
you, and everything at Tara is fine now. Of course, we had a dreadful
time right after Sherman went through but, after all, he didn’t
burn the house and the darkies saved most of the livestock by driving
it into the swamp. And we cleared a fair crop this last fall, twenty
bales. Of course, that’s practically nothing compared with what
Tara can do but we haven’t many field hands. Pa says, of course,
we’ll do better next year. But, Rhett, it’s so dull in the
country now! Imagine, there aren’t any balls or barbecues and the
only thing people talk about is hard times! Goodness, I get sick of
it! Finally last week I got too bored to stand it any longer, so Pa
said I must take a trip and have a good time. So I came up here to
get me some frocks made and then I’m going over to Charleston to
visit my aunt. It’ll be lovely to go to balls again.”
There, she thought with pride, I
delivered that with just the right airy way! Not too rich but
certainly not poor.
“You look beautiful in ball dresses,
my dear, and you know it too, worse luck! I suppose the real reason
you are going, visiting is that you have run through the County
swains and are seeking fresh ones in fields afar.”
Scarlett had a thankful thought that
Rhett had spent the last several months abroad and had only recently
come back to Atlanta. Otherwise, he would never have made so
ridiculous a statement. She thought briefly of the County swains, the
ragged embittered little Fontaines, the poverty-stricken Munroe boys,
the Jonesboro and Fayetteville beaux who were so busy plowing,
splitting rails and nursing sick old animals that they had forgotten
such things as balls and pleasant flirtations ever existed. But she
put down this memory and giggled self-consciously as if admitting the
truth of his assertion.
“Oh, well,” she said deprecatingly.
“You are a heartless creature,
Scarlett, but perhaps that’s part of your charm.” He smiled in
his old way, one corner of his mouth curving down, but she knew he
was complimenting her. “For, of course, you know you have more
charm than the law should permit. Even I have felt it, case-hardened
though I am. I’ve often wondered what it was about you that made me
always remember you, for I’ve known many ladies who were prettier
than you and certainly more clever and, I fear, morally more upright
and kind. But, somehow, I always remembered you. Even during the
months since the surrender when I was in France and England and
hadn’t seen you or heard of you and was enjoying the society of
many beautiful ladies, I always remembered you and wondered what you
were doing.”
For a moment she was indignant that he
should say other women were prettier, more clever and kind than she,
but that momentary flare was wiped out in her pleasure that he had
remembered her and her charm. So he hadn’t forgotten! That would
make things easier. And he was behaving so nicely, almost like a
gentleman would do under the circumstances. Now, all she had to do
was bring the subject around to himself, so she could intimate that
she had not forgotten him either and then—
She gently squeezed his arm and dimpled
again.
“Oh, Rhett, how you do run on,
teasing a country girl like me! I know mighty well you never gave me
a thought after you left me that night. You can’t tell me you ever
thought of me with all those pretty French and English girls around
you. But I didn’t come all the way out here to hear you talk
foolishness about me. I came—I came— because—”
“Because?”
“Oh, Rhett, I’m so terribly
distressed about you! So frightened for you! When will they let you
out of that terrible place?” He swiftly covered her hand with his
and held it hard against his arm.
“Your distress does you credit.
There’s no telling when I’ll be out. Probably when they’ve
stretched the rope a bit more.”
“The rope?”
“Yes, I expect to make my exit from
here at the rope’s end.”
“They won’t really hang you?”
“They will if they can get a little
more evidence against me.”
“Oh, Rhett!” she cried, her hand at
her heart.
“Would you be sorry? If you are sorry
enough, I’ll mention you in my will.”
His dark eyes laughed at her recklessly
and he squeezed her hand.
His will! She hastily cast down her
eyes for fear of betrayal but not swiftly enough, for his eyes
gleamed, suddenly curious.
“According to the Yankees, I ought to
have a fine will. There seems to be considerable interest in my
finances at present. Every day, I am hauled up before another board
of inquiry and asked foolish questions. The rumor seems current that
I made off with the mythical gold of the Confederacy.”
“Well—did you?”
“What a leading question! You know as
well as I do that the Confederacy ran a printing press instead of a
mint.”
“Where did you get all your money?
Speculating? Aunt Pittypat said—”
“What probing questions you ask!”
Damn him! Of course, he had the money.
She was so excited it became difficult to talk sweetly to him.
“Rhett, I’m so upset about your
being here. Don’t you think there’s a chance of your getting
out?”
“ ‘Nihil desperandum’ is my
motto.”
“What does that mean?”
“It means ‘maybe,’ my charming
ignoramus.”
She fluttered her thick lashes up to
look at him and fluttered them down again.
“Oh, you’re too smart to let them
hang you! I know you’ll think of some clever way to beat them and
get out! And when you do—”
“And when I do?” he asked softly,
leaning closer.
“Well, I—” and she managed a
pretty confusion and a blush. The blush was not difficult for she was
breathless and her heart was beating like a drum. “Rhett, I’m so
sorry about what I—I said to you that night—you know—at Rough
and Ready. I was—oh, so very frightened and upset and you were
so—so—” She looked down and saw his brown hand tighten over
hers. “And—I thought then that I’d never, never forgive you!
But when Aunt Pitty told me yesterday that you—that they might hang
you—it came over me of a sudden and I—I—” She looked up into
his eyes with one swift imploring glance and in it she put an agony
of heartbreak. “Oh, Rhett, I’d die if they hanged you! I couldn’t
bear it! You see, I—” And, because she could not longer sustain
the hot leaping light that was in his eyes, her lids fluttered down
again.
In a moment I’ll be crying, she
thought in a frenzy of wonder and excitement. Shall I let myself cry?
Would that seem more natural?
He said quickly: “My God, Scarlett,
you can’t mean that you—” and his hands closed over hers in so
hard a grip that it hurt.
She shut her eyes tightly, trying to
squeeze out tears, but remembered to turn her face up slightly so he
could kiss her with no difficulty. Now, in an instant his lips would
be upon hers, the hard insistent lips which she suddenly remembered
with a vividness that left her weak. But he did not kiss her.
Disappointment queerly stirring her, she opened her eyes a trifle and
ventured a peep at him. His black head was bent over her hands and,
as she watched, he lifted one and kissed it and, taking the other,
laid it against his cheek for a moment. Expecting violence, this
gentle and loverlike gesture startled her. She wondered what
expression was on his face but could not tell for his head was bowed.
She quickly lowered her gaze lest he
should look up suddenly and see the expression on her face. She knew
that the feeling of triumph surging through her was certain to be
plain in her eyes. In a moment he would ask her to marry him—or at
least say that he loved her and then … As she watched him through
the veil of her lashes he turned her hand over, palm up, to kiss it
too, and suddenly he drew a quick breath. Looking down she saw her
own palm, saw it as it really was for the first time in a year, and a
cold sinking fear gripped her. This was a stranger’s palm, not
Scarlett O’Hara’s soft, white, dimpled, helpless one. This hand
was rough from work, brown with sunburn, splotched with freckles. The
nails were broken and irregular, there were heavy calluses on the
cushions of the palm, a half-healed blister on the thumb. The red
scar which boiling fat had left last month was ugly and glaring. She
looked at it in horror and, before she thought, she swiftly clenched
her fist.
Still he did not raise his head. Still
she could not see his face. He pried her fist open inexorably and
stared at it, picked up her other hand and held them both together
silently, looking down at them.
“Look at me,” he said finally
raising his head, and his voice was very quiet. “And drop that
demure expression.”
Unwillingly she met his eyes, defiance
and perturbation on her face. His black brows were up and his eyes
gleamed.
“So you have been doing very nicely
at Tara, have you? Cleared so much money on the cotton you can go
visiting. What have you been doing with your hands—plowing?”
She tried to wrench them away but he
held them hard, running his thumbs over the calluses.
“These are not the hands of a lady,”
he said and tossed them into her lap.
“Oh, shut up!” she cried, feeling a
momentary intense relief at being able to speak her feelings. “Whose
business is it what I do with my hands?”
What a fool I am, she thought
vehemently. I should have borrowed or stolen Aunt Pitty’s gloves.
But I didn’t realize my hands looked so bad. Of course, he would
notice them. And now I’ve lost my temper and probably ruined
everything. Oh, to have this happen when he was right at the point of
a declaration!
“Your hands are certainly no business
of mine,” said Rhett coolly and lounged back in his chair
indolently, his face a smooth blank.
So he was going to be difficult. Well,
she’d have to bear it meekly, much as she disliked it, if she
expected to snatch victory from this debacle. Perhaps if she
sweet-talked him—
“I think you’re real rude to throw
off on my poor hands. Just because I went riding last week without my
gloves and ruined them—”
“Riding, hell!” he said in the same
level voice. “You’ve been working with those hands, working like
a nigger. What’s the answer? Why did you lie to me about everything
being nice at Tara?”
“Now, Rhett—”
“Suppose we get down to the truth.
What is the real purpose of your visit? Almost, I was persuaded by
your coquettish airs that you cared something about me and were sorry
for me.”
“Oh, I am sorry! Indeed—”
“No, you aren’t. They can hang me
higher than Haman for all you care. It’s written as plainly on your
face as hard work is written on your hands. You wanted something from
me and you wanted it badly enough to put on quite a show. Why didn’t
you come out in the open and tell me what it was? You’d have stood
a much better chance of getting it, for if there’s one virtue I
value in women it’s frankness. But no, you had to come jingling
your earbobs and pouting and frisking like a prostitute with a
prospective client.”
He did not raise his voice at the last
words or emphasize them in any way but to Scarlett they cracked like
a whiplash, and with despair she saw the end of her hopes of getting
him to propose marriage. Had he exploded with rage and injured vanity
or upbraided her, as other men would have done, she could have
handled him. But the deadly quietness of his voice frightened her,
left her utterly at a loss as to her next move. Although he was a
prisoner and the Yankees were in the next room, it came to her
suddenly that Rhett Butler was a dangerous man to run afoul of.
“I suppose my memory is getting
faulty. I should have recalled that you are just like me and that you
never do anything without an ulterior motive. Now, let me see. What
could you have had up your sleeve, Mrs. Hamilton? It isn’t possible
that you were so misguided as to think I would propose matrimony?”
Her face went crimson and she did not
answer.
“But you can’t have forgotten my
oft-repeated remark that I am not a marrying man?”
When she did not speak, he said with
sudden violence:
“You hadn’t forgotten? Answer me.”
“I hadn’t forgotten,” she said
wretchedly.
“What a gambler you are, Scarlett,”
he jeered. “You took a chance that my incarceration away from
female companionship would put me in such a state I’d snap at you
like a trout at a worm.”
And that’s what you did, thought
Scarlett with inward rage, and if it hadn’t been for my hands—
“Now, we have most of the truth,
everything except your reason. See if you can tell me the truth about
why you wanted to lead me into wedlock.”
There was a suave, almost teasing note
in his voice and she took heart. Perhaps everything wasn’t lost,
after all. Of course, she had ruined any hope of marriage but, even
in her despair, she was glad. There was something about this immobile
man which frightened her, so that now the thought of marrying him was
fearful. But perhaps if she was clever and played on his sympathies
and his memories, she could secure a loan. She pulled her face into a
placating and childlike expression.
“Oh, Rhett, you can help me so
much—if you’ll just be sweet.”
“There’s nothing I like better than
being—sweet.”
“Rhett, for old friendship’s sake,
I want you to do me a favor.”
“So, at last the horny-handed lady
comes to her real mission. I feared that ‘visiting the sick and the
imprisoned’ was not your proper role. What do you want? Money?”
The bluntness of his question ruined
all hopes of leading up to the matter in any circuitous and
sentimental way.
“Don’t be mean, Rhett,” she
coaxed. “I do want some money. I want you to lend me three hundred
dollars.”
“The truth at last. Talking love and
thinking money. How truly feminine! Do you need the money badly?”
“Oh, ye— Well, not so terribly but
I could use it”
“Three “hundred dollars. That’s a
vast amount of money. What do you want it for?”
“To pay taxes on Tara.”
“So you want to borrow some money.
Well, since you’re so businesslike, I’ll be businesslike too.
What collateral will you give me?”
“What what?”
“Collateral. Security on my
investment. Of course, I don’t want to lose all that money.” His
voice was deceptively smooth, almost silky, but she did not notice.
Maybe everything would turn out nicely after all.
“My earrings.”
“I’m not interested in earrings.”
“I’ll give you a mortgage on Tara.”
“Now just what would I do with a
farm?”
“Well, you could—you could—it’s
a good plantation. And you wouldn’t lose. I’d pay you back out of
next year’s cotton.”
“I’m not so sure.” He tilted back
in his chair and stuck his hands in his pockets. “Cotton prices are
dropping. Times are so hard and money’s so tight.”
“Oh, Rhett, you are teasing me! You
know you have millions!”
There was a warm dancing malice in his
eyes as he surveyed her.
“So everything is going nicely and
you don’t need the money very badly. Well, I’m glad to hear that.
I like to know that all is well with old friends.”
“Oh, Rhett, for God’s sake …”
she began desperately, her courage and control breaking,
“Do lower your voice. You don’t
want the Yankees to hear you, I hope. Did anyone ever tell you you
had eyes like a cat—a cat in the dark?”
“Rhett, don’t! I’ll tell you
everything. I do need the money so badly. I—I lied about everything
being all right. Everything’s as wrong as it could be. Father
is—is—he’s not himself. He’s been queer ever since Mother
died and he can’t help me any. He’s just like a child. And we
haven’t a single field hand to work the cotton and there’s so
many to feed, thirteen of us. And the taxes—they are so high.
Rhett, I’ll tell you everything. For over a year we’ve been just
this side of starvation. Oh, you don’t know! You can’t know!
We’ve never had enough to eat and it’s terrible to wake up hungry
and go to sleep hungry. And we haven’t any warm clothes and the
children are always cold and sick and—”
“Where did you get the pretty dress?”
“It’s made out of Mother’s
curtains,” she answered, too desperate to lie about this shame. “I
could stand being hungry and cold but now—now the Carpetbaggers
have raised our taxes. And the money’s got to be paid right away.
And I haven’t any money except one five-dollar gold piece. I’ve
got to have money for the taxes! Don’t you see? If I don’t pay
them, I’ll—we’ll lose Tara and we just can’t lose it! I can’t
let it go!”
“Why didn’t you tell me all this at
first instead of preying on my susceptible heart—always weak where
pretty ladies are concerned? No, Scarlett, don’t cry. You’ve
tried every trick except that one and I don’t think I could stand
it. My feelings are already lacerated with disappointment at
discovering it was my money and not my charming self you wanted.”
She remembered that he frequently told
bald truths about himself when he spoke mockingly—mocking himself
as well as others, and she hastily looked up at him. Were his
feelings really hurt? Did he really care about her? Had he been on
the verge of a proposal when he saw her palms? Or had he only been
leading up to another such odious proposal as he had made twice
before? If he really cared about her, perhaps she could smooth him
down. But his black eyes raked her in no lover-like way and he was
laughing softly.
“I don’t like your collateral. I’m
no planter. What else have you to offer?”
Well, she had come to it at last. Now
for it! She drew a deep breath and met his eyes squarely, all
coquetry and airs gone as her spirit rushed out to grapple that which
she feared most.
“I—I have myself.”
“Yes?”
Her jaw line tightened to squareness
and her eyes went emerald.
“You remember that night on Aunt
Pitty’s porch, during the siege? You said—you said then that you
wanted me.”
He leaned back carelessly in his chair
and looked into her tense face and his own dark face was inscrutable.
Something flickered behind his eyes but he said nothing.
“You said—you said you’d never
wanted a woman as much as you wanted me. If you still want me, you
can have me, Rhett, I’ll do anything you say but, for God’s sake,
write me a draft for the money! My word’s good. I swear it. I won’t
go back on it. I’ll put it in writing if you like.”
He looked at her oddly, still
inscrutable and as she hurried on she could not tell if he were
amused or repelled. If he would only say something, anything! She
felt her cheeks getting hot.
“I have got to have the money soon,
Rhett. They’ll turn us out in the road and that damned overseer of
Father’s will own the place and—”
“Just a minute. What makes you think
I still want you? What makes you think you are worth three hundred
dollars? Most women don’t come that high.”
She blushed to her hair line and her
humiliation was complete.
“Why are you doing this? Why not let
the farm go and live at Miss Pittypat’s. You own half that house.”
“Name of God!” she cried. “Are
you a fool? I can’t let Tara go. It’s home. I won’t let it go.
Not while I’ve got breath left in me!”
“The Irish,” said he, lowering his
chair back to level and removing his hands from his pockets, “are
the damnedest race. They put so much emphasis on so many wrong
things. Land, for instance. And every bit of earth is just like every
other bit. Now, let me get this straight, Scarlett. You are coming to
me with a business proposition. I’ll give you three hundred dollars
and you’ll become my mistress.”
“Yes.”
Now that the repulsive word had been
said, she felt somehow easier and hope awoke in her again. He had
said “I’ll give you.” There was a diabolic gleam in his eyes as
if something amused him greatly.
“And yet, when I had the effrontery
to make you this same proposition, you turned me out of the house.
And also you called me a number of very hard names and mentioned in
passing that you didn’t want a ‘passel of brats.’ No, my dear,
I’m not rubbing it in. I’m only wondering at the peculiarities of
your mind. You wouldn’t do it for your own pleasure but you will to
keep the wolf away from the door. It proves my point that all virtue
is merely a matter of prices.”
“Oh, Rhett, how you run on! If you
want to insult me, go on and do it but give me the money.”
She was breathing easier now. Being
what he was, Rhett would naturally want to torment and insult her as
much as possible to pay her back for past slights and for her recent
attempted trickery. Well, she could stand it. She could stand
anything. Tara was worth it all. For a brief moment it was mid-summer
and the afternoon skies were blue and she lay drowsily in the thick
clover of Tara’s lawn, looking up at the billowing cloud castles,
the fragrance of white blossoms in her nose and the pleasant busy
humming of bees in her ears. Afternoon and hush and the far-off sound
of the wagons coming in from the spiraling red fields. Worth it all,
worth more.
Her head went up.
“Are you going to give me the money?”
He looked as if he were enjoying
himself and when he spoke there was suave brutality in his voice.
“No, I’m not,” he said.
For a moment her mind could not adjust
itself to his words.
“I couldn’t give it to you, even if
I wanted to. I haven’t a cent on me. Not a dollar in Atlanta. I
have some money, yes, but not here. And I’m not saying where it is
or how much. But if I tried to draw a draft on it, the Yankees would
be on me like a duck on a June bug and then neither of us would get
it. What do you think of that?”
Her face went an ugly green, freckles
suddenly standing out across her nose and her contorted mouth was
like Gerald’s in a killing rage. She sprang to her feet with an
incoherent cry which made the hum of voices in the next room cease
suddenly. Swift as a panther, Rhett was beside her, his heavy hand
across her mouth, his arm tight about her waist. She struggled
against him madly, trying to bite his hand, to kick his legs, to
scream her rage, despair, hate, her agony of broken pride. She bent
and twisted every way against the iron of his arm, her heart near
bursting, her tight stays cutting off her breath. He held her so
tightly, so roughly that it hurt and the hand over her mouth pinched
into her jaws cruelly. His face was white under its tan, his eyes
hard and anxious as he lifted her completely off her feet, swung her
up against his chest and sat down in the chair, holding her writhing
in his lap.
“Darling, for God’s sake! Stop!
Hush! Don’t yell. They’ll be in here in a minute if you do. Do
calm yourself. Do you want the Yankees to see you like this?”
She was beyond caring who saw her,
beyond anything except a fiery desire to kill him, but dizziness was
sweeping her. She could not breathe; he was choking her; her stays
were like a swiftly compressing band of iron; his arms about her made
her shake with helpless hate and fury. Then his voice became thin and
dim and his face above her swirled in a sickening mist which became
heavier and heavier until she no longer saw him—or anything else.
When she made feeble swimming motions
to come back to consciousness, she was tired to her bones, weak,
bewildered. She was lying back in the chair, her bonnet off, Rhett
was slapping her wrist, his black eyes searching her face anxiously.
The nice young captain was trying to pour a glass of brandy into her
mouth and had spilled it down her neck. The other officers hovered
helplessly about, whispering and waving their hands.
“I—guess I must have fainted,”
she said, and her voice sounded so far away it frightened her.
“Drink this,” said Rhett, taking
the glass and pushing it against her lips. Now she remembered and
glared feebly at him but she was too tired for anger.
“Please, for my sake.”
She gulped and choked and began
coughing but he pushed it to her mouth again. She swallowed deeply
and the hot liquid burned suddenly in her throat.
“I think she’s better now,
gentlemen,” said Rhett, “and I thank you very much. The
realization that I’m to be executed was too much for her.”
The group in blue shuffled their feet
and looked embarrassed and after several clearings of throats, they
tramped out. The young captain paused in the doorway.
“If there’s anything more I can
do—”
“No, thank you.”
He went out, closing the door behind
him.
“Drink some more,” said Rhett
“No.”
“Drink it.”
She swallowed another mouthful and the
warmth began spreading through her body and strength flowed slowly
back into her shaking legs. She pushed away the glass and tried to
rise but he pressed her back.
“Take your hands off me. I’m
going.”
“Not yet. Wait a minute. You might
faint again.”
“I’d rather faint in the road than
be here with you.”
“Just the same, I won’t have you
fainting in the road.”
“Let me go. I hate you.”
A faint smile came back to his face at
her words.
“That sounds more like you. You must
be feeling better.”
She lay relaxed for a moment, trying to
summon anger to her aid, trying to draw on her strength. But she was
too tired. She was too tired to hate or to care very much about
anything. Defeat lay on her spirit like lead. She had gambled
everything and lost everything. Not even pride was left. This was the
dead end of her last hope. This was the end of Tara, the end of them
all. For a long time she lay back with her eyes closed, hearing his
heavy breathing near her, and the glow of the brandy crept gradually
over her, giving a false strength and warmth. When finally she opened
her eyes and looked him in the face, anger had roused again. As her
slanting eyebrows rushed down together in a frown Rhett’s old smile
came back.
“Now you are better. I can tell it by
your scowl.”
“Of course, I’m all right. Rhett
Butler, you are hateful, a skunk, if ever I saw one! You knew very
well what I was going to say as soon as I started talking and you
knew you weren’t going to give me the money. And yet you let me go
right on. You could have spared me—”
“Spared you and missed hearing all
that? Not much. I have so few diversions here. I don’t know when
I’ve ever heard anything so gratifying.” He laughed his sudden
mocking laugh. At the sound she leaped to her feet, snatching up her
bonnet.
He suddenly had her by the shoulders.
“Not quite yet. Do you feel well
enough to talk sense?”
“Let me go!”
“You are well enough, I see. Then,
tell me this. Was I the only iron you had in the fire?” His eyes
were keen and alert, watching every change in her face.
“What do you mean?”
“Was I the only man you were going to
try this on?”
“Is that any of your business?”
“More than you realize. Are there any
other men on your string? Tell me!”
“No.”
“Incredible. I can’t imagine you
without five or six in reserve. Surely someone will turn up to accept
your interesting proposition. I feel so sure of it that I want to
give you a little advice.”
“I don’t want your advice.”
“Nevertheless I will give it. Advice
seems to be the only thing I can give you at present. Listen to it,
for it’s good advice. When you are trying to get something out of a
man, don’t blurt it out as you did to me. Do try to be more subtle,
more seductive. It gets better results. You used to know how, to
perfection. But just now when you offered me your—er—collateral
for my money you looked as hard as nails. I’ve seen eyes like yours
above a dueling pistol twenty paces from me and they aren’t a
pleasant sight. They evoke no ardor in the male breast. That’s no
way to handle men, my dear. You are forgetting your early training.”
“I don’t need you to tell me how to
behave,” she said and wearily put on her bonnet. She wondered how
he could jest so blithely with a rope about his neck and her pitiful
circumstances before him. She did not even notice that his hands were
jammed in his pockets in hard fists as if he were straining at his
own impotence.
“Cheer up,” he said, as she tied
the bonnet strings. “You can come to my hanging and it will make
you feel lots better. It’ll even up all your old scores with
me—even this one. And I’ll mention you in my will.”
“Thank you, but they may not hang you
till it’s too late to pay the taxes,” she said with a sudden
malice that matched his own, and she meant it.
CHAPTER XXXV
IT WAS RAINING when she came out of the
building and the sky was a dull putty color. The soldiers on the
square had taken shelter in their huts and the streets were deserted.
There was no vehicle in sight and she knew she would have to walk the
long way home.
The brandy glow faded as she trudged
along. The cold wind made her shiver and the chilly needle-like drops
drove hard into her face. The rain quickly penetrated Aunt Pitty’s
thin cloak until it hung in clammy folds about her. She knew the
velvet dress was being ruined and as for the tail feathers on the
bonnet, they were as drooping and draggled as when their former owner
had worn them about the wet barn yard of Tara. The bricks of the
sidewalk were broken and, for long stretches, completely gone. In
these spots the mud was ankle deep and her slippers stuck in it as if
it were glue, even coming completely off her feet. Every time she
bent over to retrieve them, the hem of the dress fell in the mud. She
did not even try to avoid puddles but stepped dully into them,
dragging her heavy skirts after her. She could feel her wet petticoat
and pantalets cold about her ankles, but she was beyond caring about
the wreck of the costume on which she had gambled so much. She was
chilled and disheartened and desperate.
How could she ever go back to Tara and
face them after her brave words? How could she tell them they must
all go—somewhere? How could she leave it all, the red fields, the
tall pines, the dark swampy bottom lands, the quiet burying ground
where Ellen lay in the cedars’ deep shade?
Hatred of Rhett burned in her heart as
she plodded along the slippery way. What a blackguard he was! She
hoped they did hang him, so she would never have to face him again
with his knowledge of her disgrace and her humiliation. Of course, he
could have gotten the money for her if he’d wanted to get it. Oh,
hanging was too good for him. Thank God, he couldn’t see her now,
with her clothes soaking wet and her hair straggling and her teeth
chattering. How hideous she must look and how he would laugh!
The negroes she passed turned insolent
grins at her and laughed among themselves as she hurried by, slipping
and sliding in the mud, stopping, panting to replace her slippers.
How dared they laugh, the black apes! How dared they grin at her,
Scarlett O’Hara of Tara! She’d like to have them all whipped
until the blood ran down their backs. What devils the Yankees were to
set them free, free to jeer at white people!
As she walked down Washington Street
the landscape was as dreary as her own heart. Here there was none of
the bustle and cheerfulness which she had noted on Peachtree Street.
Here many handsome homes had once stood, but few of them had been
rebuilt. Smoked foundations and the lonesome blackened chimneys, now
known as “Sherman’s Sentinels,” appeared with disheartening
frequency. Overgrown paths led to what had been houses—old lawns
thick with dead weeds, carriage blocks bearing names she knew so
well, hitching posts which would never again know the knot of reins.
Cold wind and rain, mud and bare trees, silence and desolation. How
wet her feet were and how long the journey home!
She heard the splash of hooves behind
her and moved farther over on the narrow sidewalk to avoid more mud
splotches on Aunt Pittypat’s cloak. A horse and buggy came slowly
up the road and she turned to watch it, determined to beg a ride if
the driver was a white person. The rain obscured her vision as the
buggy came abreast, but she saw the driver peer over the tarpaulin
that stretched from the dashboard to his chin. There was something
familiar about his face and as she stepped out into the road to get a
closer view, there was an embarrassed little cough from the man and a
well-known voice cried in accents of pleasure and astonishment:
“Surely, it can’t be Miss Scarlett!”
“Oh, Mr. Kennedy!” she cried,
splashing across the road and leaning on the muddy wheel, heedless of
further damage to the cloak. “I was never so glad to see anybody in
my life!”
He colored with pleasure at the obvious
sincerity of her words, hastily squirted a stream of tobacco juice
from the opposite side of the buggy and leaped spryly to the ground.
He shook her hand enthusiastically and holding up the tarpaulin,
assisted her into the buggy.
“Miss Scarlett, what are you doing
over in this section by yourself? Don’t you know ifs dangerous
these days? And you are soaking wet. Here, wrap the robe around your
feet.”
As he fussed over her, clucking like a
hen, she gave herself up to the luxury of being taken care of. It was
nice to have a man fussing and clucking and scolding, even if it was
only that old maid in pants, Frank Kennedy. It was especially
soothing after Rhett’s brutal treatment. And oh, how good to see a
County face when she was so far from home! He was well dressed, she
noticed, and the buggy was new too. The horse looked young and well
fed, but Frank looked far older than his years, older than on that
Christmas eve when he had been at Tara with his men. He was thin and
sallow faced and his yellow eyes were watery and sunken in creases of
loose flesh. His ginger-colored beard was scantier than ever,
streaked with tobacco juice and as ragged as if he clawed at it
incessantly. But he looked bright and cheerful, in contrast with the
lines of sorrow and worry and weariness which Scarlett saw in faces
everywhere.
“It’s a pleasure to see you,”
said Frank warmly. I didn’t know you were in town. I saw Miss
Pittypat only last week and she didn’t tell me you were coming.
Did—er—ahem—did anyone else come op from Tara with you?”
He was thinking of Suellen, the silly
old fool!
“No,” she said, wrapping the warm
lap robe about her and trying to pull it up around her neck. “I
came alone. I didn’t give Aunt Pitty any warning.”
He chirruped to the horse and it
plodded off, picking its way carefully down the slick road.
“All the folks at Tara well?”
“Oh, yes, so-so.”
She must think of something to talk
about, yet it was so hard to talk. Her mind was leaden with defeat
and all she wanted was to lie back in this warm blanket and say to
herself: I won’t think of Tara now. I’ll think of it later, when
it won’t hurt so much.” If she could just get him started talking
on some subject which would hold him all the way home, so she would
have nothing to do but murmur “How nice” and “You certainly are
smart” at intervals.
“Mr. Kennedy, I’m so surprised to
see you. I know I’ve been a bad girl, not keeping up with old
friends, but I didn’t know you were here in Atlanta. I thought
somebody told me you were in Marietta.”
“I do business in Marietta, a lot of
business,” he said. “Didn’t Miss Suellen tell you I had settled
in Atlanta? Didn’t she tell you about my store?”
Vaguely she had a memory of Suellen
chattering about Frank and a store but she never paid much heed to
anything Suellen said. It had been sufficient to know that Frank was
alive and would some day take Suellen off her hands.
“No, not a word,” she lied. “Have
you a store? How smart you must be!”
He looked a little hurt at hearing that
Suellen had not published the news but brightened at the flattery.
“Yes, I’ve got a store, and a
pretty good one I think. Folks tell me I’m a born merchant.” He
laughed pleasedly, the tittery cackling laugh which she always found
so annoying.
Conceited old fool, she thought.
“Oh, you could be a success at
anything you turned your hand to, Mr. Kennedy. But how on earth did
you ever get started with the store? When I saw you Christmas before
last you said you didn’t have a cent in the world.”
He cleared his throat raspingly, clawed
at his whiskers and smiled his nervous timid smile.
“Well, it’s a long story, Miss
Scarlett.”
Thank the Lord! she thought. Perhaps it
will hold him till we get home. And aloud: “Do tell!”
“You recall when we came to Tara
last, hunting for supplies? Well, not long after that I went into
active service. I mean real fighting. No more commissary for me.
There wasn’t much need for a commissary, Miss Scarlett, because we
couldn’t hardly pick up a thing for the army, and I thought the
place for an able-bodied man was in the fighting line. Well, I fought
along with the cavalry for a spell till I got a minie ball through
the shoulder.”
He looked very proud and Scarlett said:
“How dreadful!”
“Oh, it wasn’t so bad, just a flesh
wound,” he said deprecatingly. “I was sent down south to a
hospital and when I was just about well, the Yankee raiders came
through. My, my, but that was a hot time! We didn’t have much
warning and all of us who could walk helped haul out the army stores
and the hospital equipment to the train tracks to move it. We’d
gotten one train about loaded when the Yankees rode in one end of
town and out we went the other end as fast as we could go. My, my,
that was a mighty sad sight, sitting on top of that train and seeing
the Yankees burn those supplies we had to leave at the depot. Miss
Scarlett, they burned about a half-mile of stuff we had piled up
there along the tracks. We just did get away ourselves.”
“How dreadful!”
“Yes, that’s the word. Dreadful.
Our men had come back into Atlanta then and so our train was sent
here. Well, Miss Scarlett, it wasn’t long before the war was over
and—well, there was a lot of china and cots and mattresses and
blankets and nobody claiming them. I suppose rightfully they belonged
to the Yankees. I think those were the terms of the surrender,
weren’t they?”
“Um,” said Scarlett absently. She
was getting warmer now and a little drowsy.
“I don’t know till now if I did
right,” he said, a little querulously. “But the way I figured it,
all that stuff wouldn’t do the Yankees a bit of good. They’d
probably burn it. And our folks had paid good solid money for it, and
I thought it still ought to belong to the Confederacy or to the
Confederates. Do you see what I mean?”
“Um.”
“I’m glad you agree with me, Miss
Scarlett. In a way, it’s been on my conscience. Lots of folks have
told me: ‘Oh, forget about it, Frank,’ but I can’t I couldn’t
hold up my head if I thought I’d done what wasn’t right. Do you
think I did right?”
“Of course,” she said, wondering
what the old fool had been talking about. Some struggle with his
conscience. When a man got as old as Frank Kennedy he ought to have
learned not to bother about things that didn’t matter. But he
always was so nervous and fussy and old maidish.
“I’m glad to hear you say it. After
the surrender I had about ten dollars in silver and nothing else in
the world. You know what they did to Jonesboro and my house and store
there. I just didn’t know what to do. But I used the ten dollars to
put a roof on an old store down by Five Points and I moved the
hospital equipment in and started selling it. Everybody needed beds
and china and mattresses and I sold them cheap, because I figured it
was about as much other folks’ stuff as it was mine. But I cleared
money on it and bought some more stuff and the store just went along
fine. I think I’ll make a lot of money on it if things pick up.”
At the word “money,” her mind came
back to him, crystal clear.
“You say you’ve made money?”
He visibly expanded under her interest.
Few women except Suellen had ever given him more than perfunctory
courtesy and it was very flattering to have a former belle like
Scarlett hanging on his words. He slowed the horse so they would not
reach home before he had finished his story.
“I’m not a millionaire, Miss
Scarlett, and considering the money I used to have, what I’ve got
now sounds small. But I made a thousand dollars this year. Of course,
five hundred of it went to paying for new stock and repairing the
store and paying the rent. But I’ve made five hundred clear and as
things are certainly picking up, I ought to clear two thousand next
year. I can sure use it, too, for you see, I’ve got another iron in
the fire.”
Interest had sprung up sharply in her
at the talk of money. She veiled her eyes with thick bristly lashes
and moved a little closer to him.
“What does that mean, Mr. Kennedy?”
He laughed and slapped the reins
against the horse’s back.
“I guess I’m boring you, talking
about business, Miss Scarlett. A pretty little woman like you doesn’t
need to know anything about business.”
The old fool.
“Oh, I know I’m a goose about
business but I’m so interested! Please tell me all about it and you
can explain what I don’t understand.”
“Well, my other iron is a sawmill.”
“A what?”
“A mill to cut up lumber and plane
it. I haven’t bought it yet but I’m going to. There’s a man
named Johnson who has one, way out Peachtree road, and he’s anxious
to sell it. He needs some cash right away, so he wants to sell and
stay and run it for me at a weekly wage. It’s one of the few mills
in this section, Miss Scarlett. The Yankees destroyed most of them.
And anyone who owns a sawmill owns a gold mine, for nowadays you can
ask your own price for lumber. The Yankees burned so many houses here
and there aren’t enough for people to live in and it looks like
folks have gone crazy about rebuilding. They can’t get enough
lumber and they can’t get it fast enough. People are just pouring
into Atlanta now, all the folks from the country districts who can’t
make a go of farming without darkies and the Yankees and
Carpetbaggers who are swarming in trying to pick our bones a little
barer than they already are. I tell you Atlanta’s going to be a big
town soon. They’ve got to have lumber for their houses, so I’m
going to buy this mill just as soon as—well, as soon as some of the
bills owing me are paid. By this time next year, I ought to be
breathing easier about money. I—I guess you know why I’m so
anxious to make money quickly, don’t you?”
He blushed and cackled again. He’s
thinking of Suellen, Scarlett thought in disgust.
For a moment she considered asking him
to lend her three hundred dollars, but wearily she rejected the idea.
He would be embarrassed; he would stammer, he would offer excuses,
but he wouldn’t lend it to her. He had worked hard for it, so he
could marry Suellen in the spring and if he parted with it, his
wedding would be postponed indefinitely. Even if she worked on his
sympathies and his duty toward his future family and gained his
promise of a loan, she knew Suellen would never permit it. Suellen
was getting more and more worried over the fact that she was
practically an old maid and she would move heaven and earth to
prevent anything from delaying her marriage.
What was there in that whining
complaining girl to make this old fool so anxious to give her a soft
nest? Suellen didn’t deserve a loving husband and the profits of
store and a sawmill. The minute Sue got her hands on a little money
she’d give herself unendurable airs and never contribute one cent
toward the upkeep of Tara. Not Suellen! She’d think herself well
out of it and not care if Tara went for taxes or burned to the
ground, so long as she had pretty clothes and a “Mrs.” in front
of her name.
As Scarlett thought of Suellen’s
secure future and the precarious one of herself and Tara, anger
flamed in her at the unfairness of life. Hastily she looked out of
the buggy into the muddy street, lest Frank should see her
expression. She was going to lose everything she had, while Sue—
Suddenly a determination was born in her.
Suellen should not have Frank and his
store and his mill!
Suellen didn’t deserve them. She was
going to have them herself. She thought of Tara and remembered Jonas
Wilkerson, venomous as a rattler, at the foot of the front steps, and
she grasped at the last straw floating above the shipwreck of her
life. Rhett had failed her but the Lord had provided Frank.
But can I get him? Her fingers clenched
as she looked unseeingly into the rain. Can I make him forget Sue and
propose to me real quick? If I could make Rhett almost propose, I
know I could get Frank! Her eyes went over him, her lids flickering.
Certainly, he’s no beauty, she thought coolly, and he’s got very
bad teeth and his breath smells bad and he’s old enough to be my
father. Moreover, he’s nervous and timid and well meaning, and I
don’t know of any more damning qualities a man can have. But at
least, he’s a gentleman and I believe I could stand living with him
better than with Rhett. Certainly I could manage him easier. At any
rate, beggars can’t be choosers.
That he was Suellen’s fiancé caused
her no qualm of conscience. After the complete moral collapse which
had sent her to Atlanta and to Rhett, the appropriation of her
sister’s betrothed seemed a minor affair and one not to be bothered
with at this time.
With the rousing of fresh hope, her
spine stiffened and she forgot that her feet were wet and cold. She
looked at Frank so steadily, her eyes narrowing, that he became
somewhat alarmed and she dropped her gaze swiftly, remembering
Rhett’s words: “I’ve seen eyes like yours above a dueling
pistol. … They evoke no ardor in the male breast.”
“What’s the matter, Miss Scarlett?
You got a chill?”
“Yes,” she answered helplessly.
“Would you mind—” She hesitated timidly. “Would you mind if I
put my hand in your coat pocket? It’s so cold and my muff is soaked
through.”
“Why—why—of course not! And you
haven’t any gloves! My, my, what a brute I’ve been idling along
like this, talking my head off when you must be freezing and wanting
to get to a fire. Giddap, Sally! By the way, Miss Scarlett, I’ve
been so busy talking about myself I haven’t even asked you what you
were doing in this section in this weather?”
“I was at the Yankee headquarters,”
she answered before she thought. His sandy brows went up in
astonishment.
“But Miss Scarlett! The soldiers—
Why—”
“Mary, Mother of God, let me think of
a real good lie,” she prayed hastily. It would never do for Frank
to suspect she had seen Rhett. Frank thought Rhett the blackest of
blackguards and unsafe for decent women to speak to.
“I went there—I went there to see
if—if any of the officers would buy fancy work from me to send home
to their wives. I embroider very nicely.”
He sank back against the seat aghast,
indignation struggling with bewilderment.
“You went to the Yankees— But Miss
Scarlett! You shouldn’t. Why—why … Surely your father doesn’t
know! Surely, Miss Pittypat—”
“Oh, I shall die if you tell Aunt
Pittypat!” she cried in real anxiety and burst into tears. It was
easy to cry, because she was so cold and miserable, but the effect
was startling. Frank could not have been more embarrassed or helpless
if she had suddenly begun disrobing. He clicked his tongue against
his teeth several times, muttering “My! My!” and made futile
gestures at her. A daring thought went through his mind that he
should draw her head onto his shoulder and pat her but he had never
done this to any woman and hardly knew how to go about it. Scarlett
O’Hara, so high spirited and pretty, crying here in his buggy.
Scarlett O’Hara, the proudest of the proud, trying to sell
needlework to the Yankees. His heart burned.
She sobbed on, saying a few words now
and then, and he gathered that all was not well at Tara. Mr. O’Hara
was still “not himself at all,” and there wasn’t enough food to
go around for so many. So she had to come to Atlanta to try to make a
little money for herself and her boy. Frank clicked his tongue again
and suddenly he found that her head was on his shoulder. He did not
quite know how it got there. Surely he had not placed it there, but
there her head was and there was Scarlett helplessly sobbing against
his thin chest, an exciting and novel sensation for him. He patted
her shoulder timidly, gingerly at first, and when she did not rebuff
him he became bolder and patted her firmly. What a helpless, sweet,
womanly little thing she was. And how brave and silly to try her hand
at making money by her needle. But dealing with the Yankees—that
was too much.
“I won’t tell Miss Pittypat, but
you must promise me, Miss Scarlett, that you won’t do anything like
this again. The idea of your father’s daughter—”
Her wet green eyes sought his
helplessly.
“But, Mr. Kennedy, I must do
something. I must take care of my poor little boy and there is no one
to look after us now.”
“You are a brave little woman,” he
pronounced, “but I won’t have you do this sort of thing. Your
family would die of shame.”
“Then what will I do?” The swimming
eyes looked up to him as if she knew he knew everything and was
hanging on his words.
“Well, I don’t know right now. But
I’ll think of something.”
“Oh, I know you will! You are so
smart—Frank.”
She had never called him by his first
name before and the sound came to him as a pleasant shock and
surprise. The poor girl was probably so upset she didn’t even
notice her slip. He felt very kindly toward her and very protecting.
If there was anything he could do for Suellen O’Hara’s sister, he
would certainly do it. He pulled out a red bandanna handkerchief and
handed it to her and she wiped her eyes and began to smile
tremulously.
“I’m such a silly little goose,”
she said apologetically. “Please forgive me.”
“You aren’t a silly little goose.
You’re a very brave little woman and you are trying to carry too
heavy a load. I’m afraid Miss Pittypat isn’t going to be much
help to you. I hear she lost most of her property and Mr. Henry
Hamilton’s in bad shape himself. I only wish I had a home to offer
you shelter in. But, Miss Scarlett, you just remember this, when Miss
Suellen and I are married, there’ll always be a place for you under
our roof and for Wade Hampton too.”
Now was the time! Surely the saints and
angels watched over her to give her such a Heaven-sent opportunity.
She managed to look very startled and embarrassed and opened her
mouth as if to speak quickly and then shut it with a pop.
“Don’t ten me you didn’t know I
was to be your brother-in-law this spring,” he said with nervous
jocularity. And then, seeing her eyes fill up with tears, he
questioned in alarm: “What’s the matter? Miss Sue’s not ill, is
she?”
“Oh, no! No!”
“There is something wrong. You must
tell me.”
“Oh, I can’t! I didn’t know! I
thought surely she must have written you— Oh, how mean!”
“Miss Scarlett, what is it?”
“Oh, Frank, I didn’t mean to let it
out but I thought, of course, you knew—that she had written you—”
“Written me what?” He was
trembling.
“Oh, to do this to a fine man like
you!”
“What’s she done?”
“She didn’t write you? Oh, I guess
she was too ashamed to write you. She should be ashamed! Oh, to have
such a mean sister!”
By this time, Frank could not even get
questions to his lips. He sat staring at her, gray faced, the reins
slack in his hands.
“She’s going to marry Tony Fontaine
next month. Oh, I’m so sorry, Frank. So sorry to be the one to tell
you. She just got tired of waiting and she was afraid she’d be an
old maid.”
Mammy was standing on the front porch
when Frank helped Scarlett out of the buggy. She had evidently been
standing there for some time, for her head rag was damp and the old
shawl clutched tightly about her showed rain spots. Her wrinkled
black face was a study in anger and apprehension and her lip was
pushed out farther than Scarlett could ever remember. She peered
quickly at Frank and, when she saw who it was, her face changed—
pleasure, bewilderment and something akin to guilt spreading over it.
She waddled forward to Frank with pleased greetings and grinned and
curtsied when he shook her hand.
“It sho is good ter see home folks,”
she said. “How is you, Mist’ Frank? My, ain’ you lookin’ fine
an’ gran’! Effen Ah’d knowed Miss Scarlett wuz out wid you, Ah
wouldn’ worrit so. Ah’d knowed she wuz tekken keer of. Ah come
back hyah an’ fine she gone an’ Ah been as ‘stracted as a
chicken wid its haid off, thinkin’ she runnin’ roun’ dis town
by herseff wid all dese trashy free issue niggers on de street.
Huccome you din’ tell me you gwine out, honey? An’ you wid a
cole!”
Scarlett winked slyly at Frank and, for
all his distress at the bad news he had just heard, he smiled,
knowing she was enjoining silence and making him one in a pleasant
conspiracy.
“You run up and fix me some dry
clothes, Mammy,” she said. “And some hot tea.”
“Lawd, yo’ new dress is plum
ruint,” grumbled Mammy. “Ah gwine have a time dryin’ it an’
brushin’ it, so it’ll be fit ter be wo’ ter de weddin’
ternight.”
She went into the house and Scarlett
leaned close to Frank and whispered: “Do come to supper tonight. We
are so lonesome. And we’re going to the wedding afterward. Do be
our escort! And, please don’t say anything to Aunt Pitty
about—about Suellen. It would distress her so much and I can’t
bear for her to know that my sister—”
“Oh, I won’t! I won’t!” Frank
said hastily, wincing from the very thought.
“You’ve been so sweet to me today
and done me so much good. I feel right brave again.” She squeezed
his hand in parting and turned the full battery of her eyes upon him.
Mammy, who was waiting just inside the
door, gave her an inscrutable look and followed her, puffing, up the
stairs to the bedroom. She was silent while she stripped off the wet
clothes and hung them over chairs and tucked Scarlett into bed. When
she had brought up a cup of hot tea and a hot brick, rolled in
flannel, she looked down at Scarlett and said, with the nearest
approach to an apology in her voice Scarlett had ever heard: “Lamb,
huccome you din’ tell yo’ own Mammy whut you wuz upter? Den Ah
wouldn’ had ter traipse all dis way up hyah ter ‘Lanta. Ah is too
ole an’ too fat fer sech runnin’ roun’.”
“What do you mean?”
“Honey, you kain fool me. Ah knows
you. An’ Ah seed Mist’ Frank’s face jes’ now an’ Ah seed
yo’ face, an’ Ah kin read yo’ mine lak a pahson read a Bible.
An’ Ah heerd dat whisperin’ you wuz givin’ him ‘bout Miss
Suellen. Effen Ah’d had a notion ‘twuz Mist’ Frank you wuz
affer, Ah’d stayed home whar Ah b’longs.”
“Well,” said Scarlett shortly,
snuggling under the blankets and realizing it was useless to try to
throw Mammy off the scent, “who did you think it was?”
“Chile, Ah din’ know but Ah din’
lak de look on yo’ face yestiddy. An’ Ah ‘membered Miss
Pittypat writin’ Miss Melly dat dat rapscallion Butler man had lots
of money an’ Ah doan fergit what Ah hears. But Mist’ Frank, he a
gempmum even ef he ain’ so pretty.”
Scarlett gave her a sharp look and
Mammy returned the gaze with calm omniscience.
“Well, what are you going to do about
it? Tattle to Suellen?”
“Ah is gwine ter he’p you pleasure
Mist’ Frank eve’y way Ah knows how,” said Mammy, tucking the
covers about Scarlett’s neck.
Scarlett lay quietly for a while, as
Mammy fussed about the room, relief flooding her that there was no
need for words between them. No explanations were asked, no
reproaches made. Mammy understood and was silent. In Mammy, Scarlett
had found a realist more uncompromising than herself. The mottled
wise old eyes saw deeply, saw clearly, with the directness of the
savage and the child, undeterred by conscience when danger threatened
her pet. Scarlett was her baby and what her baby wanted, even though
it belonged to another, Mammy was willing to help her obtain. The
rights of Suellen and Frank Kennedy did not even enter her mind, save
to cause a grim inward chuckle. Scarlett was in trouble and doing the
best she could, and Scarlett was Miss Ellen’s child. Mammy rallied
to her with never a moment’s hesitation.
Scarlett felt the silent reinforcement
and, as the hot brick at her feet warmed her, the hope which had
flickered faintly on the cold ride home grew into a flame. It swept
through her, making her heart pump the blood through her veins in
pounding surges. Strength was coming back and a reckless excitement
which made her want to laugh aloud. Not beaten yet, she thought
exultantly.
“Hand me the mirror, Mammy,” she
said.
“Keep yo’ shoulders unner dat
kivver,” ordered Mammy, passing the hand mirror to her, a smile on
her thick lips.
Scarlett looked at herself.
“I look white as a hant,” she said,
“and my hair is as wild as a horse’s tail.”
“You doan look peart as you mout.”
“Hum. … Is it raining very hard?”
“You know it’s po’in’.”
“Well, just the same, you’ve got to
go downtown for me.”
“Not in dis rain, Ah ain’.”
“Yes, you are or I’ll go myself.”
“What you got ter do dat woan wait?
Look ter me lak you done nuff fer one day.”
“I want,” said Scarlett, surveying
herself carefully in the mirror, “a bottle of cologne water. You
can wash my hair and rinse it with cologne. And buy me a jar of
quince-seed jelly to make it lie down flat.”
“Ah ain’ gwine wash yo’ ha’r in
dis wedder an’ you ain’ gwine put no cologne on yo’ haid lak a
fas’ woman needer. Not w’ile Ah got breaf in mah body.”
“Oh, yes, I am. Look in my purse and
get that five-dollar gold piece out and go to town. And—er, Mammy,
while you are downtown, you might get me a—a pot of rouge.”
“Whut dat?” asked Mammy
suspiciously.
Scarlett met her eyes with a coldness
she was far from feeling. There was never any way of knowing just how
far Mammy could be bullied.
“Never you mind. Just ask for it.”
“Ah ain’ buyin nuthin’ dat Ah
doan know whut ‘tis.”
“Well, it’s paint, if you’re so
curious! Face paint. Don’t stand there and swell up like a toad. Go
on.”
“Paint!” ejaculated Mammy. “Face
paint! Well, you ain’ so big dat Ah kain whup you! Ah ain’ never
been so scan’lized! You is los’ yo’ mine! Miss Ellen be tuhnin’
in her grabe dis minute! Paintin’ yo face lak a—”
“You know very well Grandma Robillard
painted her face and—”
“Yas’m, an’ wo’ only one
petticoat an’ it wrang out wid water ter mek it stick an’ show de
shape of her laigs, but dat ain’ sayin’ you is gwine do sumpin’
lak dat! Times wuz scan’lous w’en Ole Miss wuz young but times
changes, dey do an’—”
“Name of God!” cried Scarlett,
losing her temper and throwing back the covers. “You can go
straight back to Tara!”
“You kain sen’ me ter Tara ness Ah
wants ter go. Ah is free,” said Mammy heatedly. “An’ Ah is
gwine ter stay right hyah. Git back in dat baid. Does you want ter
ketch pneumony jes’ now? Put down dem stays! Put dem down, honey.
Now, Miss Scarlett, you ain’ gwine nowhars in dis wedder. Lawd God!
But you sho look lak yo’ pa! Git back in baid—Ah kain go buyin’
no paint! Ah die of shame, eve’ybody knowin ‘it wud fer mah
chile! Miss Scarlett, you is so sweet an’ pretty lookin’ you doan
need no paint. Honey, doan nobody but bad womens use dat stuff.”
“Well, they get results, don’t
they?”
“Jesus, hear her! Lamb, doan say bad
things lak dat! Put down dem wet stockin’s, honey. Ah kain have you
buy dat stuff yo’seff. Miss Ellen would hant me. Git back in baid.
Ah’ll go. Maybe Ah fine me a sto’ what dey doan know us.”
That night at Mrs. Elsing’s, when
Fanny had been duly married and old Levi and the other musicians were
tuning up for the dance, Scarlett looked about her with gladness. It
was so exciting to be actually at a party again. She was pleased also
with the warm reception she had received. When she entered the house
on Frank’s arm, everyone had rushed to her with cries of pleasure
and welcome, kissed her, shaken her hand, told her they had missed
her dreadfully and that she must never go back to Tara. The men
seemed gallantly to have forgotten she had tried her best to break
their hearts in other days and the girls that she had done everything
in her power to entice their beaux away from them. Even Mrs.
Merriwether, Mrs. Whiting, Mrs. Meade and the other dowagers who had
been so cool to her during the last days of the war, forgot her
flighty conduct and their disapproval of it and recalled only that
she had suffered in their common defeat and that she was Pitty’s
niece and Charles’ widow. They kissed her and spoke gently with
tears in their eyes of her dear mother’s passing and asked at
length about her father and her sisters. Everyone asked about Melanie
and Ashley, demanding the reason why they, too, had not come back to
Atlanta.
In spite of her pleasure at the
welcome, Scarlett felt a slight uneasiness which she tried to
conceal, an uneasiness about the appearance of her velvet dress. It
was still damp to the knees and still spotted about the hem, despite
the frantic efforts of Mammy and Cookie with a steaming kettle, a
clean hair brush and frantic wavings in front of an open fire.
Scarlett was afraid someone would notice her bedraggled state and
realize that this was her only nice dress. She was a little cheered
by the fact that many of the dresses of the other guests looked far
worse than hers. They were so old and had such carefully mended and
pressed looks. At least, her dress was whole and new, damp though it
was—in fact, the only new dress at the gathering with the exception
of Fanny’s white-satin wedding gown.
Remembering what Aunt Pitty had told
her about the Elsing finances, she wondered where the money for the
satin dress had been obtained and for the refreshments, and
decorations and musicians too. It must have cost a pretty penny.
Borrowed money probably or else the whole Elsing clan had contributed
to give Fanny this expensive wedding. Such a wedding in these hard
times seemed to Scarlett an extravagance on a par with the tombstones
of the Tarleton boys and she felt the same irritation and lack of
sympathy she had felt as she stood in the Tarleton burying ground.
The days when money could be thrown away carelessly had passed. Why
did these people persist in making the gestures of the old days when
the old days were gone?
But she shrugged off her momentary
annoyance. It wasn’t her money and she didn’t want her evening’s
pleasure spoiled by irritation at other people’s foolishness.
She discovered she knew the groom quite
well, for he was Tommy Wellburn from Sparta and she had nursed him in
1863 when he had a wound in his shoulder. He had been a handsome
young six-footer then and had given up his medical studies to go in
the cavalry. Now he looked like a little old man, so bent was he by
the wound in his hip. He walked with some difficulty and, as Aunt
Pitty had remarked, spraddled in a very vulgar way. But he seemed
totally unaware of his appearance, or unconcerned about it, and had
the manner of one who asks no odds from any man. He had given up all
hope of continuing his medical studies and was now a contractor,
working a labor crew of Irishmen who were building the new hotel.
Scarlett wondered how he managed so onerous a job in his condition
but asked no questions, realizing wryly that almost anything was
possible when necessity drove.
Tommy and Hugh Elsing and the little
monkey-like René Picard stood talking with her while the chairs and
furniture were pushed back to the wall in preparation for the
dancing. Hugh had not changed since Scarlett last saw him in 1862. He
was still the thin sensitive boy with the same lock of pale brown
hair hanging over his forehead and the same delicate useless-looking
hands she remembered so well. But René had changed since that
furlough when he married Maybelle Merriwether. He still had the
Gallic twinkle in his black eyes and the Creole zest for living but,
for all his easy laughter, there was something hard about his face
which had not been there in the early days of the war. And the air of
supercilious elegance which had clung about him in his striking
Zouave uniform was completely gone.
“Cheeks lak ze rose, eyes lak ze
emerald!” he said, kissing Scarlett’s hand and paying tribute to
the rouge upon her face. “Pretty lak w’en I first see you at ze
bazaar. You remembaire? Nevaire have I forgot how you toss your
wedding ring in my basket. Ha, but zat was brave! But I should
nevaire have zink you wait so long to get anothaire ring!”
His eyes sparkled wickedly and he dug
his elbow into Hugh’s ribs.
“And I never thought you’d be
driving a pie wagon, Renny Picard,” she said. Instead of being
ashamed at having his degrading occupation thrown in his face, he
seemed pleased and laughed uproariously, slapping Hugh on the back.
“Touché!” he cried. “Belle Mère,
Madame Merriwether, she mek me do eet, ze first work I do en all my
life, René Picard, who was to grow old breeding ze race horse,
playing ze feedle! Now, I drive ze pie wagon and I lak eet! Madame
Belle Mère, she can mek a man do annyzing. She should have been ze
general and we win ze war, eh, Tommy?”
Well! thought Scarlett. The idea of
liking to drive a pie wagon when his people used to own ten miles
along the Mississippi River and a big house in New Orleans, too!
“If we’d had our mothers-in-law in
the ranks, we’d have beat the Yankees in a week,” agreed Tommy,
his eyes straying to the slender, indomitable form of his new
mother-in-law. The only reason we lasted as long as we did was
because of the ladies behind us who wouldn’t give up.”
“Who’ll never give up,” amended
Hugh, and his smile was proud but a little wry. There’s not a lady
here tonight who has surrendered, no matter what her men folks did at
Appomattox. It’s a lot worse on them than it ever was on us. At
least, we took it out in fighting.”
“And they in hating,” finished
Tommy. “Eh, Scarlett? It bothers the ladies to see what their men
folks have come down to lots more than it bothers us. Hugh was to be
a judge, René was to play the fiddle before the crowned heads of
Europe—” He ducked as René aimed a blow at him. “And I was to
be a doctor and now—”
“Geeve us ze time!” cried René.
“Zen I become ze Pie Prince of ze South! And my good Hugh ze King
of ze Kindling and you, my Tommy, you weel own ze Irish slaves
instead of ze darky slaves. What changes—what fun! And what eet do
for you. Mees Scarlett, and Mees Melly? You meelk ze cow, peek ze
cotton?”
“Indeed, no!” said Scarlett coolly,
unable to understand René’s gay acceptance of hardships. “Our
darkies do that.”
“Mees Melly, I hear she call her boy
‘Beauregard.’ You tell her I, René, approve and say that except
for ‘Jesus’ there is no bettaire name.”
And though he smiled, his eyes glowed
proudly at the name of Louisiana’s dashing hero.
“Well, there’s ‘Robert Edward
Lee,’ ” observed Tommy. “And while I’m not trying to lessen
Old Beau’s reputation, my first son is going to be named ‘Bob Lee
Wellburn.’ ”
René laughed and shrugged.
“I recount to you a joke but eet eez
a true story. And you see how Creoles zink of our brave Beauregard
and of your General Lee. On ze train near New Orleans a man of
Virginia, a man of General Lee, he meet wiz a Creole of ze troops of
Beauregard. And ze man of Virginia, he talk, talk, talk how General
Lee do zis, General Lee say zat. And ze Creole, he look polite and he
wreenkle hees forehead lak he try to remembaire, and zen he smile and
say: ‘General Lee! Ah oui! Now I know! General Lee! Ze man General
Beauregard speak well of!”
Scarlett tried to join politely in the
laughter but she did not see any point to the story except that
Creoles were just as stuck up as Charleston and Savannah people.
Moreover, she had always thought Ashley’s son should have been
named after him.
The musicians after preliminary tunings
and whangings broke into “Old Dan Tucker” and Tommy turned to
her.
“Will you dance, Scarlett? I can’t
favor you but Hugh or René—”
“No, thank you. I’m still mourning
my mother,” said Scarlett hastily. “I will sit them out.”
Her eyes singled out Frank Kennedy and
beckoned him from the side of Mrs. Elsing.
“I’ll sit in that alcove yonder if
you’ll bring me some refreshments and then we can have a nice
chat,” she told Frank as the other three men moved off.
When he had hurried away to bring her a
glass of wine and a paper thin slice of cake, Scarlett sat down in
the air cove at the end of the drawing room and carefully arranged
her skirts so that the worst spots would not show. The humiliating
events of the morning with Rhett were pushed from her mind by the
excitement of seeing so many people and hearing music again. Tomorrow
she would think of Rhett’s conduct and her shame and they would
make her writhe again. Tomorrow she would wonder if she had made any
impression on Frank’s hurt and bewildered heart. But not tonight.
Tonight she was alive to her finger tips, every sense alert with
hope, her eyes sparkling.
She looked from the alcove into the
huge drawing room and watched the dancers, remembering how beautiful
this room had been when first she came to Atlanta during the war.
Then the hardwood floors had shone like glass, and overhead the
chandelier with its hundreds of tiny prisms had caught and reflected
every ray of the dozens of candles it bore, flinging them, like
gleams from diamonds, flame and sapphire about the room. The old
portraits on the walls had been dignified and gracious and had looked
down upon guests with an air of mellowed hospitality. The rosewood
sofas had been soft and inviting and one of them, the largest, had
stood in the place of honor in this same alcove where she now sat. It
had been Scarlett’s favorite seat at parties. From this point
stretched the pleasant vista of drawing room and dining room beyond,
the oval mahogany table which seated twenty and the twenty
slim-legged chairs demurely against the walls, the massive sideboard
and buffet weighted with heavy silver, with seven-branched
candlesticks, goblets, cruets, decanters and shining little glasses.
Scarlett had sat on that sofa so often in the first years of the war,
always with some handsome officer beside her, and listened to violin
and bull fiddle, accordion and banjo, and heard the exciting swishing
noises which dancing feet made on the waxed and polished floor.
Now the chandelier hung dark. It was
twisted askew and most of the prisms were broken, as if the Yankee
occupants had made their beauty a target for their boots. Now an oil
lamp and a few candles lighted the room and the roaring fire in the
wide hearth gave most of the illumination. Its flickering light
showed how irreparably scarred and splintered the dull old floor was.
Squares on the faded paper on the wall gave evidence that once the
portraits had hung there, and wide cracks in the plaster recalled the
day during the siege when a shell had exploded on the house and torn
off parts of the roof and second floor. The heavy old mahogany table,
spread with cake and decanters, still presided in the empty-looking
dining room but it was scratched and the broken legs showed signs of
clumsy repair. The sideboard, the silver and the spindly chairs were
gone. The dull-gold damask draperies which had covered the arching
French windows at the back of the room were missing, and only the
remnants of the lace curtains remained, clean but obviously mended.
In place of the curved sofa she had
liked so much was a hard bench that was none too comfortable. She sat
upon it with as good grace as possible, wishing her skirts were in
such condition that she could dance. It would be so good to dance
again. But, of course, she could do more with Frank in this
sequestered alcove than in a breathless reel and she could listen
fascinated to his talk and encourage him to greater flights of
foolishness.
But the music certainly was inviting.
Her slipper patted longingly in time with old Levi’s large splayed
foot as he twanged a strident banjo and called the figures of the
reel. Feet swished and scraped and patted as the twin lines danced
toward each other, retreated, whirled and made arches of their arms.
“ ‘Ole Dan Tucker he got
drunk—’
(Swing yo’ padners!)
‘Fell in de fiah’ an’ he
kick up a chunk!’
(Skip tight, ladies!)”
After the dull and exhausting months at
Tara it was good to hear music again and the sound of dancing feet,
good to see familiar friendly faces laughing in the feeble light,
calling old jokes and catchwords, bantering, rallying, coquetting. It
was like coming to life again after being dead. It almost seemed that
the bright days of five years ago had come back again. If she could
close her eyes and not see the worn made-over dresses and the patched
boots and mended slippers, if her mind did not call up the faces of
boys missing from the reel, she might almost think that nothing had
changed. But as she looked, watching the old men grouped about the
decanter in the dining room, the matrons lining the walls, talking
behind fanless hands, and the swaying, skipping young dancers, it
came to her suddenly, coldly, frighteningly that it was all as
greatly changed as if these familiar figures were ghosts.
They looked the same but they were
different. What was it? Was it only that they were five years older?
No, it was something more than the passing of time. Something had
gone out of them, out of their world. Five years ago, a feeling of
security had wrapped them all around so gently they were not even
aware of it. In its shelter they had flowered. Now it was gone and
with it had gone the old thrill, the old sense of something
delightful and exciting just around the corner, the old glamour of
their way of living.
She knew she had changed too, but not
as they had changed, and it puzzled her. She sat and watched them and
she felt herself an alien among them, as alien and lonely as if she
had come from another world, speaking a language they did not
understand and she not understanding theirs. Then she knew that this
feeling was the same one she felt with Ashley. With him and with
people of his kind—and they made up most of her world—she felt
outside of something she could not understand.
Their faces were little changed and
their manners not at all but it seemed to her that these two things
were all that remained of her old friends. An ageless dignity, a
timeless gallantry still clung about them and would cling until they
died but they would carry undying bitterness to their graves, a
bitterness too deep for words. They were a soft-spoken, fierce, tired
people who were defeated and would not know defeat, broken yet
standing determinedly erect. They were crushed and helpless, citizens
of conquered provinces. They were looking on the state they loved,
seeing it trampled by the enemy, rascals making a mock of the law,
their former slaves a menace, their men disfranchised, their women
insulted. And they were remembering graves.
Everything in their old world had
changed but the old forms. The old usages went on, must go on, for
the forms were all that were left to them. They were holding tightly
to the things they knew best and loved best in the old days, the
leisured manners, the courtesy, the pleasant casualness in human
contacts and, most of all, the protecting attitude of the men toward
their women. True to the tradition in which they had been reared, the
men were courteous and tender and they almost succeeded in creating
an atmosphere of sheltering their women from all that was harsh and
unfit for feminine eyes. That, thought Scarlett, was the height of
absurdity, for there was little, now, which even the most cloistered
women had not seen and known in the last five years. They had nursed
the wounded, closed dying eyes, suffered war and fire and
devastation, known terror and flight and starvation.
But, no matter what sights they had
seen, what menial tasks they had done and would have to do, they
remained ladies and gentlemen, royalty in exile—bitter, aloof,
incurious, kind to one another, diamond hard, as bright and brittle
as the crystals of the broken chandelier over their heads. The old
days had gone but these people would go their ways as if the old days
still existed, charming, leisurely, determined not to rush and
scramble for pennies as the Yankees did, determined to part with none
of the old ways.
Scarlett knew that she, too, was
greatly changed. Otherwise she could not have done the things she had
done since she was last in Atlanta; otherwise she would not now be
contemplating doing what she desperately hoped to do. But there was a
difference in their hardness and hers and just what the difference
was, she could not, for the moment, tell. Perhaps it was that there
was nothing she would not do, and there were so many things these
people would rather die than do. Perhaps it was that they were
without hope but still smiling at life, bowing gracefully and passing
it by. And this Scarlett could not do.
She could not ignore life. She had to
live it and it was too brutal, too hostile, for her even to try to
gloss over its harshness with a smile. Of the sweetness and courage
and unyielding pride of her friends, Scarlett saw nothing. She saw
only a silly stiff-neckedness which observed facts but smiled and
refused to look them in the face.
As she stared at the dancers, flushed
from the reel, she wondered if things drove them as she was driven,
dead lovers, maimed husbands, children who were hungry, acres
slipping away, beloved roofs that sheltered strangers. But, of
course, they were driven! She knew their circumstances only a little
less thoroughly than she knew her own. Their losses had been her
losses, their privations her privations, their problems her same
problems. Yet they had reacted differently to them. The faces she was
seeing in the room were not faces; they were masks, excellent masks
which would never drop.
But if they were suffering as acutely
from brutal circumstances as she was—and they were—how could they
this air of gaiety and lightness of heart? Why, indeed, should they
even try to do it? They were beyond her comprehension and vaguely
irritating. She couldn’t be like them. She couldn’t survey the
wreck of the world with an air of casual unconcern. She was as hunted
as a fox, running with a bursting heart, trying to reach a burrow
before the hounds caught up.
Suddenly she hated them all because
they were different from her, because they carried their losses with
an air that she could never attain, would never wish to attain. She
hated them, these smiling, light-footed strangers, these proud fools
who took pride in something they had lost, seeming to be proud that
they had lost it. The women bore themselves like ladies and she knew
they were ladies, though menial tasks were their daily lot and they
didn’t know where their next dress was coming from. Ladies all! But
she could not feel herself a lady, for all her velvet dress and
scented hair, for all the pride of birth that stood behind her and
the pride of wealth that had once been hers. Harsh contact with the
red earth of Tara had stripped gentility from her and she knew she
would never feel like a lady again until her table was weighted with
silver and crystal and smoking with rich food, until her own horses
and carriages stood in her stables, until black hands and not white
took the cotton from Tara.
“Ah!” she thought angrily, sucking
in her breath. That’s the difference! Even though they’re poor,
they still feel like ladies and I don’t. The silly fools don’t
seem to realize that you can’t be a lady without money!”
Even in this flash of revelation, she
realized vaguely that, foolish though they seemed, theirs was the
right attitude. Ellen would have thought so. This disturbed her. She
knew she should feel as these people felt, but she could not. She
knew she should believe devoutly, as they did, that a born lady
remained a lady, even if reduced to poverty, but she could not make
herself believe it now.
All her life she had heard sneers
hurled at the Yankees because their pretensions to gentility were
based on wealth, not breeding. But at this moment, heresy though it
was, she could not help thinking the Yankees were right on this one
matter, even if wrong in all others. It took money to be a lady. She
knew Ellen would have fainted had she ever heard such words from her
daughter. No depth of poverty could ever have made Ellen feel
ashamed. Ashamed! Yet, that was how Scarlett felt. Ashamed that she
was poor and reduced to galling shifts and penury and work that
negroes should do.
She shrugged in irritation. Perhaps
these people were right and she was wrong but, just the same, these
proud fools weren’t looking forward as she was doing, straining
every nerve, risking even honor and good name to get back what they
had lost. It was beneath the dignity of any of them to indulge in a
scramble for money. The times were rude and hard. They called for
rude and hard struggle if one was to conquer them. Scarlett knew that
family tradition would forcibly restrain many of these people from
such a struggle—with the making of money admittedly its aim. They
all thought that obvious money-making and even talk of money were
vulgar in the extreme. Of course, there were exceptions. Mrs.
Merriwether and her baking and René driving the pie wagon. And Hugh
Elsing cutting and peddling firewood and Tommy contracting. And Frank
having the gumption to start a store. But what of the rank and file
of them? The planters would scratch a few acres and live in poverty.
The lawyers and doctors would go back to their professions and wait
for clients who might never come. And the rest, those who had lived
in leisure on their incomes? What would happen to them?
But she wasn’t going to be poor all
her life. She wasn’t going to sit down and patiently wait for a
miracle to help her. She was going to rush into life and wrest from
it what she could. Her father had started as a poor immigrant boy and
had won the broad acres of Tara. What he had done, his daughter could
do. She wasn’t like these people who had gambled everything on a
Cause that was gone and were content to be proud of having lost that
Cause, because it was worth any sacrifice. They drew their courage
from the past. She was drawing hers from the future. Frank Kennedy,
at present, was her future. At least, he had the store and he had
cash money. And if she could only marry him and get her hands on that
money, she could make ends meet at Tara for another year. And after
that—Frank must buy the sawmill. She could see for herself how
quickly the town was rebuilding and anyone who could establish a
lumber business now, when there was so little competition, would have
a gold mine.
There came to her, from the recesses of
her mind, words Rhett had spoken in the early years of the war about
the money he made in the blockade. She had not taken the trouble to
understand them then, but now they seemed perfectly clear and she
wondered if it had been only her youth or plain stupidity which had
kept her from appreciating them.
“There’s just as much money to be
made in the wreck of a civilization as in the upbuilding of one.”
“This is the wreck he foresaw,” she
thought, “and he was right. There’s still plenty of money to be
made by anyone who isn’t afraid to work—or to grab.”
She saw Frank coming across the floor
toward her with a glass of blackberry wine in his hand and a morsel
of cake on a saucer and she pulled her face into a smile. It did not
occur to her to question whether Tara was worth marrying Frank. She
knew it was worth it and she never gave the matter a second thought.
She smiled up at him as she sipped the
wine, knowing that her cheeks were more attractively pink than any of
the dancers’. She moved her skirts for him to sit by her and waved
her handkerchief idly so that the faint sweet smell of the cologne
could reach his nose. She was proud of the cologne, for no other
woman in the room was wearing any and Frank had noticed it. In a fit
of daring he had whispered to her that she was as pink and fragrant
as a rose.
If only he were not so shy! He reminded
her of a timid old brown field rabbit. If only he had the gallantry
and ardor of the Tarleton boys or even the coarse impudence of Rhett
Butler. But, if he possessed those qualities, he’d probably have
sense enough to feel the desperation that lurked just beneath her
demurely fluttering eyelids. As it was, he didn’t know enough about
women even to suspect what she was up to. That was her good fortune
but it did not increase her respect for him.
CHAPTER XXXVI
SHE MARRIED Frank Kennedy two weeks
later after a whirlwind courtship which she blushingly told him left
her too breathless to oppose his ardor any longer.
He did not know that during those two
weeks she had walked the floor at night, gritting her teeth at the
slowness with which he took hints and encouragements, praying that no
untimely letter from Suellen would reach him and ruin her plans. She
thanked God that her sister was the poorest of correspondents,
delighting to receive letters and disliking to write them. But there
was always a chance, always a chance, she thought in the long night
hours as she padded back and forth across the cold floor of her
bedroom, with Ellen’s faded shawl clutched about her nightdress.
Frank did not know she had received a laconic letter from Will,
relating that Jonas Wilkerson had paid another call at Tara and,
finding her gone to Atlanta, had stormed about until Will and Ashley
threw him bodily off the place. Will’s letter hammered into her
mind the fact she knew only too well—that time was getting shorter
and shorter before the extra taxes must be paid. A fierce desperation
drove her as she saw the days slipping by and she wished she might
grasp the hourglass in her hands and keep the sands from running.
But so well did she conceal her
feelings, so well did she enact her role, Frank suspected nothing,
saw no more than what lay on the surface—the pretty and helpless
young widow of Charles Hamilton who greeted him every night in Miss
Pittypat’s parlor and listened, breathless with admiration, as he
told of future plans for his store and how much money he expected to
make when he was able to buy the sawmill. Her sweet sympathy and her
bright-eyed interest in every word he uttered were balm upon the
wound left by Suellen’s supposed defection. His heart was sore and
bewildered at Suellen’s conduct and his vanity, the shy, touchy
vanity of a middle-aged bachelor who knows himself to be unattractive
to women, was deeply wounded. He could not write Suellen, upbraiding
her for her faithlessness; he shrank from the very idea. But he could
ease his heart by talking about her to Scarlett. Without saying a
disloyal word about Suellen, she could tell him she understood how
badly her sister had treated him and what good treatment he merited
from a woman who really appreciated him.
Little Mrs. Hamilton was such a pretty
pink-cheeked person, alternating between melancholy sighs when she
thought of her sad plight, and laughter as gay and sweet as the
tinkling of tiny silver bells when he made small jokes to cheer her.
Her green gown, now neatly cleaned by Mammy, showed off her slender
figure with its tiny waist to perfection, and how bewitching was the
faint fragrance which always clung about her handkerchief and her
hair! It was a shame that such a fine little woman should be alone
and helpless in a world so rough that she didn’t even understand
its harshness. No husband nor brother nor even a father now to
protect her. Frank thought the world too rude a place for a lone
woman and, in that idea, Scarlett silently and heartily concurred.
He came to call every night, for the
atmosphere of Pitty’s house was pleasant and soothing. Mammy’s
smile at the front door was the smile reserved for quality folks,
Pitty served him coffee laced with brandy and fluttered about him and
Scarlett hung on his every utterance. Sometimes in the afternoons he
took Scarlett riding with him in his buggy when he went out on
business. These rides were merry affairs because she asked so many
foolish questions—“just like a woman,” he told himself
approvingly. He couldn’t help laughing at her ignorance about
business matters and she laughed too, saying: “Well, of course, you
can’t expect a silly little woman like me to understand men’s
affairs.”
She made him feel, for the first time
in his old-maidish life, that he was a strong upstanding man
fashioned by God in a nobler mold than other men, fashioned to
protect silly helpless women.
When, at last, they stood together to
be married, her confiding little hand in his and her downcast lashes
throwing thick black crescents on her pink cheeks, he still did not
know how it all came about. He only knew he had done something
romantic and exciting for the first time in his life. He, Frank
Kennedy, had swept this lovely creature off her feet and into his
strong arms. That was a heady feeling.
No friend or relative stood up with
them at their marriage. The witnesses were strangers called in from
the street. Scarlett had insisted on that and he had given in, though
reluctantly, for he would have liked his sister and his
brother-in-law from Jonesboro to be with him. And a reception with
toasts drunk to the bride in Miss Pitty’s parlor amid happy friends
would have been a joy to him. But Scarlett would not hear of even
Miss Pitty being present.
“Just us two, Frank,” she begged,
squeezing his arm. “Like an elopement. I always did want to run
away and be married! Please, sweetheart, just for me!”
It was that endearing term, still so
new to his ears, and the bright teardrops which edged her pale green
eyes as she looked up pleadingly at him that won him over. After all,
a man had to make some concessions to his bride, especially about the
wedding, for women set such a store by sentimental things.
And before he knew it, he was married.
Frank gave her the three hundred
dollars, bewildered by her sweet urgency, reluctant at first, because
it meant the end of his hope of buying the sawmill immediately. But
he could not see her family evicted, and his disappointment soon
faded at the sight of her radiant happiness, disappeared entirely at
the loving way she “took on” over his generosity. Frank had never
before had a woman “take on” over him and he came to feel that
the money had been well spent, after all.
Scarlett dispatched Mammy to Tara
immediately for the triple purpose of giving Will the money,
announcing her marriage and bringing Wade to Atlanta. In two days she
had a brief note from Will which she carried about with her and read
and reread with mounting joy. Will wrote that the taxes had been paid
and Jonas Wilkerson “acted up pretty bad” at the news but had
made no other threats so far. Will closed by wishing her happiness, a
laconic formal statement which he qualified in no way. She knew Win
understood what she had done and why she had done it and neither
blamed nor praised. But what must Ashley think? she wondered
feverishly. What must he think of me now, after what I said to him so
short a while ago in the orchard at Tara?
She also had a letter from Suellen,
poorly spelled, violent, abusive, tear splotched, a letter so full of
venom and truthful observations upon her character that she was never
to forget it nor forgive the writer. But even Suellen’s words could
not dim her happiness that Tara was safe, at least from immediate
danger.
It was hard to realize that Atlanta and
not Tara was her permanent home now. In her desperation to obtain the
tax money, no thought save Tara and the fate which threatened it had
any place in her mind. Even at the moment of marriage, she had not
given a thought to the fact that the price she was paying for the
safety of home was permanent exile from it. Now that the deed was
done, she realized this with a wave of homesickness hard to dispel.
But there it was. She had made her bargain and she intended to stand
by it. And she was so grateful to Frank for saving Tara she felt a
warm affection for him and an equally warm determination that he
should never regret marrying her.
The ladies of Atlanta knew their
neighbors’ business only slightly less completely than they knew
their own and were far more interested in it. They all knew that for
years Frank Kennedy had had an “understanding” with Suellen
O’Hara. In fact, he had said, sheepishly, that he expected to get
married in the spring. So the tumult of gossip, surmise and deep
suspicion which followed the announcement of his quiet wedding to
Scarlett was not surprising. Mrs. Merriwether, who never let her
curiosity go long unsatisfied if she could help it, asked him
point-blank just what he meant by marrying one sister when he was
betrothed to the other. She reported to Mrs. Elsing that all the
answer she got for her pains was a silly look. Not even Mrs.
Merriwether, doughty soul that she was, dared to approach Scarlett on
the subject. Scarlett seemed demure and sweet enough these days, but
there was a pleased complacency in her eyes which annoyed people and
she carried a chip on her shoulder which no one cared to disturb.
She knew Atlanta was talking but she
did not care. After all, there wasn’t anything immoral in marrying
a man. Tare was safe. Let people talk. She had too many other matters
to occupy her mind. The most important was how to make Frank realize,
in a tactful manner, that his store should bring in more money. After
the fright Jonas Wilkerson had given her, she would never rest easy
until she and Frank had some money ahead. And even if no emergency
developed, Frank would need to make more money, if she was going to
save enough for next year’s taxes. Moreover, what Frank had said
about the sawmill stuck in her mind. Frank could make lots of money
out of a mill. Anybody could, with lumber selling at such outrageous
prices. She fretted silently because Frank’s money had not been
enough to pay the taxes on Tara and buy the mill as well. And she
made up her mind that he had to make more money on the store somehow,
and do it quickly, so he could buy that mill before some one else
snapped it up. She could see it was a bargain.
If she were a man she would have that
mill, if she had to mortgage the store to raise the money. But, when
she intimated this delicately to Frank, the day after they married,
he smiled and told her not to bother her sweet pretty little head
about business matters. It had come as a surprise to him that she
even knew what a mortgage was and, at first, he was amused. But this
amusement quickly passed and a sense of shock took its place in the
early days of their marriage. Once, incautiously, he had told her
that “people” (he was careful not to mention names) owed him
money but could not pay just now and he was, of course, unwilling to
press old friends and gentlefolk. Frank regretted ever mentioning it
for, thereafter, she had questioned him about it again and again. She
had the most charmingly childlike air but she was just curious, she
said, to know who owed him and how much they owed. Frank was very
evasive about the matter. He coughed nervously and waved his hands
and repeated his annoying remark about her sweet pretty little head.
It had begun to dawn on him that this
same sweet pretty little head was a “good head for figures.” In
fact, a much better one than his own and the knowledge was
disquieting. He was thunderstruck to discover that she could swiftly
add a long column of figures in her head when he needed a pencil and
paper for more than three figures. And fractions presented no
difficulties to her at all. He felt there was something unbecoming
about a woman understanding fractions and business matters and he
believed that, should a woman be so unfortunate as to have such
unladylike comprehension, she should pretend not to. Now he disliked
talking business with her as much as be had enjoyed it before they
were married. Then he had thought it all beyond her mental grasp and
it had been pleasant to explain things to her. Now he saw that she
understood entirely too well and he felt the usual masculine
indignation at the duplicity of women. Added to it was the usual
masculine disillusionment in discovering that a woman has a brain.
Just how early in his married life
Frank learned of the deception Scarlett had used in marrying him, no
one ever knew. Perhaps the truth dawned on him when Tony Fontaine,
obviously fancy free, came to Atlanta on business. Perhaps it was
told him more directly in letters from his sister in Jonesboro who
was astounded at his marriage. Certainly he never learned from
Suellen herself. She never wrote him and naturally he could not write
her and explain. What good would explanations do anyway, now that he
was married? He writhed inwardly at the thought that Suellen would
never know the truth and would always think he had senselessly jilted
her. Probably everyone else was thinking this too and criticizing
him. It certainly put him in an awkward position. And he had no way
of clearing himself, for a man couldn’t go about saying he had lost
his head about a woman—and a gentleman couldn’t advertise the
fact that his wife had entrapped him with a lie.
Scarlett was his wife and a wife was
entitled to the loyalty of her husband. Furthermore, he could not
bring himself to believe she had married him coldly and with no
affection for him at all. His masculine vanity would not permit such
a thought to stay long in his mind. It was more pleasant to think she
had fallen so suddenly in love with him she had been willing to lie
to get him. But it was all very puzzling. He knew he was no great
catch for a woman half his age and pretty and smart to boot, but
Frank was a gentleman and he kept his bewilderment to himself.
Scarlett was his wife and he could not insult her by asking awkward
questions which, after all, would not remedy matters.
Not that Frank especially wanted to
remedy matters, for it appeared that his marriage would be a happy
one. Scarlett was the most charming and exciting of women and he
thought her perfect in all things—except that she was so
headstrong. Frank learned early in his marriage that so long as she
had her own way, life could be very pleasant, but when she was
opposed— Given her own way, she was as gay as a child, laughed a
good deal, made foolish little jokes, sat on his knee and tweaked his
beard until he vowed he felt twenty years younger. She could be
unexpectedly sweet and thoughtful, having his slippers toasting at
the fire when he came home at night, fussing affectionately about his
wet feet and interminable head colds, remembering that he always
liked the gizzard of the chicken and three spoonfuls of sugar in his
coffee. Yes, life was very sweet and cozy with Scarlett—as long as
she had her own way.
When the marriage was two weeks old,
Frank contracted the grippe and Dr. Meade put him to bed. In the
first year of the war, Frank had spent two months in the hospital
with pneumonia and he had lived in dread of another attack since that
time, so he was only too glad to lie sweating under three blankets
and drink the hot concoctions Mammy and Aunt Pitty brought him every
hour.
The illness dragged on and Frank
worried more and more about the store as each day passed. The place
was in charge of the counter boy, who came to the house every night
to report on the day’s transactions, but Frank was not satisfied.
He fretted until Scarlett who had only been waiting for such an
opportunity laid a cool hand on his forehead and said: “Now,
sweetheart, I shall be vexed if you take on so. I’ll go to town and
see how things are.”
And she went, smiling as she smothered
his feeble protests. During the three weeks of her new marriage, she
had been in a fever to see his account books and find out just how
money matters stood. What luck that he was bedridden!
The store stood near Five Points, its
new roof glaring against the smoked bricks of the old walls. Wooden
awnings covered the sidewalk to the edge of the street, and at the
long iron bars connecting the uprights horses and mules were hitched,
their heads bowed against the cold misty rain, their backs covered
with torn blankets and quilts. The inside of the store was almost
like Bullard’s store in Jonesboro, except that there were no
loungers about the roaring red-hot stove, whittling and spitting
streams of tobacco juice at the sand boxes. It was bigger than
Bullard’s store and much darker. The wooden awnings cut off most of
the winter daylight and the interior was dim and dingy, only a
trickle of light coming in through the small fly-specked windows high
up on the side walls. The floor was covered with muddy sawdust and
everywhere was dust and dirt. There was a semblance of order in the
front of the store, where tall shelves rose into the gloom stacked
with bright bolts of cloth, china, cooking utensils and notions. But
in the back, behind the partition, chaos reigned.
Here there was no flooring and the
assorted jumble of stock was piled helter-skelter on the hard-packed
earth. In the semi-darkness she saw boxes and bales of goods, plows
and harness and saddles and cheap pine coffins. Secondhand furniture,
ranging from cheap gum to mahogany and rosewood, reared up in the
gloom, and the rich but worn brocade and horsehair upholstery gleamed
incongruously in the dingy surroundings. China chambers and bowl and
pitcher sets littered the floor and all around the four walls were
deep bins, so dark she had to hold the lamp directly over them to
discover they contained seeds, nails, bolts and carpenters’ tools.
“I’d think a man as fussy and old
maidish as Frank would keep things tidier,” she thought, scrubbing
her grimy hands with her handkerchief. “This place is a pig pen.
What a way to run a store! If he’d only dust up this stuff and put
it out in front where folks could see it, he could sell things much
quicker.”
And if his stock was in such condition,
what mustn’t his accounts be!
I’ll look at his account book now,
she thought and, picking up the lamp, she went into the front of the
store. Willie, the counter boy, was reluctant to give her the large
dirty-backed ledger. It was obvious that, young as he was, he shared
Frank’s opinion that women had no place in business. But Scarlett
silenced him with a sharp word and sent him out to get his dinner.
She felt better when he was gone, for his disapproval annoyed her,
and she settled herself in a split-bottomed chair by the roaring
stove, tucked one foot under her and spread the book across her lap.
It was dinner time and the streets were deserted. No customers called
and she had the store to herself.
She turned the pages slowly, narrowly
scanning the rows of names and figures written in Frank’s cramped
copperplate hand. It was just as she had expected, and she frowned as
she saw this newest evidence of Frank’s lack of business sense. At
least five hundred dollars in debts, some of them months old, were
set down against the names of people she knew well, the Merriwethers
and the Elsings among other familiar names. From Frank’s
deprecatory remarks about the money “people” owed him, she had
imagined the sums to be small. But this!
“If they can’t pay, why do they
keep on buying?” she thought irritably. “And if he knows they
can’t pay, why does he keep on selling them stuff? Lots of them
could pay if he’d just make them do it. The Elsings certainly could
if they could give Fanny a new satin dress and an expensive wedding.
Frank’s just too soft hearted, and people take advantage of him.
Why, if he’d collected half this money, he could have bought the
sawmill and easily spared me the tax money, too.”
Then she thought: “Just imagine Frank
trying to operate a sawmill! God’s nightgown! If he runs this store
like a charitable institution, how could he expect to make money on a
mill? The sheriff would have it in a month. Why, I could run this
store better than he does! And I could run a mill better than he
could, even if I don’t know anything about the lumber business!”
A startling thought this, that a woman
could handle business matters as well as or better than a man, a
revolutionary thought to Scarlett who had been reared in the
tradition that men were omniscient and women none too bright. Of
course, she had discovered that this was not altogether true but the
pleasant fiction still stuck in her mind. Never before had she put
this remarkable idea into words. She sat quite still, with the heavy
book across her lap, her mouth a little open with surprise, thinking
that during the lean months at Tara she had done a man’s work and
done it well. She had been brought up to believe that a woman alone
could accomplish nothing, yet she had managed the plantation without
men to help her until Will came. Why, why, her mind stuttered, I
believe women could manage everything in the world without men’s
help—except having babies, and God knows, no woman in her right
mind would have babies if she could help it.
With the idea that she was as capable
as a man came a sudden rush of pride and a violent longing to prove
it, to make money for herself as men made money. Money which would be
her own, which she would neither have to ask for nor account for to
any man.
“I wish I had money enough to buy
that mill myself,” she said aloud and sighed. “I’d sure make it
hum. And I wouldn’t let even one splinter go out on credit.”
She sighed again. There was nowhere she
could get any money, so the idea was out of the question. Frank would
simply have to collect this money owing him and buy the mill. It was
a sure way to make money, and when he got the mill, she would
certainly find some way to make him be more businesslike in its
operation than he had been with the store.
She pulled a back page out of the
ledger and began copying the list of debtors who had made no payments
in several months. She’d take the matter up with Frank just as soon
as she reached home. She’d make him realize that these people had
to pay their bills even if they were old friends, even if it did
embarrass him to press them for money. That would probably upset
Frank, for he was timid and fond of the approbation of his friends.
He was so thin skinned he’d rather lose the money than be
businesslike about collecting it.
And he’d probably tell her that no
one had any money with which to pay him. Well, perhaps that was true.
Poverty was certainly no news to her. But nearly everybody had saved
some silver or jewelry or was hanging on to a little real estate.
Frank could take them in lieu of cash.
She could imagine how Frank would moan
when she broached such an idea to him. Take the. jewelry and property
of his friends! Well, she shrugged, he can moan all he likes. I’m
going to tell him that he may be willing to stay poor for
friendship’s sake but I’m not. Frank will never get anywhere if
he doesn’t get up some gumption. And he’s got to get somewhere!
He’s got to make money, even if I’ve got to wear the pants in the
family to make him do it.
She was writing busily, her face
screwed up with the effort, her tongue clamped between her teeth,
when the front door opened and a great draft of cold wind swept the
store. A tall man came into the dingy room walking with a light
Indian-like tread, and looking up she saw Rhett Butler.
He was resplendent in new clothes and a
greatcoat with a dashing cape thrown back from his heavy shoulders.
His tall hat was off in a deep bow when her eyes met his and his hand
went to the bosom of a spotless pleated shirt. His white teeth
gleamed startlingly against his brown face and his bold eyes raked
her.
“My dear Mrs. Kennedy,” he said,
walking toward her. “My very dear Mrs. Kennedy!” and he broke
into a loud merry laugh.
At first she was as startled as if a
ghost had invaded the store and then, hastily removing her foot from
beneath her, she stiffened her spine and gave him a cold stare.
“What are you doing here?”
“I called on Miss Pittypat and
learned of your marriage and so I hastened here to congratulate you.”
The memory of her humiliation at his
hands made her go crimson with shame.
“I don’t see how you have the gall
to face me!” she cried.
“On the contrary! How have you the
gall to face me?”
“Oh, you are the most—”
“Shall we let the bugles sing truce?”
he smiled down at her, a wide flashing smile that had impudence in it
but no shame for his own actions or condemnation for hers. In spite
of herself, she had to smile too, but it was a wry, uncomfortable
smile.
“What a pity they didn’t hang you!”
“Others share your feeling, I fear.
Come, Scarlett, relax. You look like you’d swallowed a ramrod and
it isn’t becoming. Surely, you’ve had time to recover from
my—er—my little joke.”
“Joke? Ha! I’ll never get over it!”
“Oh, yes, you will. You are just
putting on this indignant front because you think it’s proper and
respectable. May I sit down?”
“No.”
He sank into a chair beside her and
grinned.
“I hear you couldn’t even wait two
weeks for me,” he said and gave a mock sigh. “How fickle is
woman!”
When she did not reply he continued.
“Tell me, Scarlett, just between
friends—between very old and very intimate friends—wouldn’t it
have been wiser to wait until I got out of jail? Or are the charms of
wedlock with old Frank Kennedy more alluring than illicit relations
with me?”
As always when his mockery aroused
wrath within her, wrath fought with laughter at his impudence.
“Don’t be absurd.”
“And would you mind satisfying my
curiosity on one point which has bothered me for some time? Did you
have no womanly repugnance, no delicate shrinking from marrying not
just one man but two for whom you had no love or even affection? Or
have I been misinformed about the delicacy of our Southern
womanhood?”
“Rhett!”
“I have my answer. I always felt that
women had a hardness and endurance unknown to men, despite the pretty
idea taught me in childhood that women are frail, tender, sensitive
creatures. But after all, according to the Continental code of
etiquette, it’s very bad form for husband and wife to love each
other. Very bad taste, indeed. I always felt that the Europeans had
the right idea in that matter. Marry for convenience and love for
pleasure. A sensible system, don’t you think? You are closer to the
old country than I thought.”
How pleasant it would be to shout at
him: “I did not marry for convenience!” But unfortunately, Rhett
had her there and any protest of injured innocence would only bring
more barbed remarks from him.
“How you do run on,” she said
coolly. Anxious to change the subject, she asked: “How did you ever
get out of jail?”
“Oh, that!” he answered, making an
airy gesture. “Not much trouble. They let me out this morning. I
employed a delicate system of blackmail on a friend in Washington who
is quite high in the councils of the Federal government. A splendid
fellow—one of the staunch Union patriots from whom I used to buy
muskets and hoop skirts for the Confederacy. When my distressing
predicament was brought to his attention in the right way, he
hastened to use his influence, and so I was released. Influence is
everything, and guilt or innocence merely an academic question.”
“I’ll take oath you weren’t
innocent.”
“No, now that I am free of the toils,
I’ll frankly admit that I’m as guilty as Cain. I did kill the
nigger. He was uppity to a lady, and what else could a Southern
gentleman do? And while I’m confessing, I must admit that I shot a
Yankee cavalryman after some words in a barroom. I was not charged
with that peccadillo, so perhaps some other poor devil has been
hanged for it, long since.”
He was so blithe about his murders her
blood chilled. Words of moral indignation rose to her lips but
suddenly she remembered the Yankee who lay under the tangle of
scuppernong vines at Tara. He had not been on her conscience any more
than a roach upon which she might have stepped. She could not sit in
judgment on Rhett when she was as guilty as he.
“And, as I seem to be making a clean
breast of it, I must tell you, in strictest confidence (that means,
don’t tell Miss Pittypat!) that I did have the money, safe in a
bank in Liverpool.”
“The money?”
“Yes, the money the Yankees were so
curious about. Scarlett, it wasn’t altogether meanness that kept me
from giving you the money you wanted. If I’d drawn a draft they
could have traced it somehow and I doubt if you’d have gotten a
cent. My only hope lay in doing nothing. I knew the money was pretty
safe, for if worst came to worst, if they had located it and tried to
take it away from me, I would have named every Yankee patriot who
sold me bullets and machinery during the war. Then there would have
been a stink, for some of them are high up in Washington now. In
fact, it was my threat to unbosom my conscience about them that got
me out of jail. I—”
“Do you mean you—you actually have
the Confederate gold?”
“Not all of it. Good Heavens, no!
There must be fifty or more ex-blockaders who have plenty salted away
in Nassau and England and Canada. We will be pretty unpopular with
the Confederates who weren’t as slick as we were. I have got close
to half a million. Just think, Scarlett, a half-million dollars, if
you’d only restrained your fiery nature and not rushed into wedlock
again!”
A half-million dollars. She felt a pang
of almost physical sickness at the thought of so much money. His
jeering words passed over her head and she did not even hear them. It
was hard to believe there was so much money in all this bitter and
poverty-stricken world. So much money, so very much money, and
someone else had it, someone who took it lightly and didn’t need
it. And she had only a sick elderly husband and this dirty, piddling,
little store between her and a hostile world. It wasn’t fair that a
reprobate like Rhett Butler should have so much and she, who carried
so heavy a load, should have so little. She hated him, sitting there
in his dandified attire, taunting her. Well, she wouldn’t swell his
conceit by complimenting him on his cleverness. She longed viciously
for sharp words with which to cut him.
“I suppose you think it’s honest to
keep the Confederate money. Well, it isn’t. It’s plain out and
out stealing and you know it. I wouldn’t have that on my
conscience.”
“My! How sour the grapes are today!”
he exclaimed, screwing up his face. “And just whom am I stealing
from?”
She was silent, trying to think just
whom indeed. After all, he had only done what Frank had done on a
small scale.
“Half the money is honestly mine,”
he continued, “honestly made with the aid of honest Union patriots
who were willing to sell out the Union behind its back—for
one-hundred-per-cent profit on their goods. Part I made out of my
little investment in cotton at the beginning of the war, the cotton I
bought cheap and sold for a dollar a pound when the British mills
were crying for it. Part I got from food speculation. Why should I
let the Yankees have the fruits of my labor? But the rest did belong
to the Confederacy. It came from Confederate cotton which I managed
to run through the blockade and sell in Liverpool at sky-high prices.
The cotton was given me in good faith to buy leather and rifles and
machinery with. And it was taken by me in good, faith to buy the
same. My orders were to leave the gold in English banks, under my own
name, in order that my credit would be good. You remember when the
blockade tightened, I couldn’t get a boat out of any Confederate
port or into one, so there the money stayed in England. What should I
have done? Drawn out all that gold from English banks, like a
simpleton, and tried to run it into Wilmington? And let the Yankees
capture it? Was it my fault that the blockade got too tight? Was it
my fault that our Cause failed? The money belonged to the
Confederacy. Well, there is no Confederacy now—though you’d never
know it, to hear some people talk. Whom shall I give the money to?
The Yankee government? I should so hate for people to think me a
thief.”
He removed a leather case from his
pocket, extracted a long cigar and smelled it approvingly, meanwhile
watching her with pseudo anxiety as if he hung on her words.
Plague take him, she thought, he’s
always one jump ahead of me. There is always something wrong with his
arguments but I never can put my finger on just what it is.
“You might,” she said with dignity,
“distribute it to those who are in need. The Confederacy is gone
but there are plenty of Confederates and their families who are
starving.”
He threw back his head and laughed
rudely.
“You are never so charming or so
absurd as when you are airing some hypocrisy like that,” he cried
in frank enjoyment. “Always tell the truth, Scarlett. You can’t
lie. The Irish are the poorest liars in the world. Come now, be
frank. You never gave a damn about the late lamented Confederacy and
you care less about the starving Confederates. You’d scream in
protest if I even suggested giving away all the money unless I
started off by giving you the lion’s share.”
“I don’t want your money,” she
began, trying to be coldly dignified.
“Oh, don’t you! Your palm is
itching to beat the band this minute. If I showed you a quarter,
you’d leap on it.”
If you have come here to insult me and
laugh at my poverty, I will wish you good day,” she retorted,
trying to rid her lap of the heavy ledger so she might rise and make
her words more impressive. Instantly, he was on his feet bending over
her, laughing as he pushed her back into her chair.
“When will you ever get over losing
your temper when you hear the truth? You never mind speaking the
truth about other people, so why should you mind hearing it about
yourself? I’m not insulting you. I think acquisitiveness is a very
fine quality.”
She was not sure what acquisitiveness
meant but as he praised it she felt slightly mollified.
“I didn’t come to gloat over your
poverty but to wish you long life and happiness in your marriage. By
the way, what did sister Sue think of your larceny?”
“My what?”
“Your stealing Frank from under her
nose.”
“I did not—”
“Well, we won’t quibble about the
word. What did she say?”
“She said nothing,” said Scarlett.
His eyes danced as they gave her the lie.
“How unselfish of her. Now, let’s
hear about your poverty. Surely I have the right to know, after your
little trip out to the jail not long ago. Hasn’t Frank as much
money as you hoped?”
There was no evading his impudence.
Either she would have to put up with it or ask him to leave. And now
she did not want him to leave. His words were barbed but they were
the barbs of truth. He knew what she had done and why she had done it
and he did not seem to think the less of her for it. And though his
questions were unpleasantly blunt, they seemed actuated by a friendly
interest. He was one person to whom she could tell the truth. That
would be, a relief, for it had been so long since she had told anyone
the truth about herself and her motives. Whenever she spoke her mind
everyone seemed to be shocked. Talking to Rhett was comparable only
to one thing, the feeling of ease and comfort afforded by a pair of
old slippers after dancing in a pair too tight.
“Didn’t you get the money for the
taxes? Don’t tell me the wolf is still at the door of Tara.”
There was a different tone in his voice.
She looked up to meet his dark eyes and
caught an expression which startled and puzzled her at first, and
then made her suddenly smile, a sweet and charming smile which was
seldom on her face these days. What a perverse wretch he was, but how
nice he could be at times! She knew now that the real reason for his
call was not to tease her but to make sure she had gotten the money
for which she had been so desperate. She knew now that he had hurried
to her as soon as he was released, without the slightest appearance
of hurry, to tend her the money if she still needed it. And yet he
would torment and insult her and deny that such was his intent,
should she accuse him. He was quite beyond all comprehension. Did he
really care about her, more than he was willing to admit? Or did he
have some other motive? Probably the latter, she thought. But who
could tell? He did such strange things sometimes.
“No,” she said, “the wolf isn’t
at the door any longer. I—I got the money.”
“But not without a struggle, I’ll
warrant. Did you manage to restrain yourself until you got the
wedding ring on your finger?”
She tried not to smile at his accurate
summing up of her conduct but she could not help dimpling. He seated
himself again, sprawling his long legs comfortably.
“Well, tell me about your poverty.
Did Frank, the brute, mislead you about his prospects? He should be
soundly thrashed for taking advantage of a helpless female. Come,
Scarlett. tell me everything. You should have no secrets from me.
Surely, I know the worst about you.”
“Oh, Rhett. you’re the worst—well,
I don’t know what! No, he didn’t exactly fool me but—”
Suddenly it became a pleasure to unburden herself. “Rhett, if Frank
would just collect the money people owe him, I wouldn’t be worried
about anything. But, Rhett, fifty people owe him and he won’t press
them. He’s so thin skinned. He says a gentleman can’t do that to
another gentleman. And it may be months and may be never before we
get the money.”
“Well, what of it? Haven’t you
enough to eat on until he does collect?”
“Yes, but—well, as a matter of
fact, I could use a little money right now.” Her eyes brightened as
she thought of the mill. Perhaps—
“What for? More taxes?”
“Is that any of your business?”
“Yes, because you are getting ready
to touch me for a loan. Oh, I know all the approaches. And I’ll
lend it to you—without, my dear Mrs. Kennedy, that charming
collateral you offered me a short while ago. Unless, of course, you
insist.”
“You are the coarsest—”
“Not at all. I merely wanted to set
your mind at ease. I knew you’d be worried about that point. Not
much worried but a little. And I’m willing to lend you the money.
But I do want to know how you are going to spend it. I have that
right, I believe. If it’s to buy you pretty frocks or a carriage,
take it with my blessing. But if it’s to buy a new pair of breeches
for Ashley Wilkes, I fear I must decline to lend it.”
She was hot with sudden rage and she
stuttered until words came.
“Ashley Wilkes has never taken a cent
from me! I couldn’t make him take a cent if he were starving! You
don’t understand him, how honorable, how proud he is! Of course,
you can’t understand him, being what you are—”
“Don’t let’s begin calling names.
I could call you a few that would match any you could think of for
me. You forget that I have been keeping up with you through Miss
Pittypat, and the dear soul tells all she knows to any sympathetic
listener. I know that Ashley has been at Tara ever since he came home
from Rock Island. I know that you have even put up with having his
wife around, which must have been a strain on you.”
“Ashley is—”
“Oh, yes,” he said, waving his hand
negligently. “Ashley is too sublime for my earthy comprehension.
But please don’t forget I was an interested witness to your tender
scene with him at Twelve Oaks and something tells me he hasn’t
changed since then. And neither have you. He didn’t cut so sublime
a figure that day, if I remember rightly. And I don’t think the
figure he cuts now is much better. Why doesn’t he take his family
and get out and find work? And stop living at Tara? Of course, it’s
just a whim of mine, but I don’t intend to tend you a cent for Tara
to help support him. Among men, there’s a very unpleasant name for
men who permit women to support them.”
“How dare you say such things? He’s
been working like a field hand!” For all her rage, her heart was
wrung by the memory of Ashley splitting fence rails.
“And worth his weight in gold, I dare
say. What a hand he must be with the manure and—”
“He’s—”
“Oh, yes, I know. Let’s grant that
he does the best he can but I don’t imagine he’s much help.
You’ll never make a farm hand out of a Wilkes—or anything else
that’s useful. The breed is purely ornamental. Now, quiet your
ruffled feathers and overlook my boorish remarks about the proud and
honorable Ashley. Strange how these illusions will persist even in
women as hard headed as you are. How much money do you want and what
do you want it for?”
When she did not answer he repeated:
“What do you want it for? And see if
you can manage to tell me the truth. It will do as well as a lie. In
fact, better, for if you lie to me, I’ll be sure to find it out,
and think how embarrassing that would be. Always remember this,
Scarlett, I can stand anything from you but a lie—your dislike for
me, your tempers, all your vixenish ways, but not a lie. Now what do
you want it for?”
Raging as she was at his attack on
Ashley, she would have given anything to spit on him and throw his
offer of money proudly into his mocking face. For a moment she almost
did, but the cold hand of common sense held her back. She swallowed
her anger with poor grace and tried to assume an expression of
pleasant dignity. He leaned back in his chair, stretching his legs
toward the stove.
“If there’s one thing in the world
that gives me more amusement than anything else,” he remarked,
“it’s the sight of your mental struggles when a matter of
principle is laid up against something practical like money. Of
course, I know the practical in you will always win, but I keep
hanging around to see if your better nature won’t triumph some day.
And when that day comes I shall pack my bag and leave Atlanta
forever. There are too many women whose better natures are always
triumphing. … Well, let’s get back to business. How much and what
for?”
“I don’t know quite how much I’ll
need,” she said sulkily. “But I want to buy a sawmill—and I
think I can get it cheap. And I’ll need two wagons and two mules. I
want good mules, too. And a horse and buggy for my own use.”
“A sawmill?”
“Yes, and if you’ll lend me the
money, I’ll give you a half-interest in it.”
“Whatever would I do with a sawmill?”
“Make money! We can make loads of
money. Or I’ll pay you interest on the loan—let’s see, what is
good interest?”
“Fifty per cent is considered very
fine.”
“Fifty—oh, but you are joking! Stop
laughing, you devil. I’m serious.”
“That’s why I’m laughing. I
wonder if anyone but me realizes what goes on in that head back of
your deceptively sweet face.”
“Well, who cares? Listen, Rhett, and
see if this doesn’t sound like good business to you. Frank told me
about this man who has a sawmill, a little one out Peachtree road,
and be wants to sell it. He’s got to have cash money pretty quick
and he’ll sell it cheap. There aren’t many sawmills around here
now, and the way people are rebuilding—why, we could sell lumber
sky high. The man will stay and run the mill for a wage. Frank told
me about it. Frank would buy the mill himself if he had the money. I
guess he was intending buying it with the money he gave me for the
taxes.”
“Poor Frank! What is he going to say
when you tell him you’ve bought it yourself right out from under
him? And how are you going to explain my lending you the money
without compromising your reputation?”
Scarlett had given no thought to this,
so intent was she upon the money the mill would bring in.
“Well, I just won’t tell him.”
“He’ll know you didn’t pick it
off a bush.”
“I’ll tell him—why, yes, I’ll
tell him I sold you my diamond earbobs. And I will give them to you,
too. That’ll be my collat—my whatchucallit.”
“I wouldn’t take your earbobs.”
“I don’t want them. I don’t like
them. They aren’t really mine, anyway.”
“Whose are they?”
Her mind went swiftly back to the still
hot noon with the country hush deep about Tara and the dead man in
blue sprawled in the hall.
“They were left with me—by someone
who’s dead. They’re mine all right. Take them. I don’t want
them. I’d rather have the money for them.”
“Good Lord!” he cried impatiently.
“Don’t you ever think of anything but money?”
“No,” she replied frankly, turning
hard green eyes upon him. “And if you’d been through what I have,
you wouldn’t either. I’ve found out that money is the most
important thing in the world and, as God is my witness, I don’t
ever intend to be without it again.”
She remembered the hot sun, the soft
red earth under her sick head, the niggery smell of the cabin behind
the ruins of Twelve Oaks, remembered the refrain her heart had
beaten: I’ll never be hungry again. I’ll never be hungry again,”
I’m going to have money some day,
lots of it, so I can have anything I want to eat. And then there’ll
never be any hominy or dried peas on my table. And I’m going to
have pretty clothes and all of them are going to be silk—”
“All?”
“All,” she said shortly, not even
troubling to blush at his implication. “I’m going to have money
enough so the Yankees can never take Tara away from me. And I’m
going to have a new roof for Tara and a new barn and fine mules for
plowing and more cotton than you ever saw. And Wade isn’t ever
going to know what it means to do without the things he needs. Never!
He’s going to have everything in the world. And all my family, they
aren’t ever going to be hungry again. I mean it. Every word. You
don’t understand, you’re such a selfish hound. You’ve never had
the Carpetbaggers trying to drive you out. You’ve never been cold
and ragged and had to break your back to keep from starving!”
He said quietly: “I was in the
Confederate Army for eight months. I don’t know any better place
for starving.”
“The army! Bah! You’ve never had to
pick cotton and weed corn. You’ve— Don’t you laugh at me!”
His hands were on hers again as her
voice rose harshly.
“I wasn’t laughing at you. I was
laughing at the difference in what you look and what you really are.
And I was remembering the first time I ever saw you, at the barbecue
at the Wilkes’. You had on a green dress and little green slippers,
and you were knee deep in men and quite full of yourself. I’ll
wager you didn’t know then how many pennies were in a dollar. There
was only one idea in your whole mind then and that was ensnaring
Ash—”
She jerked her hands away from him.
“Rhett, if we are to get on at all,
you’ll have to stop talking about Ashley Wilkes. We’ll always
fall out about him, because you can’t understand him.”
“I suppose you understand him like a
book,” said Rhett maliciously. “No, Scarlett, if I am to lend you
the money I reserve the right to discuss Ashley Wilkes in any terms I
care to. I waive the right to collect interest on my loan but not
that right. And there are a number of things about that young man I’d
like to know.”
“I do not have to discuss him with
you,” she answered shortly.
“Oh, but you do! I hold the purse
strings, you see. Some day when you are rich, you can have the power
to do the same to others. … It’s obvious that you still care
about him—”
“I do not.”
“Oh, it’s so obvious from the way
you rush to his defense. You—”
“I won’t stand having my friends
sneered at.”
“Well, we’ll let that pass for the
moment. Does he still care for you or did Rock Island make him
forget? Or perhaps he’s learned to appreciate what a jewel of a
wife he has?”
At the mention of Melanie, Scarlett
began to breathe hard and could scarcely restrain herself from crying
out the whole story, that only honor kept Ashley with Melanie. She
opened her mouth to speak and then closed it.
“Oh. So he still hasn’t enough
sense to appreciate Mrs. Wilkes? And the rigors of prison didn’t
dim his ardor for you?”
“I see no need to discuss the
subject.”
“I wish to discuss it,” said Rhett.
There was a low note in his voice which Scarlett did not understand
but did not like to hear. “And, by God, I will discuss it and I
expect you to answer me. So he’s still in love with you?”
“Well, what if he is?” cried
Scarlett, goaded. “I don’t care to discuss him with you because
you can’t understand him or his kind of love. The only kind of love
you know about is just—well, the kind you carry on with creatures
like that Watling woman.”
“Oh,” said Rhett softly. “So I am
only capable of carnal lusts?”
“Well, you know it’s true.”
“Now I appreciate your hesitance in
discussing the matter with me. My unclean hands and lips besmirch the
purity of his love.”
“Well, yes—something like that.”
“I’m interested in this pure love—”
“Don’t be so nasty, Rhett Butler.
If you are vile enough to think there’s ever been anything wrong
between us—”
“Oh, the thought never entered my
head, really. That’s why it all interests me. Just why hasn’t
there been anything wrong between you?”
“If you think that Ashley would—”
“Ah, so it’s Ashley, and not you,
who has fought the fight for purity. Really, Scarlett, you should not
give yourself away so easily.”
Scarlett looked into his smooth
unreadable face in confusion and indignation.
“We won’t go any further with this
and I don’t want your money. So, get out!”
“Oh, yes, you do want my money and,
as we’ve gone this far, why stop? Surely there can be no harm in
discussing so chaste an idyll—when there hasn’t been anything
wrong. So Ashley loves you for your mind, your soul, your nobility of
character?”
Scarlett writhed at his words. Of
course, Ashley loved her for just these things. It was this knowledge
that made life endurable, this knowledge that Ashley, bound by honor,
loved her from afar for beautiful things deep buried in her that he
alone could see. But they did not seem so beautiful when dragged to
the light by Rhett, especially in that deceptively smooth voice that
covered sarcasm.
“It gives me back my boyish ideals to
know that such a love can exist in this naughty world,” he
continued. “So there’s no touch of the flesh in his love for you?
It would be the same if you were ugly and didn’t have that white
skin? And if you didn’t have those green eyes which make a man
wonder just what you would do if he took you in his arms? And a way
of swaying your hips, that’s an allurement to any man under ninety?
And those lips which are—well, I mustn’t let my carnal lusts
obtrude. Ashley sees none of these things? Or if he sees them, they
move him not at all?”
Unbidden, Scarlett’s mind went back
to that day in the orchard when Ashley’s arms shook as he held her,
when his mouth was hot on hers as if he would never let her go. She
went crimson at the memory and her blush was not lost on Rhett.
“So,” he said and there was a
vibrant note almost like anger in his voice. “I see. He loves you
for your mind alone.”
How dare he pry with dirty fingers,
making the one beautiful sacred thing in her life seem vile? Coolly,
determinedly, he was breaking down the last of her reserves and the
information he wanted was forthcoming.
“Yes, he does!” she cried, pushing
back the memory of Ashley’s lips.
“My dear, he doesn’t even know
you’ve got a mind. If it was your mind that attracted him, he would
not need to struggle against you, as he must have done to keep this
love so—shall we say “holy”? He could rest easily for, after
all, a man can admire a woman’s mind and soul and still be an
honorable gentleman and true to his wife. But it must be difficult
for him to reconcile the honor of the Wilkeses with coveting your
body as he does.”
“You judge everybody’s mind by your
own vile one!”
“Oh, I’ve never denied coveting
you, if that’s what you mean. But, thank God, I’m not bothered
about matters of honor. What I want I take if I can get it, and so I
wrestle neither with angels nor devils. What a merry hell you must
have made for Ashley! Almost I can be sorry for him.”
“I—I make a hell for him?”
“Yes, you! There you are, a constant
temptation to him, but like most of his breed he prefers what passes
in these parts as honor to any amount of love. And it looks to me as
if the poor devil now had neither love nor honor to warm himself!”
“He has love! … I mean, he loves
me!”
“Does he? Then answer me this and we
are through for the day and you can take the money and throw it in
the gutter for all I care.”
Rhett rose to his feet and threw his
half-smoked cigar into the spittoon. There was about his movements
the same pagan freedom and leashed power Scarlett had noted that
night Atlanta fell, something sinister and a little frightening. “If
he loved you, then why in hell did he permit you to come to Atlanta
to get the tax money? Before I’d let a woman I loved do that, I’d—”
“He didn’t know! He had no idea
that I—”
“Doesn’t it occur to you that he
should have known?” There was barely suppressed savagery in his
voice. “Loving you as you say he does, he should have known just
what you would do when you were desperate. He should have killed you
rather than let you come up here—and to me, of all people! God in
Heaven!”
“But he didn’t know!”
“If he didn’t guess it without
being told, he’ll never know anything about you and your precious
mind.”
How unfair he was! As if Ashley was a
mind reader! As if Ashley could have stopped her, even had he known!
But, she knew suddenly, Ashley could have stopped her. The faintest
intimation from him, in the orchard, that some day things might be
different and she would never have thought of going to Rhett. A word
of tenderness, even a parting caress when she was getting on the
train, would have held her back. But he had only talked of honor.
Yet—was Rhett right? Should Ashley have known her mind? Swiftly she
put the disloyal thought from her. Of course, he didn’t suspect.
Ashley would never suspect that she would even think of doing
anything so immoral. Ashley was too fine to have such thoughts. Rhett
was just trying to spoil her love. He was trying to tear down what
was most precious to her. Some day, she thought viciously, when the
store was on its feet and the mill doing nicely and she had money,
she would make Rhett Butler pay for the misery and humiliation he was
causing her.
He was standing over her, looking down
at her, faintly amused. The emotion which had stirred him was gone.
“What does it all matter to you
anyway?” she asked. “It’s my business and Ashley’s and not
yours.”
He shrugged.
“Only this. I have a deep and
impersonal admiration for your endurance, Scarlett, and I do not like
to see your spirit crushed beneath too many millstones. There’s
Tara. That’s a man-sized job in itself. There’s your sick father
added on. He’ll never be any help to you. And the girls and the
darkies. And now you’ve taken on a husband and probably Miss
Pittypat, too. You’ve enough burdens without Ashley Wilkes and his
family on your hands.”
“He’s not on my hands. He helps—”
“Oh, for God’s sake,” he said
impatiently. “Don’t let’s have any more of that. He’s no
help. He’s on your hands and he’ll be on them, or on somebody’s,
till he dies. Personally, I’m sick of him as a topic of
conversation. … How much money do you want?”
Vituperative words rushed to her lips.
After all his insults, after dragging from her those things which
were most precious to her and trampling on them, he still thought she
would take his money!
But the words were checked unspoken.
How wonderful it would be to scorn his offer and order him out of the
store! But only the truly rich and the truly secure could afford this
luxury. So long as she was poor, just so long would she have to
endure such scenes as this. But when she was rich—oh, what a
beautiful warming thought that was!—when she was rich, she wouldn’t
stand anything she didn’t like, do without anything she desired or
even be polite to people unless they pleased her.
I shall tell them all to go to Halifax,
she thought, and Rhett Butler will be the first one!
The pleasure in the thought brought a
sparkle into her green eyes and a half-smile to her lips. Rhett
smiled too.
“You’re a pretty person, Scarlett,”
he said. “Especially when you are meditating devilment. And just
for the sight of that dimple I’ll buy you a baker’s dozen of
mules if you want them.”
The front door opened and the counter
boy entered, picking his teeth with a quill. Scarlett rose, pulled
her shawl about her and tied her bonnet strings firmly under her
chin. Her mind was made up.
“Are you busy this afternoon? Can you
come with me now?” she asked.
“Where?”
“I want you to drive to the mill with
me. I promised Frank I wouldn’t drive out of town by myself.”
“To the mill in this rain?”
“Yes, I want to buy that mill now,
before you change your mind.”
He laughed so loudly the boy behind the
counter started and looked at him curiously.
“Have you forgotten you are married?
Mrs. Kennedy can’t afford to be seen driving out into the country
with that Butler reprobate, who isn’t received in the best parlors.
Have you forgotten your reputation?”
“Reputation, fiddle-dee-dee! I want
that mill before you change your mind or Frank finds out that I’m
buying it. Don’t be a slow poke, Rhett. What’s a little rain?
Let’s hurry.”
That sawmill! Frank groaned every time
he thought of it, cursing himself for ever mentioning it to her. It
was bad enough for her to sell her earrings to Captain Butler (of all
people!) and buy the mill without even consulting her own husband
about it, but it was worse still that she did not turn it over to him
to operate. That looked bad. As if she did not trust him or his
judgment.
Frank, in common with all men he knew,
felt that a wife should be guided by her husband’s superior
knowledge, should accept his opinions in full and have none of her
own. He would have given most women their own way. Women were such
funny little creatures and it never hurt to humor their small whims.
Mild and gentle by nature, it was not in him to deny a wife much. He
would have enjoyed gratifying the foolish notions of some soft little
person and scolding her lovingly for her stupidity and extravagance.
But the things Scarlett set her mind on were unthinkable.
That sawmill, for example. It was the
shock of his life when she told him with a sweet smile, in answer to
his questions, that she intended to run it herself. “Go into the
lumber business myself,” was the way she put it. Frank would never
forget the horror of that moment. Go into business for herself! It
was unthinkable. There were no women in business in Atlanta. In fact,
Frank had never heard of a woman in business anywhere. If women were
so unfortunate as to be compelled to make a little money to assist
their families in these hard times, they made it in quiet womanly
ways—baking as Mrs. Merriwether was doing, or painting china and
sewing and keeping boarders, like Mrs. Elsing and Fanny, or teaching
school like Mrs. Meade or giving music lessons like Mrs. Bonnell.
These ladies made money but they kept themselves at home while they
did it, as a woman should. But for a woman to leave the protection of
her home and venture out into the rough world of men, competing with
them in business, rubbing shoulders with them, being exposed to
insult and gossip … Especially when she wasn’t forced to do it,
when she had a husband amply able to provide for her!
Frank had hoped she was only teasing or
playing a joke on him, a joke of questionable taste, but he soon
found she meant what she said. She did operate the sawmill. She rose
earlier than he did to drive out Peachtree road and frequently did
not come home until long after he had locked up the store and
returned to Aunt Pitty’s for supper. She drove the long miles to
the mill with only the disapproving Uncle Peter to protect her and
the woods were full of free niggers and Yankee riffraff. Frank
couldn’t go with her, the store took all of his time, but when he
protested, she said shortly: “If I don’t keep an eye on that
slick scamp, Johnson, he’ll steal my lumber and sell it and put the
money in his pocket. When I can get a good man to run the mill for
me, then I won’t have to go out there so often. Then I can spend my
time in town selling lumber.”
Selling lumber in town! That was worst
of all. She frequently did take a day off from the mill and peddle
lumber and, on those days, Frank wished he could hide in the dark
back room of his store and see no one. His wife selling lumber!
And people were talking terrible about
her. Probably about him too, for permitting her to behave in so
unwomanly a fashion. It embarrassed him to face his customers over
the counter and hear them say: “I saw Mrs. Kennedy a few minutes
ago over at …” Everyone took pains to tell him what she did.
Everyone was talking about what happened over where the new hotel was
being built. Scarlett had driven up just as Tommy Wellburn was buying
some lumber from another man and she climbed down out of the buggy
among the rough Irish masons who were laying the foundations, and
told Tommy briefly that he was being cheated. She said her lumber was
better and cheaper too, and to prove it she ran up a long column of
figures in her head and gave him an estimate then and there. It was
bad enough that she had intruded herself among strange rough workmen,
but it was still worse for a woman to show publicly that she could do
mathematics like that. When Tommy accepted her estimate and gave her
the order, Scarlett had not taken her departure speedily and meekly
but had idled about, talking to Johnnie Gallegher, the foreman of the
Irish workers, a hard-bitten little gnome of a man who had a very bad
reputation. The town talked about it for weeks.
On top of everything else, she was
actually making money out of the mill, and no man could feel right
about a wife who succeeded in so unwomanly an activity. Nor did she
turn over the money or any part of it to him to use in the store.
Most of it went to Tara and she wrote interminable letters to Will
Benteen telling him just how it should be spent. Furthermore, she
told Frank that if the repairs at Tara could ever be completed, she
intended to lend out her money on mortgages.
“My! My!” moaned Frank whenever he
thought of this. A woman had no business even knowing what a mortgage
was.
Scarlett was full of plans these days
and each one of them seemed worse to Frank than the previous one. She
even talked of building a saloon on the property where her warehouse
had been until Sherman burned it. Frank was no teetotaler but he
feverishly protested against the idea. Owning saloon property was a
bad business, an unlucky business, almost as bad as renting to a
house of prostitution. Just why it was bad, he could not explain to
her and to his lame arguments she said “Fiddle-dee-dee!”
“Saloons are always good tenants.
Uncle Henry said so,” she told him. “They always pay their rent
and, look here, Frank, I could put up a cheap saloon out of
poor-grade lumber I can’t sell and get good rent for it, and with
the rent money and the money from the mill and what I could get from
mortgages, I could buy some more sawmills.”
“Sugar, you don’t need any more
sawmills!” cried Frank, appalled. “What you ought to do is sell
the one you’ve got. It’s wearing you out and you know what
trouble you have keeping free darkies at work there—”
“Free darkies are certainly
worthless,” Scarlett agreed, completely ignoring his hint that she
should sell. “Mr. Johnson says he never knows when he comes to work
in the morning whether he’ll have a full crew or not. You just
can’t depend on the darkies any more. They work a day or two and
then lay off till they’ve spent their wages, and the whole crew is
like as not to quit overnight. The more I see of emancipation the
more criminal I think it is. It’s just ruined the darkies.
Thousands of them aren’t working at all and the ones we can get to
work at the mill are so lazy and shiftless they aren’t worth
having. And if you so much as swear at them, much less hit them a few
licks for the good of their souls, the Freedmen’s Bureau is down on
you like a duck on a June bug.”
“Sugar, you aren’t letting Mr.
Johnson beat those—”
“Of course not,” she returned
impatiently. “Didn’t I just say the Yankees would put me in jail
if I did?”
“I’ll bet your pa never hit a darky
a lick in his life,” said Frank.
“Well, only one. A stable boy who
didn’t rub down his horse after a day’s hunt. But, Frank, it was
different then. Free issue niggers are something else, and a good
whipping would do some of them a lot of good.”
Frank was not only amazed at his wife’s
views and her plans but at the change which had come over her in the
few months since their marriage. This wasn’t the soft, sweet
feminine person he had taken to wife. In the brief period of the
courtship, he thought he had never known a woman more attractively
feminine in her reactions to life, ignorant timid and helpless. Now
her reactions were all masculine. Despite her pink cheeks and dimples
and pretty smiles, she talked and acted like a man. Her voice was
brisk and decisive and she made up her mind instantly and with no
girlish shilly-shallying. She knew what she wanted and she went after
it by the shortest route, like a man, not by the hidden and
circuitous routes peculiar to women.
It was not that Frank had never seen
commanding women before this. Atlanta, like all Southern towns, had
its share of dowagers whom no one cared to cross. No one could be
more dominating than stout Mrs. Merriwether, more imperious than
frail Mrs. Elsing, more artful in securing her own ends than the
silver-haired sweet-voiced Mrs. Whiting. But no matter what devices
these ladies employed in order to get their own way, they were always
feminine devices. They made a point of being deferential to men’s
opinions, whether they were guided by them or not. They had the
politeness to appear to be guided by what men said, and that was what
mattered. But Scarlett was guided by no one but herself and was
conducting her affairs in a masculine way which had the whole town
talking about her.
“And,” thought Frank miserably,
“probably talking about me too, for letting her act so unwomanly.”
Then, there was that Butler man. His
frequent calls at Aunt Pitty’s house were the greatest humiliation
of all. Frank had always disliked him, even when he had done business
with him before the war. He often cursed the day he had brought Rhett
to Twelve Oaks and introduced him to his friends. He despised him for
the cold-blooded way he had acted in his speculations during the war
and for the fact that he had not been in the army. Rhett’s eight
months’ service with the Confederacy was known only to Scarlett for
Rhett had begged her, with mock fear, not to reveal his “shame”
to anyone. Most of all Frank had contempt for him for holding on to
the Confederate gold, when honest men like Admiral Bulloch and others
confronted with the same situation had turned back thousands to the
Federal treasury. But whether Frank liked it or not Rhett was a
frequent caller.
Ostensibly it was Miss Pitty he came to
see and she had no better sense than to believe it and give herself
airs over his visits. But Frank had an uncomfortable feeling that
Miss Pitty was not the attraction which brought him. Little Wade was
very fond of him, though the boy was shy of most people, and even
called him “Uncle Rhett,” which annoyed Frank. And Frank could
not help remembering that Rhett had squired Scarlett about during the
war days and there had been talk about them then. He imagined there
might be even worse talk about them now. None of his friends had the
courage to mention anything of this sort to Frank, for all their
outspoken words on Scarlett’s conduct in the matter of the mill.
But he could not help noticing that he and Scarlett were less
frequently invited to meals and parties and fewer and fewer people
came to call on them. Scarlett disliked most of her neighbors and was
too busy with her mill to care about seeing the ones she did like, so
the lack of calls did not disturb her. But Frank felt it keenly.
All of his life, Frank had been under
the domination of the phrase “What will the neighbors say?” and
he was defenseless against the shocks of his wife’s repeated
disregard of the proprieties. He felt that everyone disapproved of
Scarlett and was contemptuous of him for permitting her to “unsex
herself.” She did so many things a husband should not permit,
according to his views, but if he ordered her to stop them, argued or
even criticized, a storm broke on his head.
“My! My!” he thought helplessly.
“She can get mad quicker and stay mad longer than any woman I ever
saw!”
Even at the times when things were most
pleasant, it was amazing how completely and how quickly the teasing,
affectionate wife who hummed to herself as she went about the house
could be transformed into an entirely different person. He had only
to say: “Sugar, if I were you, I wouldn’t—” and the tempest
would break.
Her black brows rushed together to meet
in a sharp angle over her nose and Frank cowered, almost visibly. She
had the temper of a Tartar and the rages of a wild cat and, at such
times, she did not seem to care what she said or how much it hurt
Clouds of gloom hung over the house on such occasions. Frank went
early to the store and stayed late. Pitty scrambled into her bedroom
like a rabbit panting for its burrow. Wade and Uncle Peter retired to
the carriage house and Cookie kept to her kitchen and forbore to
raise her voice to praise the Lord in song. Only Mammy endured
Scarlett’s temper with equanimity and Mammy had had many years of
training with Gerald O’Hara and his explosions.
Scarlett did not mean to be short
tempered and she really wanted to make Frank a good wife, for she was
fond of him and grateful for his help in saving Tara. But he did try
her patience to the breaking point so often and in so many different
ways.
She could never respect a man who let
her run over him and the timid, hesitant attitude he displayed in any
unpleasant situation, with her or with others, irritated her
unbearably. But she could have overlooked these things and even been
happy, now that some of her money problems were being solved, except
for her constantly renewed exasperation growing out of the many
incidents which showed that Frank was neither a good business man nor
did he want her to be a good business man.
As she expected, he had refused to
collect the unpaid bills until she prodded him into it, and then he
had done it apologetically and half heartedly. That experience was
the final evidence she needed to show her that the Kennedy family
would never have more than a bare living, unless she personally made
the money she was determined to have. She knew now that Frank would
be contented to dawdle along with his dirty little store for the rest
of his life. He didn’t seem to realize what a slender fingerhold
they had on security and how important it was to make more money in
these troublous times when money was the only protection against
fresh calamities.
Frank might have been a successful
business man in the easy days before the war but he was so annoyingly
old-fashioned, she thought, and so stubborn about wanting to do
things in the old ways, when the old ways and the old days were gone.
He was utterly lacking in the aggressiveness needed in these new
bitter times. Well, she had the aggressiveness and she intended to
use it, whether Frank liked it or not. They needed money and she was
making money and it was hard work. The very least Frank could do, in
her opinion, was not to interfere with her plans which were getting
results.
With her inexperience, operating the
new mill was no easy job and competition was keener now than it had
been at first, so she was usually tired and worried and cross when
she came home at nights. And when Frank would cough apologetically
and say: “Sugar, I wouldn’t do this,” or “I wouldn’t do
that, Sugar, if I were you,” it was all she could do to restrain
herself from flying into a rage, and frequently she did not restrain
herself. If he didn’t have the gumption to get out and make some
money, why was he always finding fault with her? And the things he
nagged her about were so silly! What difference did it make in times
like these if she was being unwomanly? Especially when her unwomanly
sawmill was bringing in money they needed so badly, she and the
family and Tara, and Frank too.
Frank wanted rest and quiet. The war in
which he had served so conscientiously had wrecked his health, cost
him his fortune and made him an old man. He regretted none of these
things and after four years of war, all he asked of life was peace
and kindliness, loving faces about him and the approval of friends.
He soon found that domestic peace had its price, and that price was
letting Scarlett have her own way, no matter what she might wish to
do. So, because he was tired, he bought peace at her own terms.
Sometimes, he thought it was worth it to have her smiling when she
opened the front door in the cold twilights, kissing him on the ear
or the nose or some other inappropriate place, to feel her head
snuggling drowsily on his shoulder at night under warm quilts. Home
life could be so pleasant when Scarlett was having her own way. But
the peace he gained was hollow, only an outward semblance, for he had
purchased it at the cost of everything he held to be right in married
life.
“A woman ought to pay more attention
to her home and her family and not be gadding about like a man,” he
thought. “Now, if she just had a baby—”
He smiled when he thought of a baby and
he thought of a baby very often. Scarlett had been most outspoken
about not wanting a child, but then babies seldom waited to be
invited. Frank knew that many women said they didn’t want babies
but that was all foolishness and fear. If Scarlett had a baby, she
would love it and be content to stay home and tend it like other
women. Then she would be forced to sell the mill and his problems
would be ended. All women needed babies to make them completely happy
and Frank knew that Scarlett was not happy. Ignorant as he was of
women, he was not so blind that he could not see she was unhappy at
times.
Sometimes he awoke at night and heard
the soft sound of tears muffled in the pillow. The first time he had
waked to feel the bed shaking with her sobbing, he had questioned, in
alarm: “Sugar, what is it?” and had been rebuked by a passionate
cry: “Oh, let me alone!”
Yes, a baby would make her happy and
would take her mind off things she had no business fooling with.
Sometimes Frank sighed, thinking he had caught a tropic bird, all
flame and jewel color, when a wren would have served him just as
well. In fact, much better.
CHAPTER XXXVII
IT WAS on a wild wet night in April
that Tony Fontaine rode in from Jonesboro on a lathered horse that
was half dead from exhaustion and came knocking at their door,
rousing her and Frank from sleep with their hearts in their throats.
Then for the second time in four months, Scarlett was made to feel
acutely what Reconstruction in an its implications meant, made to
understand more completely what was in Will’s mind when he said
“Our troubles have just begun,” to know that the bleak words of
Ashley, spoken in the wind-swept orchard of Tara, were true: “This
that’s facing all of us is worse than war—worse than prison—worse
than death.”
The first time she had come face to
face with Reconstruction was when she teamed that Jonas Wilkerson
with the aid of the Yankees could evict her from Tara. But Tony’s
advent brought it all home to her in a far more terrifying manner.
Tony came in the dark and the lashing rain and in a few minutes he
was gone back into the night forever, but in the brief interval
between he raised the curtain on a scene of new horror, a curtain
that she felt hopelessly would never be lowered again.
That stormy night when the knocker
hammered on the door with such hurried urgency, she stood on the
landing, clutching her wrapper to her and, looking down into the hall
below, had one glimpse of Tony’s swarthy saturnine face before he
leaned forward and blew out the candle in Frank’s hand. She hurried
down in the darkness to grasp his cold wet hand and hear him whisper:
“They’re after me—going to Texas—my horse is about dead—and
I’m about starved. Ashley said you’d— Don’t light the candle!
Don’t wake the darkies. … I don’t want to get you folks in
trouble if I can help it.”
With the kitchen blinds drawn and all
the shades pulled down to the sills, he permitted a light and he
talked to Frank in swift jerky sentences as Scarlett hurried about,
trying to scrape together a meal for him.
He was without a greatcoat and soaked
to the skin. He was hatless and his black hair was plastered to his
little skin. But the merriment of the Fontaine boys, a chilling
merriment that night, was in his little dancing eyes as he gulped
down the whisky she brought him. Scarlett thanked God that Aunt
Pittypat was snoring undisturbed upstairs. She would certainly swoon
if she saw this apparition.
“One damned bast—Scalawag less,”
said Tony, holding out his glass for another drink. “I’ve ridden
hard and it’ll cost me my skin if I don’t get out of here quick,
but it was worth it By God, yes! I’m going to try to get to Texas
and lay low there. Ashley was with me in Jonesboro and he told me to
come to you all. Got to have another horse, Frank, and some money. My
horse is nearly dead—all the way up here at a dead run—and like a
fool I went out of the house today like a bat out of hell without a
coat or hat or a cent of money. Not that there’s much money in our
house.”
He laughed and applied himself hungrily
to the cold corn pone and cold turnip greens on which congealed
grease was thick in white flakes.
“You can have my horse,” said Frank
calmly. “I’ve only ten dollars with me but if you can wait till
morning—”
“Hell’s afire, I can’t wait!”
said Tony, emphatically but jovially. “They’re probably right
behind me. I didn’t get much of a start. If it hadn’t been for
Ashley dragging me out of there and making me get on my horse, I’d
have stayed there like a fool and probably had my neck stretched by
now. Good fellow, Ashley.”
So Ashley was mixed up in this
frightening puzzle. Scarlett went cold, her hand at her throat. Did
the Yankees have Ashley now? Why, why didn’t Frank ask what it was
all about? Why did he take it all so coolly, so much as a matter of
course? She struggled to get the question to her lips.
“What—” she began. “Who—”
“Your father’s old overseer—that
damned—Jonas Wilkerson.”
“Did you—is he dead?”
“My God, Scarlett O’Hara!” said
Tony peevishly. “When I start out to cut somebody up, you don’t
think I’d be satisfied with scratching him with the blunt side of
my knife, do you? No, by God, I cut him to ribbons.”
“Good,” said Frank casually. “I
never liked the fellow.”
Scarlett looked at him. This was not
the meek Frank she knew, the nervous beard clawer who she had learned
could be bullied with such ease. There was an air about him that was
crisp and cool and he was meeting the emergency with no unnecessary
words. He was a man and Tony was a man and this situation of violence
was men’s business in which a woman had no part.
“But Ashley— Did he—”
“No. He wanted to kill him but I told
him it was my right, because Sally is my sister-in-law, and he saw
reason finally. He went into Jonesboro with me, in case Wilkerson got
me first. But I don’t think old Ash will get in any trouble about
it. I hope not. Got any jam for this corn pone? And can you wrap me
up something to take with me?”
“I shall scream if you don’t tell
me everything.”
“Wait till I’ve gone and then
scream if you’ve got to. I’ll tell you about it while Frank
saddles the horse. That damned—Wilkerson has caused enough trouble
already, know how he did you about your taxes. That’s just one of
his meannesses. But the worst thing was the way he kept the darkies
stirred up. If anybody had told me I’d ever live to see the day
when I’d hate darkies! Damn their black souls, they believe
anything those scoundrels tell them and forget every living thing
we’ve done for them. Now the Yankees are talking about letting the
darkies vote. And they won’t let us vote. Why, there’s hardly a
handful of Democrats in the whole County who aren’t barred from
voting, now that they’ve ruled out every man who fought in the
Confederate Army. And if they give the negroes the vote, it’s the
end of us. Damn it, it’s our state! It doesn’t belong to the
Yankees! By God, Scarlett, it isn’t to be borne! And it won’t be
borne! We’ll do something about it if it means another war. Soon
we’ll be having nigger judges, nigger legislators—black apes out
of the jungle—”
“Please—hurry, tell me! What did
you do?”
“Give me another mite of that pone
before you wrap it up. Well, the word got around that Wilkerson had
gone a bit too far with his nigger-equality business. Oh, yes, he
talks it to those black fools by the hour. He had the gall—the—”
Tony spluttered helplessly, “to say niggers had a right to—to—white
women.”
“Oh, Tony, no!”
“By God, yes! I don’t wonder you
look sick. But hell’s afire, Scarlett, it can’t be news to you.
They’ve been telling it to them here in Atlanta.”
“I—I didn’t know.”
“Well, Frank would have kept it from
you. Anyway, after that, we all sort of thought we’d call on Mr.
Wilkerson privately by night and tend to him, but before we could—
You remember that black buck, Eustis, who used to be our foreman?”
“Yes.”
“Came to the kitchen door today while
Sally was fixing dinner and—I don’t know what he said to her. I
guess I’ll never know now. But he said something and I heard her
scream and I ran into the kitchen and there he was, drunk as a
fiddler’s bitch—I beg your pardon, Scarlett, it just slipped
out.”
“Go on.”
“I shot him and when Mother ran in to
take care of Sally, I got my horse and started to Jonesboro for
Wilkerson. He was the one to blame. The damned black fool would never
have thought of it but for him. And on the way past Tara, I met
Ashley and, of course, he went with me. He said to let him do it
because of the way Wilkerson acted about Tara and I said No, it was
my place because Sally was my own dead brother’s wife, and he went
with me arguing the whole way. And when we got to town, by God,
Scarlett, do you know I hadn’t even brought my pistol, I’d left
it in the stable. So mad I forgot—”
He paused and gnawed the tough pone and
Scarlett shivered. The murderous rages of the Fontaines had made
County history long before this chapter had opened.
“So I had to take my knife to him. I
found him in the barroom. I got him in a corner with Ashley holding
back the others and I told him why before I lit into him. Why, it was
over before I knew it,” said Tony reflecting. “First thing I
knew, Ashley had me on my horse and told me to come to you folks.
Ashley’s a good man in a pinch. He keeps his head.”
Frank came in, his greatcoat over his
arm, and handed it to Tony. It was his only heavy coat but Scarlett
made no protest. She seemed so much on the outside of this affair,
this purely masculine affair.
“But Tony—they need you at home.
Surely, if you went back and explained—”
“Frank, you’ve married a fool,”
said Tony with a grin, struggling into the coat. “She thinks the
Yankees will reward a man for keeping niggers off his women folks. So
they will, with a drumhead court and a rope. Give me a kiss,
Scarlett. Frank won’t mind and I may never see you again. Texas is
a long way off. I won’t dare write, so let the home folks know I
got this far in safety.”
She let him kiss her and the two men
went out into the driving rain and stood for a moment, talking on the
back porch. Then she heard a sudden splashing of hooves and Tony was
gone. She opened the door a crack and saw Frank leading a heaving,
stumbling horse into the carriage house. She shut the door again and
sat down, her knees trembling.
Now she knew what Reconstruction meant,
knew as well as if the house were ringed about by naked savages,
squatting in breech clouts. Now there came rushing to her mind many
things to which she had given little thought recently, conversations
she had heard but to which she had not listened, masculine talk which
had been checked half finished when she came into rooms, small
incidents in which she had seen no significance at the time, Frank’s
futile warnings to her against driving out to the mill with only the
feeble Uncle Peter to protect her. Now they fitted themselves
together into one horrifying picture.
The negroes were on top and behind them
were the Yankee bayonets. She could be killed, she could be raped
and, very probably, nothing would ever be done about it. And anyone
who avenged her would be hanged by the Yankees, hanged without
benefit of trial by judge and jury. Yankee officers who knew nothing
of law and cared less for the circumstances of the crime could go
through the motions of holding a trial and put a rope around a
Southerner’s neck.
“What can we do?” she thought,
wringing her hands in an agony of helpless fear. “What can we do
with devils who’d hang a nice boy like Tony just for killing a
drunken buck and a scoundrelly Scalawag to protect his women folks?”
“It isn’t to be borne!” Tony had
cried and he was right. It couldn’t be borne. But what could they
do except bear it, helpless as they were? She fell to trembling and,
for the first time in her life, she saw people and events as
something apart from herself, saw clearly that Scarlett O’Hara,
frightened and helpless, was not all that mattered. There were
thousands of women like her, all over the South, who were frightened
and helpless. And thousands of men, who had laid down their arms at
Appomattox, had taken them up again and stood ready to risk their
necks on a minute’s notice to protect those women.
There had been something in Tony’s
face which had been mirrored in Frank’s, an expression she had seen
recently on the faces of other men in Atlanta, a look she had noticed
but had not troubled to analyze. It was an expression vastly
different from the tired helplessness she had seen in the faces of
men coming home from the war after the surrender. Those men had not
cared about anything except getting home. Now they were caring about
something again, numbed nerves were coming back to life and the old
spirit was beginning to burn. They were caring again with a cold
ruthless bitterness. And, like Tony, they were thinking: “It isn’t
to be borne!”
She had seen Southern men, soft voiced
and dangerous in the days before the war, reckless and hard in the
last despairing days of the fighting. But in the faces of the two men
who stared at each other across the candle flame so short a while ago
there had been something that was different, something that heartened
her but frightened her—fury which could find no words,
determination which would stop at nothing.
For the first time, she felt a kinship
with the people about her, felt one with them in their fears, their
bitterness, their determination. No, it wasn’t to be borne! The
South was too beautiful a place to be let go without a struggle, too
loved to be trampled by Yankees who hated Southerners enough to enjoy
grinding them into the dirt, too dear a homeland to be turned over to
ignorant negroes drunk with whisky and freedom.
As she thought of Tony’s sudden
entrance and swift exit, she felt herself akin to him, for she
remembered the old story how her father had left Ireland, left
hastily and by night, after a murder which was no murder to him or to
his family. Gerald’s blood was in her, violent blood. She
remembered her hot joy in shooting the marauding Yankee. Violent
blood was in them all, perilously close to the surface, lurking just
beneath the kindly courteous exteriors. All of them, all the men she
knew, even the drowsy-eyed Ashley and fidgety old Frank, were like
that underneath—murderous, violent if the need arose. Even Rhett,
conscienceless scamp that he was, had killed a negro for being
“uppity to a lady.”
“Oh, Frank, how long will it be like
this?” she leaped to her feet.
“As long as the Yankees hate us so,
Sugar.”
“Is there nothing anybody can do?”
Frank passed a tired hand over his wet
beard. “We are doing things.”
“What?”
“Why talk of them till we have
accomplished something? It may take years. Perhaps—perhaps the
South will always be like this.”
“Oh, no!”
“Sugar, come to bed. You must be
chilled. You are shaking.”
“When will it all end?”
“When we can all vote again, Sugar.
When every man who fought for the South can put a ballot in the box
for a Southerner and a Democrat.”
“A ballot?” she cried despairingly.
“What good’s a ballot when the darkies have lost their minds—when
the Yankees have poisoned them against us?”
Frank went on to explain in his patient
manner, but the idea that ballots could cure the trouble was too
complicated for her to follow. She was thinking gratefully that Jonas
Wilkerson would never again be a menace of Tara and she was thinking
about Tony.
“Oh, the poor Fontaines!” she
exclaimed. “Only Alex left and so much to do at Mimosa. Why didn’t
Tony have sense enough to—to do it at night when no one would know
who it was? A sight more good he’d do helping with the spring
plowing than in Texas.”
Frank put an arm about her. Usually he
was gingerly when he did this, as if he anticipated being impatiently
shaken off, but tonight there was a far-off look in his eyes and his
arm was firm about her waist.
“There are things more important now
than plowing, Sugar. And scaring the darkies and teaching the
Scalawags a lesson is one of them. As long as there are fine boys
like Tony left, I guess we won’t need to worry about the South too
much. Come to bed.”
“But, Frank—”
“If we just stand together and don’t
give an inch to the Yankees, we’ll win, some day. Don’t you
bother your pretty head about it, Sugar. You let your men folks worry
about it Maybe it won’t come in our time, but surely it will come
some day. The Yankees will get tired of pestering us when they see
they can’t even dent us, and then we’ll have a decent world to
live in and raise our children in.”
She thought of Wade and the secret she
had carried silently for some days. No, she didn’t want her
children raised in this welter of hate and uncertainty, of bitterness
and violence lurking just below the surface, of poverty and grinding
hardships and insecurity. She never wanted children of hers to know
what all this was like. She wanted a secure and well-ordered world in
which she could look forward and know there was a safe future ahead
for them, a world where her children would know only softness and
warmth and good clothes and fine food.
Frank thought this could be
accomplished by voting. Voting? What did votes matter? Nice people in
the South would never have the vote again. There was only one thing
in the world that was a certain bulwark against any calamity which
fate could bring, and that was money. She thought feverishly that
they must have money, lots of it to keep them safe against disaster.
Abruptly, she told him she was going to
have a baby.
For weeks after Tony’s escape, Aunt
Pitty’s house was subjected to repeated searches by parties of
Yankee soldiers. They invaded the house at all hours and without
warning. They swarmed through the rooms, asking questions, opening
closets, prodding clothes hampers, peering under beds. The military
authorities had heard that Tony had been advised to go to Miss
Pitty’s house, and they were certain he was still hiding there or
somewhere in the neighborhood.
As a result, Aunt Pitty was chronically
in what Uncle Peter called a “state,” never knowing when her
bedroom would be entered by an officer and a squad of men. Neither
Frank nor Scarlett had mentioned Tony’s brief visit, so the old
lady could have revealed nothing, even had she been so inclined. She
was entirely honest in her fluttery protestations that she had seen
Tony Fontaine only once in her life and that was at Christmas time in
1862.
“And,” she would add breathlessly
to the Yankee soldiers, in an effort to be helpful, “he was quite
intoxicated at the time.”
Scarlett, sick and miserable in the
early stage of pregnancy, alternated between a passionate hatred of
the bluecoats who invaded her privacy, frequently carrying away any
little knick-knack that appealed to them, and an equally passionate
fear that Tony might prove the undoing of them all. The prisons were
full of people who had been arrested for much less reason. She knew
that if one iota of the truth were proved against them, not only she
and Frank but the innocent Pitty as well would go to jail.
For some time there had been an
agitation in Washington to confiscate all “Rebel property” to pay
the United States’ war debt and this agitation had kept Scarlett in
a state of anguished apprehension. Now, in addition to this, Atlanta
was full of wild rumors about the confiscation of property of
offenders against military law, and Scarlett quaked lest she and
Frank lose not only their freedom but the house, the store and the
mill. And even if their property were not appropriated by the
military, it would be as good as lost if she and Frank went to jail,
for who would look after their business in their absence?
She hated Tony for bringing such
trouble upon them. How could he have done such a thing to friends?
And how could Ashley have sent Tony to them? Never again would she
give aid to anyone if it meant having the Yankees come down on her
like a swarm of hornets. No, she would bar the door against anyone
needing help. Except, of course, Ashley. For weeks after Tony’s
brief visit she woke from uneasy dreams at any sound in the road
outside, fearing it might be Ashley trying to make his escape,
fleeing to Texas because of the aid he had given Tony. She did not
know how matters stood with him, for they did not dare write to Tara
about Tony’s midnight visit. Their letters might be intercepted by
the Yankees and bring trouble upon the plantation as well. But, when
weeks went by and they heard no bad news, they knew that Ashley had
somehow come clear. And finally, the Yankees ceased annoying them.
But even this relief did not free
Scarlett from the state of dread which began when Tony came knocking
at their door, a dread which was worse than the quaking fear of the
siege shells, worse even than the terror of Sherman’s men during
the last days of the war. It was as if Tony’s appearance that wild
rainy night had stripped merciful blinders from her eyes and forced
her to see the true uncertainty of her life.
Looking about her in that cold spring
of 1866, Scarlett realized what was facing her and the whole South.
She might plan and scheme, she might work harder than her slaves had
ever worked, she might succeed in overcoming all of her hardships,
she might through dint of determination solve problems for which her
earlier life had provided no training at all. But for all her labor
and sacrifice and resourcefulness, her small beginnings purchased at
so great a cost might be snatched away from her at any minute. And
should this happen, she had no legal rights, no legal redress, except
those same drumhead courts of which Tony had spoken so bitterly,
those military courts with their arbitrary powers. Only the negroes
had rights or redress these days. The Yankees had the South prostrate
and they intended to keep it so. The South had been tilted as by a
giant malicious hand, and those who had once ruled were now more
helpless than their former slaves had ever been.
Georgia was heavily garrisoned with
troops and Atlanta had more than its share. The commandants of the
Yankee troops in the various cities had complete power, even the
power of life and death, over the civilian population, and they used
that power. They could and did imprison citizens for any cause, or no
cause, seize their property, hang them. They could and did harass and
hamstring them with conflicting regulations about the operation of
their business, the wages they must pay their servants, what they
should say in public and private utterances and what they should
write in newspapers. They regulated how, when and where they must
dump their garbage and they decided what songs the daughters and
wives of ex-Confederates could sing, so that the singing of “Dixie”
or “Bonnie Blue Flag” became an offense only a little less
serious than treason. They ruled that no one could get a letter out
of. the post office without taking the Iron Clad oath and, in some
instances, they even prohibited the issuance of marriage licenses
unless the couples had taken the hated oath.
The newspapers were so muzzled that no
public protest could be raised against the injustices or depredations
of the military, and individual protests were silenced with jail
sentences. The jails were full of prominent citizens and there they
stayed without hope of early trial. Trial by jury and the law of
habeas corpus were practically suspended. The civil courts still
functioned after a fashion but they functioned at the pleasure of the
military, who could and did interfere with their verdicts, so that
citizens so unfortunate as to get arrested were virtually at the
mercy of the military authorities. And so many did get arrested. The
very suspicion of seditious utterances against the government,
suspected complicity in the Ku Klux Klan, or complaint by a negro
that a white man had been uppity to him were enough to land a citizen
in jail. Proof and evidence were not needed. The accusation was
sufficient. And thanks to the incitement of the Freedmen’s Bureau,
negroes could always be found who were willing to bring accusations.
The negroes had not yet been given the
right to vote but the North was determined that they should vote and
equally determined that their vote should be friendly to the North.
With this in mind, nothing was too good for the negroes. The Yankee
soldiers backed them up in anything they chose to do, and the surest
way for a white person to get himself into trouble was to bring a
complaint of any kind against a negro.
The former slaves were now the lords of
creation and, with the aid of the Yankees, the lowest and most
ignorant ones were on top. The better class of them, scorning
freedom, were suffering as severely as their white masters. Thousands
of house servants, the highest caste in the slave population,
remained with their white folks, doing manual labor which had been
beneath them in the old days. Many loyal field hands also refused to
avail themselves of the new freedom, but the hordes of “trashy free
issue niggers,” who were causing most of the trouble, were drawn
largely from the field-hand class.
In slave days, these lowly blacks had
been despised by the house negroes and yard negroes as creatures of
small worth. Just as Ellen had done, other plantation mistresses
throughout the South had put the pickaninnies through courses of
training and elimination to select the best of them for the positions
of greater responsibility. Those consigned to the fields were the
ones least willing or able to learn, the least energetic, the least
honest and trustworthy, the most vicious and brutish. And now this
class, the lowest in the black social order, was making life a misery
for the South.
Aided by the unscrupulous adventurers
who operated the Freedmen’s Bureau and urged on by a fervor of
Northern hatred almost religious in its fanaticism, the former field
hands found themselves suddenly elevated to the seats of the mighty.
There they conducted themselves as creatures of small intelligence
might naturally be expected to do. Like monkeys or small children
turned loose among treasured objects whose value is beyond their
comprehension, they ran wild—either from perverse pleasure in
destruction or simply because of their ignorance.
To the credit of the negroes, including
the least intelligent of them, few were actuated by malice and those
few had usually been “mean niggers” even in slave days. But they
were, as a class, childlike in mentality, easily led and from long
habit accustomed to taking orders. Formerly their white masters had
given the orders. Now they had a new set of masters, the Bureau and
the Carpetbaggers, and their orders were: “You’re just as good as
any white man, so act that way. Just as soon as you can vote the
Republican ticket, you are going to have the white man’s property.
It’s as good as yours now. Take it, if you can get it!”
Dazzled by these tales, freedom became
a never-ending picnic, a barbecue every day of the week, a carnival
of idleness and theft and insolence. Country negroes flocked into the
cities, leaving the rural districts without labor to make the crops.
Atlanta was crowded with them and still they came by the hundreds,
lazy and dangerous as a result of the new doctrines being taught
them. Packed into squalid cabins, smallpox, typhoid and tuberculosis
broke out among them. Accustomed to the care of their mistresses when
they were ill in slave days, they did not know how to nurse
themselves or their sick. Relying upon their masters in the old days
to care for their aged and their babies, they now had no sense of
responsibility for their helpless. And the Bureau was far too
interested in political matters to provide the care the plantation
owners had once given.
Abandoned negro children ran like
frightened animals about the town until kind-hearted white people
took them into their kitchens to raise. Aged country darkies,
deserted by their children, bewildered and panic stricken in the
bustling town, sat on the curbs and cried to the ladies who passed:
“Mistis, please Ma’m, write mah old Marster down in Fayette
County dat Ah’s up hyah. He’ll come tek dis ole nigger home agin.
‘Fo’ Gawd, Ah done got nuff of dis freedom!”
The Freedmen’s Bureau, overwhelmed by
the numbers who poured in upon them, realized too late a part of the
mistake and tried to send them back to their former owners. They told
the negroes that if they would go back, they would go as free
workers, protected by written contracts specifying wages by the day.
The old darkies went back to the plantations gladly, making a heavier
burden than ever on the poverty-stricken planters who had not the
heart to turn them out, but the young ones remained in Atlanta. They
did not want to be workers of any kind, anywhere. Why work when the
belly is full?
For the first time in their lives the
negroes were able to get all the whisky they might want. In slave
days, it was something they never tasted except at Christmas, when
each one received a “drap” along with his gift. Now they had not
only the Bureau agitators and the Carpetbaggers urging them on, but
the incitement of whisky as well, and outrages were inevitable.
Neither life nor property was safe from them and the white people,
unprotected by law, were terrorized. Men were insulted on the streets
by drunken blacks, houses and barns were burned at night, horses and
cattle and chickens stolen in broad daylight, crimes of all varieties
were committed and few of the perpetrators were brought to justice.
But these ignominies and dangers were
as nothing compared with the peril of white women, many bereft by the
war of male protection, who lived alone in the outlying districts and
on lonely roads. It was the large number of outrages on women and the
ever-present fear for the safety of their wives and daughters that
drove Southern men to cold and trembling fury and caused the Ku Klux
Klan to spring up overnight. And it was against this nocturnal
organization that the newspapers of the North cried out most loudly,
never realizing the tragic necessity that brought it into being. The
North wanted every member of the Ku Klux hunted down and hanged,
because they had dared take the punishment of crime into their own
hands at a time when the ordinary processes of law and order had been
overthrown by the invaders.
Here was the astonishing spectacle of
half a nation attempting, at the point of bayonet, to force upon the
other half the rule of negroes, many of them scarcely one generation
out of the African jungles. The vote must be given to them but it
must be denied to most of their former owners. The South must be kept
down and disfranchisement of the whites was one way to keep the South
down. Most of those who had fought for the Confederacy, held office
under it or given aid and comfort to it were not allowed to vote, had
no choice in the selection of their public officials and were wholly
under the power of an alien rule. Many men, thinking soberly of
General Lee’s words and example, wished to take the oath, become
citizens again and forget the past. But they were not permitted to
take it. Others who were permitted to take the oath, hotly refused to
do so, scorning to swear allegiance to a government which was
deliberately subjecting them to cruelty and humiliation.
Scarlett heard over and over until she
could have screamed at the repetition: “I’d have taken their
damned oath right after the surrender if they’d acted decent I can
be restored to the Union, but by God, I can’t be reconstructed into
it!”
Through these anxious days and nights,
Scarlett was torn with fear. The ever-present menace of lawless
negroes and Yankee soldiers preyed on her mind, the danger of
confiscation was constantly with her, even in her dreams, and she
dreaded worse terrors to come. Depressed by the helplessness of
herself and her friends, of the whole South, it was not strange that
she often remembered during these days the words which Tony Fontaine
had spoken so passionately:
“God God, Scarlett, it isn’t to be
borne! And it won’t be borne!”
In spite of war, fire and
Reconstruction, Atlanta had again become a boom town. In many ways,
the place resembled the busy young city of the Confederacy’s early
days. The only trouble was that the soldiers crowding the streets
wore the wrong kind of uniforms, the money was in the hands of the
wrong people, and the negroes were living in leisure while their
former masters struggled and starved.
Underneath the surface were misery and
fear, but all the outward appearances were those of a thriving town
that was rapidly rebuilding from its ruins, a bustling, hurrying
town. Atlanta, it seemed, must always be hurrying, no matter what its
circumstances might be. Savannah, Charleston, Augusta, Richmond, New
Orleans would never hurry. It was ill bred and Yankeefied to hurry.
But in this period, Atlanta was more ill bred and Yankeefied than it
had ever been before or would ever be again. With “new people”
thronging in from all directions, the streets were choked and noisy
from morning till night. The shiny carriages of Yankee officers’
wives and newly rich Carpetbaggers splashed mud on the dilapidated
buggies of the townspeople, and gaudy new homes of wealthy strangers
crowded in among the sedate dwellings of older citizens.
The war had definitely established the
importance of Atlanta in the affairs of the South and the hitherto
obscure town was now known far and wide. The railroads for which
Sherman had fought an entire summer and killed thousands of men were
again stimulating the life of the city they had brought into being.
Atlanta was again the center of activities for a wide region, as it
had been before its destruction, and the town was receiving a great
influx of new citizens, both welcome and unwelcome.
Invading Carpetbaggers made Atlanta
their headquarters and on the streets they jostled against
representatives of the oldest families in the South who were likewise
newcomers in the town. Families from the country districts who had
been burned out during Sherman’s march and who could no longer make
a living without the slaves to till the cotton had come to Atlanta to
live. New settlers were coming in every day from Tennessee and the
Carolinas where the hand of Reconstruction lay even heavier than in
Georgia. Many Irish and Germans who had been bounty men in the Union
Army had settled in Atlanta after their discharge. The wives and
families of the Yankee garrison, filled with curiosity about the
South after four years of war, came to swell the population.
Adventurers of every kind swarmed in, hoping to make their fortunes,
and the negroes from the country continued to come by the hundreds.
The town was roaring—wide open like a
frontier village, making no effort to cover its vices and sins.
Saloons blossomed overnight, two and sometimes three in a block, and
after nightfall the streets were full of drunken men, black and
white, reeling from wall to curb and back again. Thugs, pickpockets
and prostitutes lurked in the unlit alleys and shadowy streets.
Gambling houses ran full blast and hardly a night passed without its
shooting or cutting affray. Respectable citizens were scandalized to
find that Atlanta had a large and thriving red-light district, larger
and more thriving than during the war. All night long pianos jangled
from behind drawn shades and rowdy songs and laughter floated out,
punctuated by occasional screams and pistol shots. The inmates of
these houses were bolder than the prostitutes of the war days and
brazenly hung out of their windows and called to passers-by. And on
Sunday afternoons, the handsome closed carriages of the madams of the
district rolled down the main streets, filled with girls in their
best finery, taking the air from behind lowered silk shades.
Belle Watling was the most notorious of
the madams. She had opened a new house of her own, a large two-story
building that made neighboring houses in the district look like
shabby rabbit warrens. There was a long barroom downstairs, elegantly
hung with oil paintings, and a negro orchestra played every night.
The upstairs, so rumor said, was fitted out with the finest of plush
upholstered furniture, heavy lace curtains and imported mirrors in
gilt frames. The dozen young ladies with whom the house was furnished
were comely, if brightly painted, and comported themselves more
quietly than those of other houses. At least, the police were seldom
summoned to Belle’s.
This house was something that the
matrons of Atlanta whispered about furtively and ministers preached
against in guarded terms as a cesspool of iniquity, a hissing and a
reproach. Everyone knew that a woman of Belle’s type couldn’t
have made enough money by herself to set up such a luxurious
establishment. She had to have a backer and a rich one at that. And
Rhett Butler had never had the decency to conceal his relations with
her, so it was obvious that he and no other must be that backer.
Belle herself presented a prosperous appearance when glimpsed
occasionally in her closed carriage driven by an impudent yellow
negro. When she drove by, behind a fine pair of bays, all the little
boys along the street who could evade their mothers ran to peer at
her and whisper excitedly: “That’s her! That’s ole Belle! I
seen her red hair!”
Shouldering the shell-pitted houses
patched with bits of old lumber and smoke-blackened bricks, the fine
homes of the Carpetbaggers and war profiteers were rising, with
mansard roofs, gables and turrets, stained-glass windows and wide
lawns. Night after night, in these newly built homes, the windows
were ablaze with gas light and the sound of music and dancing feet
drifted out upon the air. Women in stiff bright-colored silks
strolled about long verandas, squired by men in evening clothes.
Champagne corks popped, and on lace tablecloths seven-course dinners
were laid. Hams in wine, pressed duck, pâté de foie gras, rare
fruits in and out of season, were spread in profusion.
Behind the shabby doors of the old
houses, poverty and hunger lived—all the more bitter for the brave
gentility with which they were borne, all the more pinching for the
outward show of proud indifference to material wants. Dr. Meade could
tell unlovely stories of those families who had been driven from
mansions to boarding houses and from boarding houses to dingy rooms
on back streets. He had too many lady patients who were suffering
from “weak hearts” and “declines.” He knew, and they knew he
knew, that slow starvation was the trouble. He could tell of
consumption making inroads on entire families and of pellagra, once
found only among poor whites, which was now appearing in Atlanta’s
best families. And there were babies with thin rickety legs and
mothers who could not nurse them. Once the old doctor had been wont
to thank God reverently for each child he brought into the world. Now
he did not think life was such a boon. It was a hard world for little
babies and so many died in their first few months of life.
Bright lights and wine, fiddles and
dancing, brocade and broadcloth in the showy big houses and, just
around the corners, slow starvation and cold. Arrogance and
callousness for the conquerors, bitter endurance and hatred for the
conquered.
CHAPTER XXXVIII
SCARLETT SAW IT ALL, lived with it by
day, took it to bed with her at night, dreading always what might
happen next. She knew that she and Frank were already in the Yankees’
black books, because of Tony, and disaster might descend on them at
any hour. But, now of all times, she could not afford to be pushed
back to her beginnings—not now with a baby coming, the mill just
commencing to pay and Tara depending on her for money until the
cotton came in in the fall. Oh, suppose she should lose everything!
Suppose she should have to start all over again with only her puny
weapons against this mad world! To have to pit her red lips and green
eyes and her shrewd shallow brain against the Yankees and everything
the Yankees stood for. Weary with dread, she felt that she would
rather kill herself than try to make a new beginning.
In the ruin and chaos of that spring of
1866, she single mindedly turned her energies to making the mill pay.
There was money in Atlanta. The wave of rebuilding was giving her the
opportunity she wanted and she knew she could make money if only she
could stay out of jail. But, she told herself time and again, she
would have to walk easily, gingerly, be meek under insults, yielding
to injustices, never giving offense to anyone, black or white, who
might do her harm. She hated the impudent free negroes as much as
anyone and her flesh crawled with fury every time she heard their
insulting remarks and high-pitched laughter as she went by. But she
never even gave them a glance of contempt. She hated the
Carpetbaggers and Scalawags who were getting rich with ease while she
struggled, but she said nothing in condemnation of them. No one in
Atlanta could have loathed the Yankees more than she, for the very
sight of a blue uniform made her sick with rage, but even in the
privacy of her family she kept silent about them.
I won’t be a big-mouthed fool, she
thought grimly. Let others break their hearts over the old days and
the men who’ll never come back. Let others burn with fury over the
Yankee rule and losing the ballot. Let others go to jail for speaking
their minds and get themselves hanged for being in the Ku Klux Klan.
(Oh, what a dreaded name that was, almost as terrifying to Scarlett
as to the negroes.) Let other women be proud that their husbands
belonged. Thank God, Frank had never been mixed up in it! Let others
stew and fume and plot and plan about things they could not help.
What did the past matter compared with the tense present and the
dubious future? What did the ballot matter when bread, a roof and
staying out of jail were the real problems? And, please God, just let
me stay out of trouble until June!
Only till June! By that month Scarlett
knew she would be forced to retire into Aunt Pitty’s house and
remain secluded there until after her child was born. Already people
were criticizing her for appearing in public when she was in such a
condition. No lady ever showed herself when she was pregnant. Already
Frank and Pitty were begging her not to expose herself—and them—to
embarrassment and she had promised them to stop work in June.
Only till June! By June she must have
the mill well enough established for her to leave it. By June she
must have money enough to give her at least some little protection
against misfortune. So much to do and so little time to do it! She
wished for more hours of the day and counted the minutes, as she
strained forward feverishly in her pursuit of money and still more
money.
Because she nagged the timid Frank, the
store was doing better now and he was even collecting some of the old
bills. But it was the sawmill on which her hopes were pinned. Atlanta
these days was like a giant plant which had been cut to the ground
but now was springing up again with sturdier shoots, thicker foliage,
more numerous branches. The demand for building materials was far
greater than could be supplied. Prices of lumber, brick and stone
soared and Scarlett kept the mill running from dawn until lantern
light.
A part of every day she spent at the
mill, prying into everything, doing her best to check the thievery
she felt sure was going on. But most of the time she was riding about
the town, making the rounds of builders, contractors and carpenters,
even calling on strangers she had heard might build at future dates,
cajoling them into promises of buying from her and her only.
Soon she was a familiar sight on
Atlanta’s streets, sitting in her buggy beside the dignified,
disapproving old darky driver, a lap robe pulled high about her, her
little mittened hands clasped in her lap. Aunt Pitty had made her a
pretty green mantelet which hid her figure and a green pancake hat
which matched her eyes, and she always wore these becoming garments
on her business calls. A faint dab of rouge on her cheeks and a
fainter fragrance of cologne made her a charming picture, as long as
she did not alight from the buggy and show her figure. And there was
seldom any need for this, for she smiled and beckoned and the men
came quickly to the buggy and frequently stood bareheaded in the rain
to talk business with her.
She was not the only one who had seen
the opportunities for making money out of lumber, but she did not
fear her competitors. She knew with conscious pride in her own
smartness that she was the equal of any of them. She was Gerald’s
own daughter and the shrewd trading instinct she had inherited was
now sharpened by her needs.
At first the other dealers had laughed
at her, laughed with good-natured contempt at the very idea of a
woman in business. But now they did not laugh. They swore silently as
they saw her ride by. The fact that she was a woman frequently worked
in her favor, for she could upon occasion look so helpless and
appealing that she melted hearts. With no difficulty whatever she
could mutely convey the impression of a brave but timid lady, forced
by brutal circumstance into a distasteful position, a helpless little
lady who would probably starve if customers didn’t buy her lumber.
But when ladylike airs failed to get results she was coldly
businesslike and willingly undersold her competitors at a loss to
herself if it would bring her a new customer. She was not above
selling a poor grade of lumber for the price of good lumber if she
thought she would not be detected, and she had no scruples about
blackguarding the other lumber dealers. With every appearance of
reluctance at disclosing the unpleasant truth, she would sigh and
tell prospective customers that her competitors’ lumber was far too
high in price, rotten, full of knot holes and in general of
deplorably poor quality.
The first time Scarlett lied in this
fashion she felt disconcerted and guilty—disconcerted because the
lie sprang so easily and naturally to her lips, guilty because the
thought flashed into her mind: What would Mother say?
There was no doubt what Ellen would say
to a daughter who told lies and engaged in sharp practices. She would
be stunned and incredulous and would speak gentle words that stung
despite their gentleness, would talk of honor and honesty and truth
and duty to one’s neighbor. Momentarily, Scarlett cringed as she
pictured the look on her mother’s face. And then the picture faded,
blotted out by an impulse, hard, unscrupulous and greedy, which had
been born in the lean days at Tara and was now strengthened by the
present uncertainty of life. So she passed this milestone as she had
passed others before it—with a sigh that she was not as Ellen would
like her to be, a shrug and the repetition of her unfailing charm:
“I’ll think of all this later.”
But she never again thought of Ellen in
connection with her business practices, never again regretted any
means she used to take trade away from other lumber dealers. She knew
she was perfectly safe in lying about them. Southern chivalry
protected her. A Southern lady could lie about a gentleman but a
Southern gentleman could not lie about a lady or, worse still, call
the lady a liar. Other lumbermen could only fume inwardly and state
heatedly, in the bosoms of their families, that they wished to God
Mrs. Kennedy was a man for just about five minutes.
One poor white who operated a mill on
the Decatur road did try to fight Scarlett with her own weapons,
saying openly that she was a liar and a swindler. But it hurt him
rather than helped, for everyone was appalled that even a poor white
should say such shocking things about a lady of good family, even
when the lady was conducting herself in such an unwomanly way.
Scarlett bore his remarks with silent dignity and, as time went by,
she turned all her attention to him and his customers. She undersold
him so relentlessly and delivered, with secret groans, such an
excellent quality of lumber to prove her probity that he was soon
bankrupt. Then, to Frank’s horror, she triumphantly bought his mill
at her own price.
Once in her possession there arose the
perplexing problem of finding a trustworthy man to put in charge of
it. She did not want another man like Mr. Johnson. She knew that
despite all her watchfulness he was still selling her lumber behind
her back, but she thought it would be easy to find the right sort of
man. Wasn’t everybody as poor as Job’s turkey, and weren’t the
streets full of men, some of them formerly rich, who were without
work? The day never went by that Frank did not give money to some
hungry ex-soldier or that Pitty and Cookie did not wrap up food for
gaunt beggars.
But Scarlett, for some reason she could
not understand, did not want any of these. “I don’t want men who
haven’t found something to do after a year,” she thought. “If
they haven’t adjusted to peace yet, they couldn’t adjust to me.
And they all look so hangdog and licked. I don’t want a man who’s
licked. I want somebody who’s smart and energetic like Renny or
Tommy Wellburn or Kells Whiting or one of the Simmons boys or—or
any of that tribe. They haven’t got that
I-don’t-care-about-anything look the soldiers had right after the
surrender. They look like they cared a heap about a heap of things.”
But to her surprise the Simmons boys,
who had started a brick kiln, and Kells Whiting, who was selling a
preparation made up in his mother’s kitchen, that was guaranteed to
straighten the lankiest negro hair in six applications, smiled
politely, thanked her and refused. It was the same with the dozen
others she approached. In desperation she raised the wage she was
offering but she was still refused. One of Mrs. Merriwether’s
nephews observed impertinently that while he didn’t especially
enjoy driving a dray, it was his own dray and he would rather get
somewhere under his own steam than Scarlett’s.
One afternoon, Scarlett pulled up her
buggy beside René Picard’s pie wagon and hailed René and the
crippled Tommy Wellburn, who was catching a ride home with his
friend.
“Look here, Renny, why don’t you
come and work for me? Managing a mill is a sight more respectable
than driving a pie wagon. I’d think, you’d be ashamed.”
“Me, I am dead to shame,” grinned
René. “Who would be respectable? All of my days I was respectable
until ze war set me free lak ze darkies. Nevaire again must I be
deegneefied and full of ennui. Free lak ze bird! I lak my pie wagon.
I lak my mule. I lak ze dear Yankees who so kindly buy ze pie of
Madame Belle Mère. No, my Scarlett, I must be ze King of ze Pies.
Eet ees my destiny! Lak Napoleon, I follow my star.” He flourished
his whip dramatically.
“But you weren’t raised to sell
pies any more than Tommy was raised to wrastle with a bunch of wild
Irish masons. My kind of work is more—”
“And I suppose you were raised to run
a lumber mill,” said Tommy, the corners of his mouth twitching.
“Yes, I can just see little Scarlett at her mother’s knee,
lisping her lesson, ‘Never sell good lumber if you can get a better
price for bad.’ ”
René roared at this, his small monkey
eyes dancing with glee as he whacked Tommy on his twisted back.
“Don’t be impudent,” said
Scarlett coldly, for she saw little humor in Tommy’s remark. “Of
course, I wasn’t raised to run a sawmill.”
“I didn’t mean to be impudent. But
you are running a sawmill, whether you were raised to it or not. And
running it very well, too. Well, none of us, as far as I can see, are
doing what we intended to do right now, but I think well make out
just the same. It’s a poor person and a poor nation that sits down
and cries because life isn’t precisely what they expected it to be.
Why don’t you pick up some enterprising Carpetbagger to work for
you, Scarlett? The woods are full of them, God knows.”
“I don’t want a Carpetbagger.
Carpetbaggers will steal anything that isn’t red hot or nailed
down. If they amounted to anything they’d have stayed where they
were, instead of coming down here to pick our bones. I want a nice
man, from nice folks, who is smart and honest and energetic and—”
“You don’t want much. And you won’t
get it for the wage you’re offering. All the men of that
description, barring the badly maimed ones, have already got
something to do. They may be round pegs in square holes but they’ve
all got something to do. Something of their own that they’d rather
do than work for a woman.”
“Men haven’t got much sense, have
they, when you get down to rock bottom?”
“Maybe not but they’ve got a heap
of pride,” said Tommy soberly.
“Pride! Pride tastes awfully good,
especially when the crust is flaky and you put meringue on it,”
said Scarlett tartly.
The two men laughed, a bit unwillingly,
and it seemed to Scarlett that they drew together in united masculine
disapproval of her. What Tommy said was true, she thought, running
over in her mind the men she had approached and the ones she intended
to approach. They were all busy, busy at something, working hard,
working harder than they would have dreamed possible in the days
before the war. They weren’t doing what they wanted to do perhaps,
or what was easiest to do, or what they had been reared to do, but
they were doing something. Times were too hard for men to be choosy.
And if they were sorrowing for lost hopes, longing for lost ways of
living, no one knew it but they. They were fighting a new war, a
harder war than the one before. And they were caring about life
again, caring with the same urgency and the same violence that
animated them before the war had cut their lives in two.
“Scarlett,” said Tommy awkwardly,
“I do hate to ask a favor of you, after being impudent to you, but
I’m going to ask it just the same. Maybe it would help you anyway.
My brother-in-law, Hugh Elsing, isn’t doing any too well peddling
kindling wood. Everybody except the Yankees goes out and collects his
own kindling wood. And I know things are mighty hard with the whole
Elsing family. I—I do what I can, but you see I’ve got Fanny to
support, and then, too, I’ve got my mother and two widowed sisters
down in Sparta to look after. Hugh is nice, and you wanted a nice
man, and he’s from nice folks, as you know, and he’s honest.”
“But—well, Hugh hasn’t got much
gumption or else he’d make a success of his kindling.”
Tommy shrugged.
“You’ve got a hard way of looking
at things, Scarlett,” he said. “But you think Hugh over. You
could go far and do worse. I think his honesty and his willingness
will outweigh his lack of gumption.”
Scarlett did not answer, for she did
not want to be too rude. But to her mind there were few, if any,
qualities that out-weighed gumption.
After she had unsuccessfully canvassed
the town and refused the importuning of many eager Carpetbaggers, she
finally decided to take Tommy’s suggestion and ask Hugh Elsing. He
had been a dashing and resourceful officer during the war, but two
severe wounds and four years of fighting seemed to have drained him
of all his resourcefulness, leaving him to face the rigors of peace
as bewildered as a child. There was a lost-dog look in his eyes these
days as he went about peddling his firewood, and he was not at all
the kind of man she had hoped to get.
“He’s stupid,” she thought. “He
doesn’t know a thing about business and I’ll bet he can’t add
two and two. And I doubt if he’ll ever learn. But, at least, he’s
honest and won’t swindle me.”
Scarlett had little use these days for
honesty in herself, but the less she valued it in herself the more
she was beginning to value it in others.
“It’s a pity Johnnie Gallegher is
tied up with Tommy Wellburn on that construction work,” she
thought. “He’s just the kind of man I want He’s hard as nails
and slick as a snake, but he’d be honest if it paid him to be
honest I understand him and he understands me and we could do
business together very well. Maybe I can get him when the hotel is
finished and till then I’ll have to make out on Hugh and Mr.
Johnson. If I put Hugh in charge of the new mill and leave Mr.
Johnson at the old one, I can stay in town and see to the selling
while they handle the milling and hauling. Until I can get Johnnie
I’ll have to risk Mr. Johnson robbing me if I stay in town all the
time. If only he wasn’t a thief! I believe I’ll build a lumber
yard on half that lot Charles left me. If only Frank didn’t holler
so loud about me building a saloon on the other half! Well, I shall
build the saloon just as soon as I get enough money ahead, no matter
how he takes on. If only Frank wasn’t so thin skinned. Oh, God, if
only I wasn’t going to have a baby at this of all times! In a
little while I’ll be so big I can’t go out. Oh, God, if only I
wasn’t going to have a baby! And oh, God, if the damned Yankees
will only let me alone! If—”
If! If! If! There were so many ifs in
life, never any certainty of anything, never any sense of security,
always the dread of losing everything and being cold and hungry
again. Of course, Frank was making a little more money now, but Frank
was always ailing with colds and frequently forced to stay in bed for
days. Suppose he should become an invalid. No, she could not afford
to count on Frank for much. She must not count on anything or anybody
but herself. And what she could earn seemed so pitiably small. Oh,
what would she do if the Yankees came and took it all away from her?
If! If! If!
Half of what she made every month went
to Will at Tara, part to Rhett to repay his loan and the rest she
hoarded. No miser ever counted his gold oftener than she and no miser
ever had greater fear of losing it. She would not put the money in
the bank, for it might fail or the Yankees might confiscate it. So
she carried what she could with her, tucked into her corset, and hid
small wads of bills about the house, under loose bricks on the
hearth, in her scrap bag, between the pages of the Bible. And her
temper grew shorter and shorter as the weeks went by, for every
dollar she saved would be just one more dollar to lose if disaster
descended.
Frank, Pitty and the servants bore her
outbursts with maddening kindness, attributing her bad disposition to
her pregnancy, never realizing the true cause. Frank knew that
pregnant women must be humored, so he put his pride in his pocket and
said nothing more about her running the mills and her going about
town at such a time, as no lady should do. Her conduct was a constant
embarrassment to him but he reckoned he could endure it for a while
longer. After the baby came, he knew she would be the same sweet
feminine girl he had courted. But in spite of everything he did to
appease her, she continued to have her tantrums and often he thought
she acted like one possessed.
No one seemed to realize what really
possessed her, what drove her like a mad woman. It was a passion to
get her affairs in order before she had to retire behind doors, to
have as much money as possible in case the deluge broke upon her
again, to have a stout levee of cash against the rising tide of
Yankee hate. Money was the obsession dominating her mind these days.
When she thought of the baby at all, it was with baffled rage at the
untimeliness of it.
“Death and taxes and childbirth!
There’s never any convenient time for any of them!”
Atlanta had been scandalized enough
when Scarlett, a woman, began operating the sawmill but as time went
by, the town decided there was no limit to what she would do. Her
sharp trading was shocking, especially when her poor mother had been
a Robillard, and it was positively indecent the way she kept on going
about the streets when everyone knew she was pregnant. No respectable
white woman and few negroes ever went outside their homes from the
moment they first suspected they were with child, and Mrs.
Merriwether declared indignantly that from the way Scarlett was
acting she was likely to have the baby on the public streets.
But all the previous criticism of her
conduct was as nothing compared with the buzz of gossip that now went
through the town. Scarlett was not only trafficking with the Yankees
but was giving every appearance of really liking it!
Mrs. Merriwether and many other
Southerners were also doing business with the newcomers from the
North, but the difference was that they did not like it and plainly
showed they did not like it. And Scarlett did, or seemed to, which
was just as bad. She had actually taken tea with the Yankee officers’
wives in their homes! In fact, she had done practically everything
short of inviting them into her own home, and the town guessed she
would do even that, except for Aunt Pitty and Frank.
Scarlett knew the town was talking but
she did not care, could not afford to care. She still hated the
Yankees with as fierce a hate as on the day when they tried to burn
Tara, but she could dissemble that hate. She knew that if she was
going to make money, she would have to make it out of the Yankees,
and she had learned that buttering them up with smiles and kind words
was the surest way to get their business for her mill.
Some day when she was very rich and her
money was hidden away where the Yankees could not find it, then, then
she would tell them exactly what she thought of them, tell them how
she hated and loathed and despised them. And what a joy that would
be! But until that time came, it was just plain common sense to get
along with them. And if that was hypocrisy, let Atlanta make the most
of it.
She discovered that making friends with
the Yankee officers was as easy as shooting birds on the ground. They
were lonely exiles in a hostile land and many of them were starved
for polite feminine associations in a town where respectable women
drew their skirts aside in passing and looked as if they would like
to spit on them. Only the prostitutes and the negro women had kind
words for them. But Scarlett was obviously a lady and a lady of
family, for all that she worked, and they thrilled to her flashing
smile and the pleasant light in her green eyes.
Frequently when Scarlett sat in her
buggy talking to them and making her dimples play, her dislike for
them rose so strong that it was hard not to curse them to their
faces. But she restrained herself and she found that twisting Yankee
men around her finger was no more difficult than that same diversion
had been with Southern men. Only this was no diversion but a grim
business. The role she enacted was that of a refined sweet Southern
lady in distress. With an air of dignified reserve she was able to
keep her victims at their proper distance, but there was nevertheless
a graciousness in her manner which left a certain warmth in the
Yankee officers’ memories of Mrs. Kennedy.
This warmth was very profitable—as
Scarlett had intended it to be. Many of the officers of the garrison,
not knowing how long they would be stationed in Atlanta, had sent for
their wives and families. As the hotels and boarding houses were
overflowing, they were building small houses; and they were glad to
buy their lumber from the gracious Mrs. Kennedy, who treated them
more politely than anyone else in town. The Carpetbaggers and
Scalawags also, who were building fine homes and stores and hotels
with their new wealth, found it more pleasant to do business with her
than with the former Confederate soldiers who were courteous but with
a courtesy more formal and cold than outspoken hate.
So, because she was pretty and charming
and could appear quite helpless and forlorn at times, they gladly
patronized her lumber yard and also Frank’s store, feeling that
they should help a plucky little woman who apparently had only a
shiftless husband to support her. And Scarlett, watching the business
grow, felt that she was safeguarding not only the present with Yankee
money but the future with Yankee friends.
Keeping her relations with the Yankee
officers on the plane she desired was easier man she expected, for
they all seemed to be in awe of Southern ladies, but Scarlett soon
found that their wives presented a problem she had not anticipated.
Contacts with the Yankee women were not of her seeking. She would
have been glad to avoid them but she could not, for the officers’
wives were determined to meet her. They had an avid curiosity about
the South and Southern women, and Scarlett gave them their first
opportunity to satisfy it. Other Atlanta women would have nothing to
do with them and even refused to bow to them in church, so when
business brought Scarlett to their homes, she was like an answer to
prayer. Often when Scarlett sat in her buggy in front of a Yankee
home talking of uprights and shingles with the man of the house, the
wife came out to join in the conversation or insist that she come
inside for a cup of tea. Scarlett seldom refused, no matter how
distasteful the idea might be, for she always hoped to have an
opportunity to suggest tactfully that they do their trading at
Frank’s store. But her self-control was severely tested many times,
because of the personal questions they asked and because of the smug
and condescending attitude they displayed toward all things Southern.
Accepting Uncle Tom’s Cabin as
revelation second only to the Bible, the Yankee women all wanted to
know about the bloodhounds which every Southerner kept to track down
runaway slaves. And they never believed her when she told them she
had only seen one bloodhound in all her life and it was a small mild
dog and not a huge ferocious mastiff. They wanted to know about the
dreadful branding irons which planters used to mark the faces of
their slaves and the cat-o’-nine-tails with which they beat them to
death, and they evidenced what Scarlett felt was a very nasty and
ill-bred interest in slave concubinage. Especially did she resent
this in view of the enormous increase in mulatto babies in Atlanta
since the Yankee soldiers had settled in the town.
Any other Atlanta woman would have
expired in rage at having to listen to such bigoted ignorance but
Scarlett managed to control herself. Assisting her in this was the
fact that they aroused her contempt more than her anger. After all,
they were Yankees and no one expected anything better from Yankees.
So their unthinking insults to her state, her people and their
morals, glanced off and never struck deep enough to cause her more
than a well-concealed sneer until an incident occurred which made her
sick with rage and showed her, if she needed any showing, how wide
was the gap between North and South and how utterly impossible it was
to bridge it.
While driving home with Uncle Peter one
afternoon, she passed the house into which were crowded the families
of three officers who were building their own homes with Scarlett’s
lumber. The three wives were standing in the walk as she drove by and
they waved to her to stop. Coming out to the carriage block they
greeted her in accents that always made her feel that one could
forgive Yankees almost anything except their voices.
“You are just the person I want to
see, Mrs. Kennedy,” said a tall thin woman from Maine. “I want to
get some information about this benighted town.”
Scarlett swallowed the insult to
Atlanta with the contempt it deserved and smiled her best.
“And what can I tell you?”
“My nurse, my Bridget, has gone back
North. She said she wouldn’t stay another day down here among the
‘nay-gurs’ as she calls them. And the children are just driving
me distracted! Do tell me how to go about getting another nurse. I do
not know where to apply.”
That shouldn’t be difficult,” said
Scarlett and laughed. “If you can find a darky just in from the
country who hasn’t been spoiled by the Freedmen’s Bureau, you’ll
have the best kind of servant possible. Just stand at your gate here
and ask every darky woman who passes and I’m sure—”
The three women broke into indignant
outcries.
“Do you think I’d trust my babies
to a black nigger?” cried the Maine woman. “I want a good Irish
girl.”
“I’m afraid you’ll find no Irish
servants in Atlanta,” answered Scarlett, coolness in her voice.
“Personally, I’ve never seen a white servant and I shouldn’t
care to have one in my house. And,” she could not keep a slight
note of sarcasm from her words, “I assure you that darkies aren’t
cannibals and are quite trustworthy.”
“Goodness, no! I wouldn’t have one
in my house. The idea!”
“I wouldn’t trust them any farther
than I could see them and as for letting them handle my babies …”
Scarlett thought of the kind, gnarled
hands of Mammy worn rough in Ellen’s service and hers and Wade’s.
What did these strangers know of black hands, how dear and comforting
they could be, how unerringly they knew how to soothe, to pat, to
fondle? She laughed shortly.
“It’s strange you should feel that
way when it was you all who freed them.”
“Lor’! Not I, dearie,” laughed
the Maine woman. “I never saw a nigger till I came South last month
and I don’t care if I never see another. They give me the creeps. I
wouldn’t trust one of them. …”
For some moments Scarlett had been
conscious that Uncle Peter was breathing hard and sitting up very
straight as he stared steadily at the horse’s ears. Her attention
was called to him more forcibly when the Maine woman broke off
suddenly with a laugh and pointed him out to her companions.
“Look at that old nigger swell up
like a toad,” she giggled. “I’ll bet he’s an old pet of
yours, isn’t he? You Southerners don’t know how to treat niggers.
You spoil them to death.”
Peter sucked in his breath and his
wrinkled brow showed deep furrows but he kept his eyes straight
ahead. He had never had the term “nigger” applied to him by a
white person in all his life. By other negroes, yes. But never by a
white person. And to be called untrustworthy and an “old pet,”
he, Peter, who had been the dignified mainstay of the Hamilton family
for years!
Scarlett felt, rather than saw, the
black chin begin to shake with hurt pride, and a killing rage swept
over her. She had listened with calm contempt while these women had
underrated the Confederate Army, blackguarded Jeff Davis and accused
Southerners of murder and torture of their slaves. If it were to her
advantage she would have endured insults about her own virtue and
honesty. But the knowledge that they had hurt the faithful old darky
with their stupid remarks fired her like a match in gunpowder. For a
moment she looked at the big horse pistol in Peter’s belt and her
hands itched for the feel of it. They deserved killing, these
insolent, ignorant, arrogant conquerors. But she bit down on her
teeth until her jaw muscles stood out, reminding herself that the
time had not yet come when she could tell the Yankees just what she
thought of them. Some day, yes. My God, yes! But not yet.
“Uncle Peter is one of our family,”
she said, her voice shaking. “Good afternoon. Drive on, Peter.”
Peter laid the whip on the horse so
suddenly that the startled animal jumped forward and as the buggy
jounced off, Scarlett heard the Maine woman say with puzzled accents:
“Her family? You don’t suppose she meant a relative? He’s
exceedingly black.”
God damn them! They ought to be wiped
off the face of the earth. If ever I get money enough, I’ll spit in
all their faces! I’ll—
She glanced at Peter and saw that a
tear was trickling down his nose. Instantly a passion of tenderness,
of grief for his humiliation swamped her, made her eyes sting. It was
as though someone had been senselessly brutal to a child. Those women
had hurt Uncle Peter—Peter who had been through the Mexican War
with old Colonel Hamilton, Peter who had held his master in his arms
when he died, who had raised Melly and Charles and looked after the
feckless, foolish Pittypat, “pertecked” her when she refugeed,
and “ ‘quired” a horse to bring her back from Macon through a
war-torn country after the surrender. And they said they wouldn’t
trust niggers!
“Peter,” she said, her voice
breaking as she put her hand on his thin arm. “I’m ashamed of you
for crying. What do you care? They aren’t anything but damned
Yankees!”
“Dey talked in front of me lak Ah wuz
a mule an’ couldn’ unnerstan’ dem—lak Ah wuz a Affikun an’
din’ know whut dey wuz talkin’ ‘bout,” said Peter, giving a
tremendous sniff. “An’ dey call me a nigger an’ Ah’ ain’
never been call a nigger by no w’ite folks, an’ dey call me a ole
pet an’ say dat niggers ain’ ter be trus’ed! Me not ter be
trus’ed! Why, w’en de ole Cunnel wuz dyin’ he say ter me, “You,
Peter! You look affer mah chillun. Tek keer of yo’ young Miss
Pittypat,’ he say, ‘ ‘cause she ain’ got no mo’ sense dan a
hoppergrass.’ An’ Ah done tek keer of her good all dese y’ars—”
“Nobody but the Angel Gabriel could
have done better,” said Scarlett soothingly. “We just couldn’t
have lived without you.”
“Yas’m, thankee kinely, Ma’m. Ah
knows it an’ you knows it, but dem Yankee folks doan know it an’
dey doan want ter know it, Huccome dey come mixin’ in our bizness,
Miss Scarlett? Dey doan unnerstan’ us Confedruts.”
Scarlett said nothing for she was still
burning with the wrath she had not exploded in the Yankee women’s
faces. The two drove home in silence. Peter’s sniffles stopped and
his underlip began to protrude gradually until it stuck out
alarmingly. His indignation was mounting, now that the initial hurt
was subsiding.
Scarlett thought: What damnably queer
people Yankees are! Those women seemed to think that because Uncle
Peter was black, he had no ears to hear with and no feelings, as
tender as their own, to be hurt. They did not know that negroes had
to be handled gently, as though they were children, directed,
praised, petted, scolded. They didn’t understand negroes or the
relations between the negroes and their former masters. Yet they had
fought a war to free them. And having freed them, they didn’t want
to have anything to do with them, except to use them to terrorize
Southerners. They didn’t like them, didn’t trust them, didn’t
understand them, and yet their constant cry was that Southerners
didn’t know how to get along with them.
Not trust a darky! Scarlett trusted
them far more than most white people, certainly more than she trusted
any Yankee. There were qualities of loyalty and tirelessness and love
in them that no strain could break, no money could buy. She thought
of the faithful few who remained at Tara in the face of the Yankee
invasion when they could have fled or joined the troops for lives of
leisure. But they had stayed. She thought of Dilcey toiling in the
cotton fields beside her, of Pork risking his life in neighboring hen
houses that the family might eat, of Mammy coming to Atlanta with her
to keep her from doing wrong. She thought of the servants of her
neighbors who had stood loyally beside their white owners, protecting
their mistresses while the men were at the front, refugeeing with
them through the terrors of the war, nursing the wounded, burying the
dead, comforting the bereaved, working, begging, stealing to keep
food on the tables. And even now, with the Freedmen’s Bureau
promising all manner of wonders, they still stuck with their white
folks and worked much harder than they ever worked in slave times.
But the Yankees didn’t understand these things and would never
understand them.
“Yet they set you free,” she said
aloud.
“No, Ma’m! Dey din’ sot me free.
Ah wouldn’ let no sech trash sot me free,” said Peter
indignantly. “Ah still b’longs ter Miss Pitty an’ w’en Ah
dies she gwine lay me in de Hamilton buhyin’ groun’ whar Ah
b’longs. … Mah Miss gwine ter be in a state w’en Ah tells her
‘bout how you let dem Yankee women ‘sult me.”
“I did no such thing!” cried
Scarlett, startled.
“You did so, Miss Scarlett,” said
Peter, pushing out his lip even farther. “De pint is, needer you
nor me had no bizness bein’ wid Yankees, so dey could ‘sult me.
Ef you hadn’t talked wid dem, dey wouldn’ had no chance ter treat
me lak a mule or a Affikun. An’ you din’ tek up fer me, needer.”
“I did, too!” said Scarlett, stung
by the criticism. “Didn’t I tell them you were one of the
family?”
“Dat ain’ tekkin’ up. Dat’s
jes’ a fac’,” said Peter. “Miss Scarlett, you ain’ got no
bizness havin’ no truck wid Yankees. Ain’ no other ladies doin’
it. You wouldn’ ketch Miss Pitty wipin’ her lil shoes on sech
trash. An’ she ain’ gwine lake it w’en she hear ‘bout whut
dey said ‘bout me.”
Peter’s criticism hurt worse than
anything Frank or Aunt Pitty or the neighbors had said and it so
annoyed her she longed to shake the old darky until his toothless
gums clapped together. What Peter said was true but she hated to hear
it from a negro and a family negro, too. Not to stand high in the
opinion of one’s servants was as humiliating a thing as could
happen to a Southerner.
“A ole pet!” Peter grumbled. “Ah
specs Miss Pitty ain’t gwine want me ter drive you roun’ no mo’
after dat. No, Ma’m!”
“Aunt Pitty will want you to drive me
as usual,” she said sternly, “so let’s hear no more about it.”
“Ah’ll git a mizry in mah back,”
warned Peter darkly. “Mah back huttin’ me so bad dis minute Ah
kain sceercely set up. Mah Miss ain’ gwine want me ter do no
drivin’ w’en Ah got a mizry. … Miss Scarlett, it ain’ gwine
do you no good ter stan’ high wid de Yankees an’ de w’ite
trash, ef yo’ own folks doan ‘prove of you.”
That was as accurate a summing up of
the situation as could be made and Scarlett relapsed into infuriated
silence. Yes, the conquerors did approve of her and her family and
her neighbors did not. She knew all the things the town was saying
about her. And now even Peter disapproved of her to the point of not
caring to be seen in public with her. That was the last straw.
Heretofore she had been careless of
public opinion, careless and a little contemptuous. But Peter’s
words caused fierce resentment to burn in her breast, drove her to a
defensive position, made her suddenly dislike her neighbors as much
as she disliked the Yankees.
“Why should they care what I do?”
she thought. “They must think I enjoy associating with Yankees and
working like a field hand. They’re just making a hard job harder
for me. But I don’t care what they think. I won’t let myself
care. I can’t afford to care now. But some day—some day—”
Oh some day! When there was security in
her world again, then she would sit back and fold her hands and be a
great lady as Ellen had been. She would be helpless and sheltered, as
a lady should be, and then everyone would approve of her. Oh, how
grand she would be when she had money again! Then she could permit
herself to be kind and gentle, as Ellen had been, and thoughtful of
other people and of the proprieties, too. She would not be driven by
fears, day and night, and life would be a placid, unhurried affair.
She would have time to play with her children and listen to their
lessons. There would be long warm afternoons when ladies would call
and, amid the rustlings of taffeta petticoats and the rhythmic harsh
cracklings of palmetto fans, she would serve tea and delicious
sandwiches and cakes and leisurely gossip the hours away. And she
would be so kind to those who were suffering misfortune, take baskets
to the poor and soup and jelly to the sick and “air” those less
fortunate in her fine carriage. She would be a lady in the true
Southern manner, as her mother had been. And then, everyone would
love her as they had loved Ellen and they would say how unselfish she
was and call her “Lady Bountiful.”
Her pleasure in these thoughts of the
future was un-dimmed by any realization that she had no real desire
to be unselfish or charitable or kind. All she wanted was the
reputation for possessing these qualities. But the meshes of her
brain were too wide, too coarse, to filter such small differences. It
was enough that some day, when she had money, everyone would approve
of her.
Some day! But not now. Not now, in
spite of what anyone might say of her. Now, there was no time to be a
great lady.
Peter was as good as his word. Aunt
Pitty did get into a state, and Peter’s misery developed overnight
to such proportions that he never drove the buggy again. Thereafter
Scarlett drove alone and the calluses which had begun to leave her
palms came back again.
So the spring months went by, the cool
rains of April passing into the warm balm of green May weather. The
weeks were packed with work and worry and the handicaps of increasing
pregnancy, with old friends growing cooler and her family
increasingly more kind, more maddeningly solicitous and more
completely blind to what was driving her. During those days of
anxiety and struggle there was only one dependable, understanding
person in her world, and that person was Rhett Butler. It was odd
that he of all people should appear in this light, for he was as
unstable as quicksilver and as perverse as a demon fresh from the
pit. But he gave her sympathy, something she had never had from
anyone and never expected from him.
Frequently he was out of town on those
mysterious trips to New Orleans which he never explained but which
she felt sure, in a faintly jealous way, were connected with a
woman—or women. But after Uncle Peter’s refusal to drive her, he
remained in Atlanta for longer and longer intervals.
While in town, he spent most of his
time gambling in the rooms above the Girl of the Period Saloon, or in
Belle Watling’s bar hobnobbing with the wealthier of the Yankees
and Carpetbaggers in money-making schemes which made the townspeople
detest him even more than his cronies. He did not call at the house
now, probably in deference to the feelings of Frank and Pitty who
would have been outraged at a male caller while Scarlett was in a
delicate condition. But she met him by accident almost every day.
Time and again, he came riding up to her buggy when she was passing
through lonely stretches of Peachtree road and Decatur road where the
mills lay. He always drew rein and talked and sometimes he tied his
horse to the back of the buggy and drove her on her rounds. She tired
more easily these days than she liked to admit and she was always
silently grateful when he took the reins. He always left her before
they reached the town again but all Atlanta knew about their
meetings, and it gave the gossips something new to add to the long
list of Scarlett’s affronts to the proprieties.
She wondered occasionally if these
meetings were not more than accidental. They became more and more
numerous as the weeks went by and as the tension in town heightened
over negro outrages. But why did he seek her out, now of all times
when she looked her worst? Certainly he had no designs upon her if he
had ever had any, and she was beginning to doubt even this. It had
been months since he made any joking references to their distressing
scene at the Yankee jail. He never mentioned Ashley and her love for
him, or made any coarse and ill-bred remarks about “coveting her.”
She thought it best to let sleeping dogs lie, so she did not ask for
an explanation of their frequent meetings. And finally she decided
that, because he had little to do besides gamble and had few enough
nice friends in Atlanta, he sought her out solely for companionship’s
sake.
Whatever his reason might be, she found
his company most welcome. He listened to her moans about lost
customers and bad debts, the swindling ways of Mr. Johnson and the
incompetency of Hugh. He applauded her triumphs, where Frank merely
smiled indulgently and Pitty said “Dear me!” in a dazed manner.
She was sure that rich Yankees and Carpetbaggers intimately, but he
always denied being helpful. She knew him for what he was and she
never trusted him, but her spirits always rose with pleasure at the
sight of him riding around the curve of a shady road on his big black
horse. When he climbed into the buggy and took the reins from her and
threw her some impertinent remark, she felt young and gay and
attractive again, for an her worries and her increasing bulk. She
could talk to him about almost everything, with no care for
concealing her motives or her real opinions and she never ran out of
things to say as she did with Frank—or even with Ashley, if she
must be honest with herself. But of course, in all her conversations
with Ashley there were so many things which could not be said, for
honor’s sake, that the sheer force of them inhibited other remarks.
It was comforting to have a friend like Rhett, now that for some
unaccountable reason he had decided to be on good behavior with her.
Very comforting, for she had so few friends these days.
“Rhett,” she asked stormily,
shortly after Uncle Peter’s ultimatum, “why do folks in this town
treat me so scurvily and talk about me so? It’s a toss-up who they
talk worst about, me or the Carpetbaggers! I’ve minded my own
business and haven’t done anything wrong and—”
“If you haven’t done anything
wrong, it’s because you haven’t had the opportunity, and perhaps
they dimly realize it.”
“Oh, do be serious! They make me so
mad. All I’ve done is try to make a little money and—”
“All you’ve done is to be different
from other women and you’ve made a little success at it. As I’ve
told you before, that is the one unforgivable sin in any society. Be
different and be damned! Scarlett, the mere fact that you’ve made a
success of your mill is an insult to every man who hasn’t
succeeded. Remember, a well-bred female’s place is in the home and
she should know nothing about this busy, brutal world.”
“But if I had stayed in my home, I
wouldn’t have had any home left to stay in.”
“The inference is that you should
have starved genteelly and with pride.”
“Oh, fiddle-dee-dee! But look at Mrs.
Merriwether. She’s selling pies to Yankees and that’s worse than
running a sawmill, and Mrs. Elsing takes in sewing and keeps
boarders, and Fanny paints awful-looking china things that nobody
wants and everybody buys to help her and—”
“But you miss the point, my pet. They
aren’t successful and so they aren’t affronting the hot Southern
pride of their men folks. The men can still say, ‘Poor sweet
sillies, how hard they try! Well, I’ll let them think they’re
helping.’ And besides, the ladies you mentioned don’t enjoy
having to work. They let it be known that they are only doing it
until some man conies along to relieve them of their unwomanly
burdens. And so everybody feels sorry for them. But obviously you do
like to work and obviously you aren’t going to let any man tend to
your business for you, and so no one can feel sorry for you. And
Atlanta is never going to forgive you for that. It’s so pleasant to
feel sorry for people.”
“I wish you’d be serious,
sometimes.”
“Did you ever hear the Oriental
proverb: The dogs bark but the caravan passes on?” Let them bark,
Scarlett. I fear nothing will stop your caravan.”
“But why should they mind my making a
little money?”
“You can’t have everything,
Scarlett. You can either make money in your present unladylike manner
and meet cold shoulders everywhere you go, or you can be poor and
genteel and have lots of friends. You’ve made your choice.”
“I won’t be poor,” she said
swiftly. “But—it is the right choice, isn’t it?”
“If it’s money you want most.”
“Yes, I want money more than anything
else in the world.”
“Then you’ve made the only choice.
But there’s a penalty attached, as there is to most things you
want. It’s loneliness.”
That silenced her for a moment. It was
true. When she stopped to think about it, she was a little
lonely—lonely for feminine companionship. During the war years she
had had Ellen to visit when she felt blue. And since Ellen’s death,
there had always been Melanie, though she and Melanie had nothing in
common except the hard work at Tara. Now there was no one, for Aunt
Pitty had no conception of life beyond her small round of gossip.
“I think—I think,” she began
hesitantly, “that I’ve always been lonely where women were
concerned. It isn’t just my working that makes Atlanta ladies
dislike me. They just don’t like me anyway. No woman ever really
liked me, except Mother. Even my sisters. I don’t know why, but
even before the war, even before I married Charlie, ladies didn’t
seem to approve of anything I did—”
“You forget Mrs. Wilkes,” said
Rhett and his eyes gleamed maliciously. “She has always approved of
you up to the hilt. I daresay she’d approve of anything you did,
short of murder.”
Scarlett thought grimly: “She’s
even approved of murder,” and she laughed contemptuously.
“Oh, Melly!” she said, and then,
ruefully: “It’s certainly not to my credit that Melly is the only
woman who approves of me, for she hasn’t the sense of a guinea hen.
If she had any sense—” She stopped in some confusion.
“If she had any sense, she’d
realize a few things and she couldn’t approve,” Rhett finished.
“Well, you know more about that than I do, of course.”
“Oh, damn your memory and your bad
manners!”
“I’ll pass over your unjustified
rudeness with the silence it deserves and return to our former
subject. Make up your mind to this. If you are different; you are
isolated, not only from people of your own age but from those of your
parents’ generation and from your children’s generation too.
They’ll never understand you and they’ll be shocked no matter
what you do. But your grandparents would probably be proud of you and
say: ‘There’s a chip off the old block,’ and your grandchildren
will sigh enviously and say: ‘What an old rip Grandma must have
been!’ and they’ll try to be like you.”
Scarlett laughed with amusement.
“Sometimes you do hit on the truth!
Now there was my Grandma Robillard. Mammy used to hold her over my
head whenever I was naughty. Grandma was as cold as an icicle and
strict about her manners and everybody else’s manners, but she
married three times and had any number of duels fought over her and
she wore rouge and the most shockingly low-cut dresses and no—well,
er—not much under her dresses.”
“And you admired her tremendously,
for all that you tried to be like your mother! I had a grandfather on
the Butler side who was a pirate.”
“Not really! A walk-the-plank kind?”
“I daresay he made people walk the
plank if there was any money to be made that way. At any rate, he
made enough money to leave my father quite wealthy. But the family
always referred to him carefully as a ‘sea captain.’ He was
killed in a saloon brawl long before I was born. His death was,
needless to say, a great relief to his children, for the old
gentleman was drunk most of the time and when in his cups was apt to
forget that he was a retired sea captain and give reminiscences that
curled his children’s hair. However, I admired him and tried to
copy him far more than I ever did my father, for Father is an amiable
gentleman full of honorable habits and pious saws—so you see how it
goes. I’m sure your children won’t approve of you, Scarlett, any
more than Mrs. Merriwether and Mrs. Elsing and their broods approve
of you now. Your children will probably be soft, prissy creatures, as
the children of hard-bitten characters usually are. And to make them
worse, you, like every other mother, are probably determined that
they shall never know the hardships you’ve known. And that’s all
wrong. Hardships make or break people. So you’ll have to wait for
approval from your grandchildren.”
“I wonder what our grandchildren will
be like!”
“Are you suggesting by that ‘our’
that you and I will have mutual grandchildren? Fie, Mrs. Kennedy!”
Scarlett, suddenly conscious of her
error of speech, went red. It was more than his joking words that
shamed her, for she was suddenly aware again of her thickening body.
In no way had either of them ever hinted at her condition and she had
always kept the lap robe high under her armpits when with him, even
on warm days, comforting herself in the usual feminine manner with
the belief that she did not show at all when thus covered, and she
was suddenly sick with quick rage at her own condition and shame that
he should know.
“You get out of this buggy, you
dirty-minded varmint,” she said, her voice shaking.
“I’ll do nothing of the kind,” he
returned calmly. “It’ll be dark before you get home and there’s
a new colony of darkies living in tents and shanties near the next
spring, mean niggers I’ve been told, and I see no reason why you
should give the impulsive Ku Klux a cause for putting on their
nightshirts and riding abroad this evening.”
“Get out!” she cried, tugging at
the reins and suddenly nausea overwhelmed her. He stopped the horse
quickly, passed her two clean handkerchiefs and held her head over
the side of the buggy with some skill. The afternoon sun, slanting
low through the newly leaved trees, spun sickeningly for a few
moments in a swirl of gold and green. When the spell had passed, she
put her head in her hands and cried from sheer mortification. Not
only had she vomited before a man—in itself as horrible a
contretemps as could overtake a woman—but by doing so, the
humiliating fact of her pregnancy must now be evident. She felt that
she could never look him in the face again. To have this happen with
him, of all people, with Rhett who had no respect for women! She
cried, expecting some coarse and jocular remark from him which she
would never be able to forget.
“Don’t be a fool,” he said
quietly. “And you are a fool, if you are crying for shame. Come,
Scarlett, don’t be a child. Surely you must know that, not being
blind, I knew you were pregnant.”
She said “Oh” in a stunned voice
and tightened her fingers over her crimson face. The word itself
horrified her. Frank always referred to her pregnancy embarrassedly
as “your condition,” Gerald had been won’t to say delicately
“in the family way,” when he had to mention such matters, and
ladies genteelly referred to pregnancy as being “in a fix.”
“You are a child if you thought I
didn’t know, for all your smothering yourself under that hot lap
robe. Of course, I knew. Why else do you think I’ve been—”
He stopped suddenly and a silence fell
between them. He picked up the reins and clucked to the horse. He
went on talking quietly and as his drawl fell pleasantly on her ears,
some of the color faded from her down-tucked face.
“I didn’t think you could be so
shocked, Scarlett. I thought you were a sensible person and I’m
disappointed. Can it be possible that modesty still lingers in your
breast? I’m afraid I’m not a gentleman to have mentioned the
matter. And I know I’m not a gentleman, in view of the fact that
pregnant women do not embarrass me as they should. I find it possible
to treat them as normal creatures and not look at the ground or the
sky or anywhere else in the universe except their waist lines—and
then cast at them those furtive glances I’ve always thought the
height of indecency. Why should I? It’s a perfectly normal state.
The Europeans are far more sensible than we are. They compliment
expectant mothers upon their expectations. While I wouldn’t advise
going that far, still it’s more sensible than our way of trying to
ignore it. It’s a normal state and women should be proud of it,
instead of hiding behind closed doors as if they’d committed a
crime.”
“Proud!” she cried in a strangled
voice. “Proud—ugh!”
“Aren’t you proud to be having a
child?”
“Oh dear God, no! I—I hate babies!”
“You mean—Frank’s baby.”
“No—anybody’s baby.”
For a moment she went sick again at
this new error of speech, but his voice went on as easily as though
he had not marked it.
“Then we’re different. I like
babies.”
“You like them?” she cried, looking
up, so startled at the statement that she forgot her embarrassment
“What a liar you are!”
“I like babies and I like little
children, till they begin to grow up and acquire adult habits of
thought and adult abilities to lie and cheat and be dirty. That can’t
be news to you. You know I like Wade Hampton a lot, for all that he
isn’t the boy he ought to be.”
That was true, thought Scarlett,
suddenly marveling. He did seem to enjoy playing with Wade and often
brought him presents.
“Now that we’ve brought this
dreadful subject into the light and you admit that you expect a baby
some time in the not too distant future, I’ll say something I’ve
been wanting to say for weeks—two things. The first is that it’s
dangerous for you to drive alone. You know it. You’ve been told it
often enough. If you don’t care personally whether or not you are
raped, you might consider the consequences. Because of your
obstinacy, you may get yourself into a situation where your gallant
fellow townsmen will be forced to avenge you by stringing up a few
darkies. And that will bring the Yankees down on them and someone
will probably get hanged. Has it ever occurred to you that perhaps
one of the reasons the ladies do not like you is that your conduct
may cause the neck-stretching of their sons and husbands? And
furthermore, if the Ku Klux handles many more negroes, the Yankees
are going to tighten up on Atlanta in a way that will make Sherman’s
conduct look angelic. I know what I’m talking about, for I’m hand
in glove with the Yankees. Shameful to state, they treat me as one of
them and I hear them talk openly. They mean to stamp out the Ku Klux
if it means burning the whole town again and hanging every male over
ten. That would hurt you, Scarlett. You might lose money. And there’s
no telling where a prairie fire will stop, once it gets started.
Confiscation of property, higher taxes, fines for suspected
women—I’ve heard them all suggested. The Ku Klux—”
“Do you know any Ku Klux? Is Tommy
Wellburn or Hugh or—”
He shrugged impatiently.
“How should I know? I’m a renegade,
a turncoat, a Scalawag. Would I be likely to know? But I do know men
who are suspected by the Yankees and one false move from them and
they are as good as hanged. While I know you would have no regrets at
getting your neighbors on the gallows, I do believe you’d regret
losing your mills. I see by the stubborn look on your face that you
do not believe me and my words are falling on stony ground. So all I
can say is, keep that pistol of yours handy—and when I’m in town,
I’ll try to be on hand to drive you.”
“Rhett, do you really—is it to
protect me that you—”
“Yes, my dear, it is my much
advertised chivalry that makes me protect you.” The mocking light
began to dance in his black eyes and all signs of earnestness fled
from his face. “And why? Because of my deep love for you, Mrs.
Kennedy. Yes, I have silently hungered and thirsted for you and
worshipped you from afar; but being an honorable man, like Mr. Ashley
Wilkes, I have concealed it from you. You are, alas, Frank’s wife
and honor has forbidden my telling this to you. But even as Mr.
Wilkes’ honor cracks occasionally, so mine is cracking now and I
reveal my secret passion and my—”
“Oh, for God’s sake, hush!”
interrupted Scarlett, annoyed as usual when he made her look like a
conceited fool, and not caring to have Ashley and his honor become
the subject of further conversation. “What was the other thing you
wanted to tell me?”
“What! You change the subject when I
am baring a loving but lacerated heart? Well, the other thing is
this.” The mocking light died out of his eyes again and his face
was dark and quiet.
“I want you to do something about
this horse. He’s stubborn and he’s got a mouth as tough as iron.
Tires you to drive him, doesn’t it? Well, if he chose to bolt, you
couldn’t possibly stop him. And if you turned over in a ditch, it
might kill your baby and you too. You ought to get the heaviest curb
bit you can, or else let me swap him for a gentle horse with a more
sensitive mouth.”
She looked up into his blank, smooth
face and suddenly her irritation fell away, even as her embarrassment
had disappeared after the conversation about her pregnancy. He had
been kind, a few moments before, to put her at her ease when she was
wishing that she were dead. And he was being kinder now and very
thoughtful about the horse. She felt a rush of gratitude to him and
she wondered why he could not always be this way.
“The horse is hard to drive,” she
agreed meekly. “Sometimes my arms ache all night from tugging at
him. You do what you think best about him, Rhett.”
His eyes sparkled wickedly.
“That sounds very sweet and feminine,
Mrs. Kennedy. Not in your usual masterful vein at all. Well, it only
takes proper handling to make a clinging vine out of you.”
She scowled and her temper came back.
“You will get out of this buggy this
time, or I will hit you with the whip. I don’t know why I put up
with you—why I try to be nice to you. You have no manners. You have
no morals. You are nothing but a— Well, get out I mean it.”
But when he had climbed down and untied
his horse from the back of the buggy and stood in the twilight road,
grinning tantalizingly at her, she could not smother her own grin as
she drove off.
Yes, he was coarse, he was tricky, he
was unsafe to have dealings with, and you never could tell when the
dull weapon you put into his hands in an unguarded moment might turn
into the keenest of blades. But, after all, he was as stimulating
as—well, as a surreptitious glass of brandy!
During these months Scarlett had
learned the use of brandy. When she came home in the late afternoons,
damp from the rain, cramped and aching from long hours in the buggy,
nothing sustained her except the thought of the bottle hidden in her
top bureau drawer, locked against Mammy’s prying eyes. Dr. Meade
had not thought to warn her that a woman in her condition should not
drink, for it never occurred to him that a decent woman would drink
anything stronger than scuppernong wine. Except, of course, a glass
of champagne at a wedding or a hot toddy when confined to bed with a
hard cold. Of course, there were unfortunate women who drank, to the
eternal disgrace of their families, just as there were women who were
insane or divorced or who believed, with Miss Susan B. Anthony, that
women should have the vote. But as much as the doctor disapproved of
Scarlett, he never suspected her of drinking.
Scarlett had found that a drink of neat
brandy before supper helped immeasurably and she would always chew
coffee or gargle cologne to disguise the smell. Why were people so
silly about women drinking, when men could and did get reeling drunk
whenever they wanted to? Sometimes when Frank lay snoring beside her
and sleep would not come, when she lay tossing, torn with fears of
poverty, dreading the Yankees, homesick for Tara and yearning for
Ashley, she thought she would go crazy were it not for the brandy
bottle. And when the pleasant familiar warmth stole through her
veins, her troubles began to fade. After three drinks, she could
always say to herself: “I’ll think of these things tomorrow when
I can stand them better.”
But there were some nights when even
brandy would not still the ache in her heart, the ache that was even
stronger than fear of losing the mills, the ache to see Tara again.
Atlanta, with its noises, its new buildings, its strange faces, its
narrow streets crowded with horses and wagons and bustling crowds
sometimes seemed to stifle her. She loved Atlanta but—oh, for the
sweet peace and country quiet of Tara, the red fields and the dark
pines about it! Oh, to be back at Tara, no matter how hard the life
might be! And to be near Ashley, just to see him, to hear him speak,
to be sustained by the knowledge of his love! Each letter from
Melanie, saying that they were well, each brief note from Will
reporting about the plowing, the planting, the growing of the cotton
made her long anew to be home again.
I’ll go home in June. I can’t do
anything here after that. I’ll go home for a couple of months, she
thought, and her heart would rise. She did go home in June but not as
she longed to go, for early in that month came a brief message from
Will that Gerald was dead.
CHAPTER XXXIX
THE TRAIN was very late and the long,
deeply blue twilight of June was settling over the countryside when
Scarlett alighted in Jonesboro. Yellow gleams of lamplight showed in
the stores and houses which remained in the village, but they were
few. Here and there were wide gaps between the buildings on the main
street where dwellings had been shelled or burned. Ruined houses with
shell holes in their roofs and half the walls torn away stared at
her, silent and dark. A few saddle horses and mule teams were hitched
outside the wooden awning of Bullard’s store. The dusty red road
was empty and lifeless, and the only sounds in the village were a few
whoops and drunken laughs that floated on the still twilight air from
a saloon far down the street.
The depot had not been rebuilt since it
was burned in the battle and in its place was only a wooden shelter,
with no sides to keep out the weather. Scarlett walked under it and
sat down on one of the empty kegs that were evidently put there for
seats. She peered up and down the street for Will Benteen. Will
should have been here to meet her. He should have known she would
take the first tram possible after receiving his laconic message that
Gerald was dead.
She had come so hurriedly that she had
in her small carpetbag only a nightgown and a tooth brush, not even a
change of underwear. She was uncomfortable in the tight black dress
she had borrowed from Mrs. Meade, for she had had no time to get
mourning clothes for herself. Mrs. Meade was thin now, and Scarlett’s
pregnancy being advanced, the dress was doubly uncomfortable. Even in
her sorrow at Gerald’s death, she did not forget the appearance she
was making and she looked down at her body with distaste. Her figure
was completely gone and her face and ankles were puffy. Heretofore
she had not cared very much how she looked but now that she would see
Ashley within the hour she cared greatly. Even in her heartbreak, she
shrank from the thought of facing him when she was carrying another
man’s child. She loved him and he loved her, and this unwanted
child now seemed to her a proof of infidelity to that love. But much
as she disliked having him see her with the slenderness gone from her
waist and the lightness from her step, it was something she could not
escape now.
She patted her foot impatiently. Will
should have met her. Of course, she could go over to Bullard’s and
inquire after him or ask someone there to drive her over to Tara,
should she find he had been unable to come. But she did not want to
go to Bullard’s. It was Saturday night and probably half the men of
the County would be there. She did not want to display her condition
in this poorly fitting black dress which accentuated rather than hid
her figure. And she did not want to hear the kindly sympathy that
would be poured out about Gerald. She did not want sympathy. She was
afraid she would cry if anyone even mentioned his name to her. And
she wouldn’t cry. She knew if she once began it would be like the
time she cried into the horse’s mane, that dreadful night when
Atlanta fell and Rhett had left her on the dark road outside the
town, terrible tears that tore her heart and could not be stopped.
No, she wouldn’t cry! She felt the
lump in her throat rising again, as it had done so often since the
news came, but crying wouldn’t do any good. It would only confuse
and weaken her. Why, oh, why hadn’t Will or Melanie or the girls
written her that Gerald was ailing? She would have taken the first
train to Tara to care for him, brought a doctor from Atlanta if
necessary. The fools—all of them! Couldn’t they manage anything
without her? She couldn’t be in two places at once and the good
Lord knew she was doing her best for them all in Atlanta.
She twisted about on the keg, becoming
nervous and fidgety as Will still did not come. Where was he? Then
she heard the scrunching of cinders on the railroad tracks behind her
and, twisting her body, she saw Alex Fontaine crossing the tracks
toward a wagon, a sack of oats on his shoulder.
“Good Lord! Isn’t that you,
Scarlett?” he cried, dropping the sack and running to take her
hand, pleasure written all over his bitter, swarthy little face. “I’m
so glad to see you. I saw Will over at the blacksmith’s shop,
getting the horse shod. The train was late and he thought he’d have
time. Shall I run fetch him?”
“Yes, please, Alex,” she said,
smiling in spite of her sorrow. It was good to see a County face
again.
“Oh—er—Scarlett,” he began
awkwardly, still holding her hand, I’m mighty sorry about your
father.”
“Thank you,” she replied, wishing
he had not said it. His words brought up Gerald’s florid face and
bellowing voice so clearly.
“If it’s any comfort to you,
Scarlett, we’re mighty proud of him around here,” Alex continued,
dropping her hand. “He—well, we figure he died like a soldier and
in a soldier’s cause.”
Now what did he mean by that, she
thought confusedly. A soldier? Had someone shot him? Had he gotten
into a fight with the Scalawags as Tony had? But she mustn’t hear
more. She would cry if she talked about him and she mustn’t cry,
not until she was safely in the wagon with Will and out in the
country where no stranger could see her. Will wouldn’t matter. He
was just like a brother.
“Alex, I don’t want to talk about
it,” she said shortly.
“I don’t blame you one bit,
Scarlett,” said Alex while the dark blood of anger flooded his
face. “If it was my sister, I’d—well, Scarlett, I’ve never
yet said a harsh word about any woman, but personally I think
somebody ought to take a rawhide whip to Suellen.”
What foolishness was he talking about
now, she wondered. What had Suellen to do with it all?
“Everybody around here feels the same
way about her, I’m sorry to say. Will’s the only one who takes up
for her—and, of course, Miss Melanie, but she’s a saint and won’t
see bad in anyone and—”
“I said I didn’t want to talk about
it,” she said coldly but Alex did not seem rebuffed. He looked as
though he understood her rudeness and that was annoying. She didn’t
want to hear bad tidings about her own family from an outsider,
didn’t want him to know of her ignorance of what had happened. Why
hadn’t Will sent her the full details?
She wished Alex wouldn’t look at her
so hard. She felt that he realized her condition and it embarrassed
her. But what Alex was thinking as he peered at her in the twilight
was that her face had changed so completely he wondered how he had
ever recognized her. Perhaps it was because she was going to have a
baby. Women did look like the devil at such times. And, of course,
she must be feeling badly about old man O’Hara. She had been his
pet. But, no, the change was deeper than that. She really looked as
if she had three square meals a day. And the hunted-animal look had
partly gone from her eyes. Now, the eyes which had been fearful and
desperate were hard. There was an air of command, assurance and
determination about her, even when she smiled. Bet she led old Frank
a merry life! Yes, she had changed. She was a handsome woman, to be
sure, but all that pretty, sweet softness had gone from her face and
that flattering way of looking up at a man, like he knew more than
God Almighty, had utterly vanished.
Well, hadn’t they all changed? Alex
looked down at his rough clothes and his face fell into its usual
bitter lines. Sometimes at night when he lay awake, wondering how his
mother was going to get that operation and how poor dead Joe’s
little boy was going to get an education and how he was going to get
money for another mule, he wished the war was still going on, wished
it had gone on forever. They didn’t know their luck then. There was
always something to eat in the army, even if it was just corn bread,
always somebody to give orders and none of this torturing sense of
facing problems that couldn’t be solved—nothing to bother about
in the army except getting killed. And then there was Dimity Munroe.
Alex wanted to marry her and he knew he couldn’t when so many were
already looking to him for support. He had loved her for so long and
now the roses were fading from her cheeks and the joy from her eyes.
If only Tony hadn’t had to run away to Texas. Another man on the
place would make all the difference in the world. His lovable
bad-tempered little brother, penniless somewhere in the West. Yes,
they had all changed. And why not? He sighed heavily.
“I haven’t thanked you for what you
and Frank did for Tony,” he said. “It was you who helped him get
away, wasn’t it? It was fine of you. I heard in a roundabout way
that he was safe in Texas. I was afraid to write and ask you—but
did you or Frank lend him any money? I want to repay—”
“Oh, Alex, please hush! Not now!”
cried Scarlett For once, money meant nothing to her.
Alex was silent for a moment.
“I’ll get Will for you,” he said,
“and we’ll all be over tomorrow for the funeral.”
As he picked up the sack of oats and
turned away, a wobbly-wheeled wagon swayed out of a side street and
creaked up to them. Will called from the seat: “I’m sorry I’m
late, Scarlett.”
Climbing awkwardly down from the wagon,
he stumped toward her and, bending, kissed her cheek. Will had never
kissed her before, had never failed to precede her name with “Miss”
and, while it surprised her, it warmed her heart and pleased her very
much. He lifted her carefully over the wheel and into the wagon and,
looking down, she saw that it was the same old rickety wagon in which
she had fled from Atlanta. How had it ever held together so long?
Will must have kept it patched up very well. It made her slightly
sick to look at it and to remember that night. If it took the shoes
off her feet or food from Aunt Pitty’s table, she’d see that
there was a new wagon at Tara and this one burned.
Will did not speak at first and
Scarlett was grateful. He threw his battered straw hat into the back
of the wagon, clucked to the horse and they moved off. Will was just
the same, lank and gangling, pink of hair, mild of eye, patient as a
draft animal.
They left the village behind and turned
into the red road to Tara. A faint pink still lingered about the
edges of the sky and fat feathery clouds were tinged with gold and
palest green. The stillness of the country twilight came down about
them as calming as a prayer. How had she ever borne it, she thought,
away for all these months, away from the fresh smell of country air,
the plowed earth and the sweetness of summer nights? The moist red
earth smelled so good, so familiar, so friendly, she wanted to get
out and scoop up a handful. The honeysuckle which draped the gullied
red sides of the road in tangled greenery was piercingly fragrant as
always after rain, the sweetest perfume in the world. Above their
heads a flock of chimney swallows whirled suddenly on swift wings and
now and then a rabbit scurried startled across the road, his white
tail bobbing like an eiderdown powder puff. She saw with pleasure
that the cotton stood well, as they passed between plowed fields
where the green bushes reared themselves sturdily out of the red
earth. How beautiful all this was! The soft gray mist in the swampy
bottoms, the red earth and growing cotton, the sloping fields with
curving green rows and the black pines rising behind everything like
sable walls. How had she ever stayed in Atlanta so long?
“Scarlett, before I tell you about
Mr. O’Hara—and I want to tell you everything before you get
home—I want to ask your opinion on a matter. I figger you’re the
head of the house now.”
“What is it, Will?”
He turned his mild sober gaze on her
for a moment.
“I just wanted your approval to my
marryin’ Suellen.”
Scarlett clutched the seat, so
surprised that she almost fell backwards. Marry Suellen! She’d
never thought of anybody marrying Suellen since she had taken Frank
Kennedy from her. Who would have Suellen?
“Goodness, Will!”
“Then I take it you don’t mind?”
“Mind? No, but— Why, Will, you’ve
taken my breath away! You marry Suellen? Will, I always thought you
were sweet on Carreen.”
Will kept his eyes on the horse and
flapped the reins. His profile did not change but she thought he
sighed slightly.
“Maybe I was,” he said.
“Well, won’t she have you?”
“I never asked her.”
“Oh, Will, you’re a fool. Ask her.
She’s worth two of Suellen!”
“Scarlett, you don’t know a lot of
things that’s been going on at Tara. You ain’t favored us with
much of your attention these last months.”
“I haven’t, haven’t I?” she
flared. “What do you suppose I’ve been doing in Atlanta? Riding
around in a coach and four and going to balls? Haven’t I sent you
money every month? Haven’t I paid the taxes and fixed the roof and
bought the new plow and the mules? Haven’t—”
“Now, don’t fly off the handle and
get your Irish up,” he interrupted imperturbably. “If anybody
knows what you’ve done, I do, and it’s been two men’s work.”
Slightly mollified, she questioned,
“Well then, what do you mean?”
“Well, you’ve kept the roof over us
and food in the pantry and I ain’t denyin’ that, but you ain’t
given much thought to what’s been goin’ on in anybody’s head
here at Tara. I ain’t blamin’ you, Scarlett. That’s just your
way. You warn’t never very much interested in what was in folks’
heads. But what I’m tryin’ to tell you is that I didn’t never
ask Miss Carreen because I knew it wouldn’t be no use. She’s been
like a little sister to me and I guess she talks to me plainer than
to anybody in the world. But she never got over that dead boy and she
never will. And I might as well tell you now she’s aimin’ to go
in a convent over to Charleston.”
“Are you joking?”
“Well, I knew it would take you back
and I just want to ask you, Scarlett, don’t you argue with her
about it or scold her or laugh at her. Let her go. It’s all she
wants now. Her heart’s broken.”
“But God’s nightgown! Lots of
people’s hearts have been broken and they didn’t run off to
convents. Look at me. I lost a husband.”
“But your heart warn’t broken,”
Will said calmly and, picking up a straw from the bottom of the
wagon, he put it in his mouth and chewed slowly. That remark took the
wind out of her. As always when she heard the truth spoken, no matter
how unpalatable it was, basic honesty forced her to acknowledge it as
truth. She was silent a moment, trying to accustom herself to the
idea of Carreen as a nun.
“Promise you won’t fuss at her.”
“Oh, well, I promise,” and then she
looked at him with a new understanding and some amazement. Will had
loved Carreen, loved her now enough to take her part and make her
retreat easy. And yet he wanted to marry Suellen.
“Well, what’s all this about
Suellen? You don’t care for her, do you?”
“Oh, yes, I do in a way,” he said
removing the straw and surveying it as if it were highly interesting.
“Suellen ain’t as bad as you think, Scarlett. I think we’ll get
along right well. The only trouble with Suellen is that she needs a
husband and some children and that’s just what every woman needs.”
The wagon jolted over the rutty road
and for a few minutes while the two sat silent Scarlett’s mind was
busy. There must be something more to it than appeared on the
surface, something deeper, more important, to make the mild and
soft-spoken Will want to marry a complaining nagger like Suellen.
“You haven’t told me the real
reason, Will. If I’m head of the family, I’ve got a right to
know.”
“That’s right,” said Will, “and
I guess you’ll understand. I can’t leave Tara. It’s home to me,
Scarlett, the only real home I ever knew and I love every stone of
it. I’ve worked on it like it was mine. And when you put out work
on somethin’, you come to love it. You know what I mean?”
She knew what he meant and her heart
went out in a surge of warm affection for him, hearing him say he,
too, loved the thing she loved best.
“And I figger it this way. With your
pa gone and Carreen a nun, there’ll be just me and Suellen left
here and, of course, I couldn’t live on at Tara without marryin’
Suellen. You know how folks talk.”
“But—but Will, there’s Melanie
and Ashley—”
At Ashley’s name he turned and looked
at her, his pale eyes unfathomable. She had the old feeling that Will
knew all about her and Ashley, understood all and did not either
censure or approve.
“They’ll be goin’ soon.”
“Going? Where? Tara is their home as
well as yours.”
“No, it ain’t their home. That’s
just what’s eatin’ on Ashley. It ain’t his home and he don’t
feel like he’s earnin’ his keep. He’s a mighty pore farmer and
he knows it. God knows he tries his best but he warn’t cut out for
farmin’ and you know it as well as I do. If he splits kindlin’,
like as not he’ll slice off his foot. He can’t no more keep a
plow straight in a furrow than little Beau can, and what he don’t
know about makin’ things grow would fill a book. It ain’t his
fault. He just warn’t bred for it. And it worries him that he’s a
man livin’ at Tara on a woman’s charity and not givin’ much in
return.”
“Charity? Has he ever said—”
“No, he’s never said a word. You
know Ashley. But I can tell. Last night when we were sittin’ up
with your pa, I tole him I had asked Suellen and she’d said Yes.
And then Ashley said that relieved him because he’d been feelin’
like a dog, stayin’ on at Tara, and he knew he and Miss Melly would
have to keep stayin’ on, now that Mr. O’Hara was dead, just to
keep folks from talkin’ about me and Suellen. So then he told me he
was aimin’ to leave Tara and get work.”
“Work? What kind? Where?”
“I don’t know exactly what he’ll
do but he said he was goin’ up North. He’s got a Yankee friend in
New York who wrote him about workin’ in a bank up there.”
“Oh, no!” cried Scarlett from the
bottom of her heart and, at the cry, Will gave her the same look as
before.
“Maybe ‘twould be better all ‘round
if he did go North.”
“No! No! I don’t think so.”
Her mind was working feverishly. Ashley
couldn’t go North! She might never see him again. Even though she
had not seen him in months, had not spoken to him alone since that
fateful scene in the orchard, there had not been a day when she had
not thought of him, been glad he was sheltered under her roof. She
had never sent a dollar to Will that she had not been pleased that it
would make Ashley’s life easier. Of course, he wasn’t any good as
a farmer. Ashley was bred for better things, she thought proudly. He
was born to rule, to live in a large house, ride fine horses, read
books of poetry and tell negroes what to do. That there were no more
mansions and horses and negroes and few books did not alter matters.
Ashley wasn’t bred to plow and split rails. No wonder he wanted to
leave Tara.
But she could not let him go away from
Georgia. If necessary, she would bully Frank into giving him a job in
the store, make Frank turn off the boy he now had behind the counter.
But, no—Ashley’s place was no more behind a counter than it was
behind a plow. A Wilkes a shopkeeper! Oh, never that! There must be
something—why, her mill of course! Her relief at the thought was so
great that she smiled. But would he accept an offer from her? Would
he still think it was charity? She must manage it so he would think
he was doing her a favor. She would discharge Mr. Johnson and put
Ashley in charge of the old mill while Hugh operated the new one. She
would explain to Ashley how Frank’s ill health and the pressure of
work at the store kept him from helping her, and she would plead her
condition as another reason why she needed his help.
She would make him realize somehow that
she couldn’t do without his aid at this time. And she would give
him a half-interest in the mill, if he would only take it
over—anything just to have him near her, anything to see that
bright smile light up his face, anything for the chance of catching
an unguarded look in his eyes that showed he still cared. But, she
promised herself, never, never would she again try to prod him into
words of love, never again would she try to make him throw away that
foolish honor he valued more than love. Somehow, she must delicately
convey to him this new resolution of hers. Otherwise he might refuse,
fearing another scene such as that last terrible one had been.
“I can get him something to do in
Atlanta,” she said.
“Well, that’s yours and Ashley’s
business,” said Will and put the straw back in his mouth. “Giddap,
Sherman. Now, Scarlett, there’s somethin’ else I’ve got to ask
you before I tell you about your pa. I won’t have you lightin’
into Suellen. What she’s done, she’s done, and you snatchin’
her baldheaded won’t bring Mr. O’Hara back. Besides she honestly
thought she was actin’ for the best!”
“I wanted to ask you about that What
is all this about Suellen? Alex talked riddles and said she ought to
be whipped. What has she done?”
“Yes, folks are pretty riled up about
her. Everybody I run into this afternoon in Jonesboro was promisin’
to cut her dead the next time they seen her, but maybe they’ll get
over it. Now, promise me you won’t light into her. I won’t be
havin’ no quarrelin’ tonight with Mr. O’Hara layin’ dead in
the parlor.”
He won’t be having any quarreling!
thought Scarlett, indignantly. He talks like Tara was his already!
And then she thought of Gerald, dead in
the parlor, and suddenly she began to cry, cry in bitter, gulping
sobs. Will put his arm around her, drew her comfortably close and
said nothing.
As they jolted slowly down the
darkening road, her head on his shoulder, her bonnet askew, she had
forgotten the Gerald of the last two years, the vague old gentleman
who stared at doors waiting for a woman who would never enter. She
was remembering the vital, virile old man with his mane of crisp
white hair, his bellowing cheerfulness, his stamping boots, his
clumsy jokes, his generosity. She remembered how, as a child, he had
seemed the most wonderful man in the world, this blustering father
who carried her before him on his saddle when he jumped fences,
turned her up and paddled her when she was naughty, and then cried
when she cried and gave her quarters to get her to hush. She
remembered him coming home from Charleston and Atlanta laden with
gifts that were never appropriate, remembered too, with a faint smile
through tears, how he came home in the wee hours from Court Day at
Jonesboro, drunk as seven earls, jumping fences, his rollicking voice
raised in “The Wearin’ o’ the Green.” And how abashed he was,
facing Ellen on the morning after. Well, he was with Ellen now.
“Why didn’t you write me that he
was ill? I’d have come so fast—”
“He warn’t ill, not a minute. Here,
honey, take my handkerchief and I’ll tell you all about it.”
She blew her nose on his bandanna, for
she had come from Atlanta without even a handkerchief, and settled
back into the crook of Will’s arm. How nice Will was. Nothing ever
upset him.
“Well, it was this way, Scarlett. You
been sendin’ us money right along and Ashley and me, well, we’ve
paid taxes and bought the mule and seeds and what-all and a few hogs
and chickens. Miss Melly’s done mighty well with the hens, yes sir,
she has. She’s a fine woman, Miss Melly is. Well, anyway, after we
bought things for Tara, there warn’t so much left over for
folderols, but none of us warn’t complainin’. Except Suellen.
“Miss Melanie and Miss Carreen stay
at home and wear their old clothes like they’re proud of them but
you know Suellen, Scarlett. She hasn’t never got used to doin’
without. It used to stick in her craw that she had to wear old
dresses every time I took her into Jonesboro or over to Fayetteville.
‘Specially as some of those Carpetbaggers’ ladi-women was always
flouncin’ around in fancy trimmin’s. The wives of those damn
Yankees that run the Freedmen’s Bureau, do they dress up! Well,
it’s kind of been a point of honor with the ladies of the County to
wear their worst-lookin’ dresses to town, just to show how they
didn’t care and was proud to wear them. But not Suellen. And she
wanted a hone and carriage too. She pointed out that you had one.”
It’s not a carriage, it’s an old
buggy,” said Scarlett indignantly.
“Well, no matter what. I might as
well tell you Suellen never has got over your marryin’ Frank
Kennedy and I don’t know as I blame her. You know that was a kind
of scurvy trick to play on a sister.”
Scarlett rose from his shoulder,
furious as a rattler ready to strike.
“Scurvy trick, hey? I’ll thank you
to keep a civil tongue in your head, Win Benteen! Could I help it if
he preferred me to her?”
“You’re a smart girl, Scarlett, and
I figger, yes, you could have helped him preferrin’ you. Girls
always can. But I guess you kind of coaxed him. You’re a mighty
takin’ person when you want to be, but all the same, he was
Suellen’s beau. Why, she’d had a letter from him a week before
you went to Atlanta and he was sweet as sugar about her and talked
about how they’d get married when he got a little more money ahead.
I know because she showed me the letter.”
Scarlett was silent because she knew he
was telling the truth and she could think of nothing to say. She had
never expected Will, of all people, to sit in judgment on her.
Moreover the lie she had told Frank had never weighed heavily upon
her conscience. If a girl couldn’t keep a beau, she deserved to
lose him.
“Now, Will, don’t be mean,” she
said. “If Suellen had married him, do you think she’d ever have
spent a penny on Tara or any of us?”
“I said you could be right takin’
when you wanted to,” said Will, turning to her with a quiet grin.
“No, I don’t think we’d ever seen a penny of old Frank’s
money. But still there’s no gettin’ ‘round it, it was a scurvy
trick and if you want to justify the end by the means, it’s none of
my business and who am I to complain? But just the same Suellen has
been like a hornet ever since. I don’t think she cared much about
old Frank but it kind of teched her vanity and she’s been sayin’
as how you had good clothes and a carriage and lived in Atlanta while
she was buried here at Tara. She does love to go callin’ and to
parties, you know, and wear pretty clothes. I ain’t blamin’ her.
Women are like that.
“Well, about a month ago I took her
into Jonesboro and left her to go callin’ while I tended to
business and when I took her home, she was still as a mouse but I
could see she was so excited she was ready to bust. I thought she’d
found out somebody was goin’ to have a—that she’d heard some
gossip that was interestin’, and I didn’t pay her much mind. She
went around home for about a week all swelled up and excited and
didn’t have much to say. She went over to see Miss Cathleen
Calvert—Scarlett, you’d cry your eyes out at Miss Cathleen. Pore
girl, she’d better be dead than married to that pusillanimous
Yankee Hilton. You knew he’d mortaged the place and lost it and
they’re goin’ to have to leave?”
“No, I didn’t know and I don’t
want to know. I want to know about Pa.”
“Well, I’m gettin’ to that,”
said Will patiently. “When she come back from over there she said
we’d all misjudged Hilton, She called him Mr. Hilton and she said
he was a smart man, but we just laughed at her. Then she took to
takin’ your pa out to walk in the afternoons and lots of times when
I was comin’ home from the field, I’d see her sittin’ with him
on the wall ‘round the buryin’ ground, talkin’ at him hard and
wavin’ her hands. And the old gentleman would just look at her sort
of puzzled-like and shake his head. You know how he’s been,
Scarlett. He just got kind of vaguer and vaguer, like he didn’t
hardly know where he was or who we were. One time, I seen her point
to your ma’s grave and the old gentleman begun to cry. And when she
come in the house all happy and excited lookin’, I gave her a
talkin’ to, right sharp, too, and I said: ‘Miss Suellen, why in
hell are you devilin’ your poor pa and bringin’ up your ma to
him? Most of the time he don’t realize she’s dead and here you
are rubbin’ it in.’ And she just kind of tossed her head and
laughed and said: ‘Mind your business. Some day you’ll be glad of
what I’m doin’.’ Miss Melanie told me last night that Suellen
had told her about her schemes but Miss Melly said she didn’t have
no notion Suellen was serious. She said she didn’t tell none of us
because she was so upset at the very idea.”
“What idea? Are you ever going to get
to the point? We’re halfway home now. I want to know about Pa.”
“I’m trying to tell you,” said
Will, “and we’re so near home, I guess I’d better stop right
here till I’ve finished.”
He drew rein and the horse stopped and
snorted. They had halted by the wild overgrown mock-orange hedge that
marked the Macintosh property. Glancing under the dark trees Scarlett
could just discern the tall ghostly chimneys still rearing above the
silent ruin. She wished that Will had chosen any other place to stop.
“Well, the long and the short of her
idea was to make the Yankees pay for the cotton they burned and the
stock they drove off and the fences and the barns they tore down.”
“The Yankees?”
“Haven’t you heard about it? The
Yankee government’s been payin’ claims on all destroyed property
of Union sympathizers in the South.”
“Of course I’ve heard about that,”
said Scarlett “But what’s that got to do with us?”
“A heap, in Suellen’s opinion. That
day I took her to Jonesboro, she run into Mrs. Macintosh and when
they were gossipin’ along, Suellen couldn’t help noticin’ what
fine-lookin’ clothes Mrs. Macintosh had on and she couldn’t help
askin’ about them. Then Mrs. Macintosh gave herself a lot of airs
and said as how her husband had put in a claim with the Federal
government for destroyin’ the property of a loyal Union sympathizer
who had never given aid and comfort to the Confederacy in any shape
or form.”
“They never gave aid and comfort to
anybody,” snapped Scarlett. “Scotch-Irish!”
“Well, maybe that’s true. I don’t
know them. Anyway, the government gave them, well—I forget how many
thousand dollars. A right smart sum it was, though. That started
Suellen. She thought about it all week and didn’t say nothin’ to
us because she knew we’d just laugh. But she just had to talk to
somebody so she went over to Miss Cathleen’s and that damned white
trash, Hilton, gave her a passel of new ideas. He pointed out that
your pa warn’t even born in this country, that he hadn’t fought
in the war and hadn’t had no sons to fight, and hadn’t never held
no office under the Confederacy. He said they could strain a point
about Mr. O’Hara bein’ a loyal Union sympathizer. He filled her
up with such truck and she come home and begun workin’ on Mr.
O’Hara. Scarlett, I bet my life your pa didn’t even know half the
time what she was talkin’ about. That was what she was countin’
on, that he would take the Iron Clad oath and not even know it.”
“Pa take the Iron Clad oath!” cried
Scarlett.
“Well, he’d gotten right feeble in
his mind these last months and I guess she was countin’ on that.
Mind you, none of us sospicioned nothin’ about it. We knew she was
cookin’ up somethin’, but we didn’t know she was usin’ your
dead ma to reproach him for his daughters bein’ in rags when he
could get a hundred and fifty thousand dollars out of the Yankees.”
“One hundred and fifty thousand
dollars,” murmured Scarlett, her horror at the oath fading.
What a lot of money that was! And to be
had for the mere signing of an oath of allegiance to the United
States government, an oath stating that the signer had always
supported the government and never given aid and comfort to its
enemies. One hundred and fifty thousand dollars! That much money for
that small a lie! Well, she couldn’t blame Suellen. Good heavens!
Was that what Alex meant by wanting to rawhide her? What the County
meant by intending to cut her? Fools, every one of them. What
couldn’t she do with that much money! What couldn’t any of the
folks in the County do with it! And what did so small a lie matter?
After all, anything you could get out of the Yankees was fair money,
no matter how you got it.
“Yesterday, about noon when Ashley
and me were splittin’ rails, Suellen got this wagon and got your pa
in it and off they went to town without a word to anybody. Miss Melly
had a notion what it was all about but she was prayin’ somethin’
would change Suellen, so she didn’t say nothin’ to the rest of
us. She just didn’t see how Suellen could do such a thing.
“Today I heard all about what
happened. That pusillanimous fellow, Hilton, had some influence with
the other Scalawags and Republicans in town and Suellen had agreed to
give them some of the money—I don’t know how much—if they’d
kind of wink their eye about Mr. O’Hara bein’ a loyal Union man
and play on how he was an Irishman and didn’t fight in the army and
so on, and sign recommendations. All your pa had to do was take the
oath and sign the paper and off it would go to Washington.
“They rattled off the oath real fast
and he didn’t say nothin’ and it went right well till she got him
up to the signin’ of it. And then the old gentleman kind of come to
himself for a minute and shook his head. I don’t think he knew what
it was all about but he didn’t like it and Suellen always did rub
him the wrong way. Well, that just about gave her the nervous fits
after all the trouble she’d gone to. She took him out of the office
and rode him up and down the road and talked to him about your ma
cryin’ out of her grave at him for lettin’ her children suffer
when he could provide for them. They tell me your pa sat there in the
wagon and cried like a baby, like he always does when he hears her
name. Everybody in town saw them and Alex Fontaine went over to see
what was the matter, but Suellen gave him the rough side of her
tongue and told him to mind his own business, so he went off mad.
“I don’t know where she got the
notion but some time in the afternoon she got a bottle of brandy and
took Mr. O’Hara back to the office and begun pourin’ it for him.
Scarlett, we haven’t had no spirits ‘round Tara for a year, just
a little blackberry wine and scuppernong wine Dilcey makes, and Mr.
O’Hara warn’t used to it. He got real drunk, and after Suellen
had argued and nagged a couple of hours he gave in and said Yes, he’d
sign anything she wanted. They got the oath out again and just as he
was about to put pen to paper, Suellen made her mistake. She said:
‘Well, now. I guess the Slatterys and the Macintoshes won’t be
givin’ themselves airs over us!’ You see, Scarlett, the Slatterys
had put in a claim for a big amount for that little shack of theirs
that the Yankees burned and Emmie’s husband had got it through
Washington for them.
“They tell me that when Suellen said
those names, your pa kind of straightened up and squared his
shoulders and looked at her, sharp-like. He warn’t vague no more
and he said: ‘Have the Slatterys and the Macintoshes signed
somethin’ like this?’ and Suellen got nervous and said Yes and No
and stuttered and he shouted right loud: Tell me, did that God-damned
Orangeman and that God-damned poor white sign somethin’ like this?’
And that feller Hilton spoke up smooth-like and said: ‘Yes sir,
they did and they got a pile of money like you’ll get.’
“And then the old gentleman let out a
roar like a bull. Alex Fontaine said he heard him from down the
street at the saloon. And he said with a brogue you could cut with a
butterknife: ‘And were ye afther thinkin’ an O’Hara of Tara
would be follyin’ the dirthy thracks of a God-damned Orangeman and
a God-damned poor white?’ And he tore the paper in two and threw it
in Suellen’s face and he bellowed: ‘Ye’re no daughter of mine!’
and he was out of the office before you could say Jack Robinson.
“Alex said he saw him come out on the
street, chargin’ like a bull. He said the old gentleman looked like
his old self for the first time since your ma died. Said he was
reelin’ drunk and cussin’ at the top of his lungs. Alex said he
never heard such fine cussin’. Alex’s horse was standin’ there
and your pa climbed on it without a by-your-leave and off he went in
a cloud of dust so thick it choked you, cussin’ every breath he
drew.
“Well, about sundown Ashley and me
were sittin’ on the front step, lookin’ down the road and ‘mighty
worried. Miss Melly was upstairs cryin’ on her bed and wouldn’t
tell us nothin’. Terrectly, we heard a poundin’ down the road and
somebody yellin’ like they was fox huntin’ and Ashley said:
That’s queer! That sounds like Mr. O’Hara when he used to ride
over to see us before the war.’
“And then we seen him way down at the
end of the pasture. He must have jumped the fence right over there.
And he come ridin’ hell-for-leather up the hill, singin’ at the
top of his voice like he didn’t have a care in the world. I didn’t
know your pa had such a voice. He was singin’ ‘Peg in a
Low-backed Car’ and beatin’ the horse with his hat and the horse
was goin’ like mad. He didn’t draw rein when he come near the top
and we seen he was goin’ to jump the pasture fence and we hopped
up, scared to death, and then he yelled: ‘Look, Ellen! Watch me
take this one!’ But the horse stopped right on his haunches at the
fence and wouldn’t take the jump and your pa went right over his
head. He didn’t suffer none. He was dead time we got to him. I
guess it broke his neck.”
Will waited a minute for her to speak
and when she did not he picked up the reins. “Giddap, Sherman,”
he said, and the horse started on toward home.
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